So ... what freaks you out?

[Windflower]

Our master bedroom has french doors which open onto a huge second floor porch/balcony. It includes a jaccuzi in one corner, and a table for two with barstools, lots of candles, ceiling fan ---the works. Just below is a bricked patio complete with firepit, lawnchairs etc. backed by 100+ old towering pines on the edge of the wooded back border.

As much as I have found peace here and love the place, I have waken in sweats after suffering nightmares in which I am alerted by a scrill scream as one of our children tumbles over the balcony rail.

My one and only serious phobias focuses upon any of our children being severly injured.

--They are not allowed out there without me, as a result.

 

[bethpage]

I am absolutely bat-shit terrified of spiders and insects. I also have this... I wouldn't call it fear (unless I relate it to college), but... dislike, of failure. I abhor failing.

Ｉunderstand...but mine is a little more specific. I have recurring nightmares that I fuck something up (fail, in a word) and someone I love or care about is killed or maimed or irreparably damaged as a result. The nightmares don't just go through the incident, either--I get to live the results in my dreams, and the worst acid is when people tell me "you didn't know....could have happened to anyone...you did your best" and knowing, just knowing that my best is not enough and never will be.

Fortuneatly, I don't get them very often. But they stick around forever.....

 

[im_a_voyeur]

Not being able to go where I want to go. I will never go on a cruise. The thought of being on a ship and unable to just go home if I decide to go before the trip is over totally freaks me out.

I went on my 1st cruise about 3 years ago and I thought I was going to freak out on the ship because of the same reason. It was a short cruise (only 3 days) and each day we stopped on land so it wasn't so bad.

I would love to do a Mediterranean cruise in the future but if they aren't stopping on land everyday, I might jump off the ship.

 

[im_a_voyeur]

LOL. Ohhh, I remember living in Florida. We had the big palmetto roaches where I lived. I still remember the morning when my mom went downstairs one early morning when it was dark and stepped on one...in bare feet. I laughed for so long. That is...until she threatened me with the remains in the paper towel. Ewwwieee.

If I stepped on one barefoot, I would go into a catatonic state and probably never come out of it. *shivers*

 

[im_a_voyeur]

I wasn't afraid of being pregnant but I was terrified to give birth. My friend shared this fear with me and we had what we called our 2 x 4 agreement. When either of us got pregnant, the other would be on hand in the delivery room for the birth with a 2 x 4 wooden board so that we could knock the other out thereby missing the birth of the child and all of the pain that comes with it. We both ended up have C-sections, and let me just tell you, I was SO happy about that! Yeah yeah I know it's natural and women have been doing it forever but that doesn't help.

I so do not ever want to push a child out between my legs so I'm totally with you on that!

The thought of having a baby squirming around inside my stomach just makes me want to hurl. Having a C-section doesn't seem like that great of an option either. I hope I can be content being a childless woman because if I ever get the urge to have a child, I may have to go into counseling to reconcile having an "alien" inside of me.

 

[the captians wench]

Needles is prolly my bigest one. I can sew okay, but if any one else has any sort of needle, I get freaked out. If I get a shot or piercing, I have to go into a meditative state to be calm enough. And Jounar has developed a sudden curiousity for play piercing.

Small spaces. I get very panicy in lifts. When I'm at the dr's office, I request to leave the door cracked.

Hights. Not falling, just being high in general sends me in a panic. I love rollercoasters, but all the way up I am cursing and screaming to get off.

 

[drinkmeup83]

I don't like spiders but I don't freak out and cause a scene if I see one. Heights where my balance is required to keep me safe are also out of the question, mostly because I am a spaz.

But the one thing that I HATE that i have a REAL major problem with is going to the gyno. I don't really know why, but I would say I pretty much come close to having a panic attack. They bug me about my blood pressure saying its elevated and then the stupid paper gown starts sticking to me because I start sweating so much (and I am not one of those people that break into a sweat easily) and I the longer I am in the waiting room the worse it gets.

It is not a doctor thing because I go to the dentist regularly and have had work done on my teeth and am fine. I don't have any problems at my regular doctor and everything always checks out good. Even when I have had to have minor surgery I don't mind. It is just the gyno, and I have no clue why. I know its irrational and the first time I went I was ok its just gotten worse the more I go.

 

[the captians wench]

I don't like spiders but I don't freak out and cause a scene if I see one. Heights where my balance is required to keep me safe are also out of the question, mostly because I am a spaz.

But the one thing that I HATE that i have a REAL major problem with is going to the gyno. I don't really know why, but I would say I pretty much come close to having a panic attack. They bug me about my blood pressure saying its elevated and then the stupid paper gown starts sticking to me because I start sweating so much (and I am not one of those people that break into a sweat easily) and I the longer I am in the waiting room the worse it gets.

It is not a doctor thing because I go to the dentist regularly and have had work done on my teeth and am fine. I don't have any problems at my regular doctor and everything always checks out good. Even when I have had to have minor surgery I don't mind. It is just the gyno, and I have no clue why. I know its irrational and the first time I went I was ok its just gotten worse the more I go.

Now me, I have just the oposite problem with the gyno. I have to work real hard to think unsexy thoughts so I'm not in an embarrassing situation. Especially once I get in the sturrips and the thingie gets me all spread open. I don't know why that turns me on so. Maybe something with being so volnerable and exposed in that possition.

 

[satindesire]

Now me, I have just the oposite problem with the gyno. I have to work real hard to think unsexy thoughts so I'm not in an embarrassing situation. Especially once I get in the sturrips and the thingie gets me all spread open. I don't know why that turns me on so. Maybe something with being so volnerable and exposed in that possition.

I almost had an experience like that.

I went to the doctor about two months ago with the most terrible URI I've ever had, I mean I was leaking from every orifice in my head, my eyes were nearly swollen shut and I had coughed so much I could barely speak!

Anyway, they admit me (wearing gasmasks and biohazard suits) and in strolls in this FUCKING HOT Dean Caine look alike guy. I'm sitting here, dripping snot and not wearing a stitch of makeup (hair in a bedhead ponytail, still in my pajamas, you get it...) and I'm DYING from embarrassment. I mean, he is so hot he could be a cover model for GQ. Perfect tan, muscular, clear gorgeous complexion, thick wavy hair, the WORKS.

He pokes and prods me, takes my blood pressure...then he wants to listen to my heartbeat.

So he unzips the top of my hoodie (did I forget to mention I'm not wearing ANYTHING under the hoodie?) and this gorgeous guy leans in and puts his stethescope thingie against my chest (an inch from my rock-hard nipple mind you), his perfectly arched brows furrowing when he notes my heart rate is like 6000 bpm.

"You need to relax, your heart rate is really high." And I'm sitting there, drooling into my kleenex, trying not to stare at his perfect crystal green eyes.

Ugh. I never want to go back there again.

 

[NewTemptations]

I think I'm getting sick now (cough, cough) where can I find Dr. Green eyes?

Spiders freak me out, they have too many eyes and some extra legs too. But the only thing worse than seeing a spider is knowing that it got away and is loose out there to pounce or scare me at a later date.

I also have a thing about heights, I can go up, but going back down scares me that I might lose my balance or fall.

 

[Necroh_Skewer]

I have a fear of balloons popping (stupid, I know), big spiders, and sleeping in total darkness.

 

[Yasashii_Kaze]

OMG me too, I absolutely have to have a cat!! Whew...now I don't feel like I'm some kind of freak.

Well, I don't know that comparing yourself to me is a great validation of sanity.

 

[satindesire]

Well, I don't know that comparing yourself to me is a great validation of sanity.

*giggle!*

 

[Lady_Fiona]

Spiders - nothing on gods green earth actually NEEDS 8 legs. I was fine until someone decided to put one down my back when I was in my teens. Now I am terrified of the damn things.

Cockroaches - just plain oogy.

Chalk on a blackboard - makes me bite my tongue for hours and wince a lot.

London - I know, stupid phobia but the place terrifies me, its too big, too loud and just too plain busy. Comes of being a country girl at heart.

 

[YourCaptor]

A chest being split open. A sternum being cut, or sawed.

Its something I just can't deal with, chemistry takes over and does everything it can to make me leave.

I watched a video of an autopsy once. I just put my head down on my desk, and the sound of that circular saw meeting resistance. OMG got dizzy and felt like throwing up.

Its a phobic reaction, not good at all.

 

[graceanne]

A chest being split open. A sternum being cut, or sawed.

Its something I just can't deal with, chemistry takes over and does everything it can to make me leave.

I watched a video of an autopsy once. I just put my head down on my desk, and the sound of that circular saw meeting resistance. OMG got dizzy and felt like throwing up.

Its a phobic reaction, not good at all.

I gagged (literally) over the smell of them cauterizing my tubes when they cut them. (Of course, I was already pretty nauseous from the spinal tap.) And the first time I had a cesarian the sound of them cutting through skin and organ REALLY grossed me out.

 

[Harmony_1985]

My doc showed me the key camera shots of the insides of my ovaries the first time I had cysts drained off them, that made me feel a little naueous.

I'm not normally easily grossed out, but the insides of your ovaries aren't pretty.

 

[satindesire]

I gagged (literally) over the smell of them cauterizing my tubes when they cut them. (Of course, I was already pretty nauseous from the spinal tap.) And the first time I had a cesarian the sound of them cutting through skin and organ REALLY grossed me out.

Bleeeeegh. *sympathy gag*

My doc showed me the key camera shots of the insides of my ovaries the first time I had cysts drained off them, that made me feel a little naueous.

I'm not normally easily grossed out, but the insides of your ovaries aren't pretty.

The doctor must have been a sadist.

 

[Condatis]

STUPID SIGNS!!!

http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1200/646461690_654ca7579b.jpg

 

[Harmony_1985]

The doctor must have been a sadist.

Nah, he had overheard the nurse and me discussing that I was a biology student (which at the time, I was studying A level biology) and he thought I'd be interested in seeing what they looked like.

Because of course every post op patient wishes to see pictures of their insides while they're sore and trying to recover from having said doctor delve around in their internal cavities =/

 

[notalwaysweak]

Stuff that might be hiding in the dark. Balloons popping. Driving. I have trypophobia as well.

 

[satindesire]

Nah, he had overheard the nurse and me discussing that I was a biology student (which at the time, I was studying A level biology) and he thought I'd be interested in seeing what they looked like.

Because of course every post op patient wishes to see pictures of their insides while they're sore and trying to recover from having said doctor delve around in their internal cavities =/

*can't help but chuckle* Aww, sweetie. *tight hug!* We're all pink and red and squishy on the inside, aren't we?

Stuff that might be hiding in the dark. Balloons popping. Driving. I have trypophobia as well.

Do you mean Trypanophobia? I've never heard of trypophobia.

 

[Harmony_1985]

*can't help but chuckle* Aww, sweetie. *tight hug!* We're all pink and red and squishy on the inside, aren't we?

I've made DNA, I've disected fish to get their eyes out, I've disected a cow's heart to look for the main valves, but seeing EXACTLY where babies come from was not something I wanted in post op.

I was more bothered about the "ow it hurts" and "when do my stitches come out?" than "hey look, my ovaries!"