Talk 2 Stegral

[Stegral]

Aug 28th 2006

well... I am messed... just took to "carving" a new scar...
attached are a pic of the actual & a template of what it was supposed to look like...

the pain inside seemed to escape like air from under the skin as I did it.

don't be worried.. it works better that the medication the dr's have me on...

Off line for a while... need to heal alot...

 

[Quinn71]

well... I am messed... just took to "carving" a new scar...
attached are a pic of the actual & a template of what it was supposed to look like...

the pain inside seemed to escape like air from under the skin as I did it.

don't be worried.. it works better that the medication the dr's have me on...

Off line for a while... need to heal alot...

I wish you well luv.
Sending you some positive energy........

 

[Stegral]

I wish you well luv.
Sending you some positive energy........

Ty Quinn I appreciate it.
Going to the doc tomorrow to see if she will send me in for pshyce tests...
Just feel useless lately, not wanting to do anything, go anywhere or see anyone. I was diagnosed over 10 years ago with cronic mild dysthemia... I think it is time for a re-evaluation, not just an up in meds...If she doesn't agree then I guess a shift in doc's will be nessecary.
I can't focous, no ambition, no memory, abrupt mood shifts & a host of other crap I am having a hard time dealing with.
Luckily between real life & here there are enough nice people to keep me living.
I am off for the rest of the week at MY request for "stress leave"
I can't seem to focous at work & considering what I do it is a tad dangerous for me & all else around.
I am not sleeping right, not wanting to eat, getting mad/upset with everything & everyone, finding problems everywhere...
Told the boss I want some down time... time to straighten out my life again...
Once he heard me out he asked what kind of work I would like to come back to so he could try to work on something while I was off & just asked to be kept informed. What kind of boss does that when you just dissappear one morning & show up in his office later in the afternoon? Temping may suck but it does have advantages...

Thanks for reading as I vent...

's for you Quinn...

 

[Quinn71]

Ty Quinn I appreciate it.
Going to the doc tomorrow to see if she will send me in for pshyce tests...
Just feel useless lately, not wanting to do anything, go anywhere or see anyone. I was diagnosed over 10 years ago with cronic mild dysthemia... I think it is time for a re-evaluation, not just an up in meds...If she doesn't agree then I guess a shift in doc's will be nessecary.
I can't focous, no ambition, no memory, abrupt mood shifts & a host of other crap I am having a hard time dealing with.
Luckily between real life & here there are enough nice people to keep me living.
i am off for the rest of the week at MY request for "stress leave"
I can't seem to focous at work & considering what I do it is a tad dangerous for me & all elase around.
I am not sleeping right, not wanting to eat, getting mad/upset with everything & everyone, finding problems everywhere...
Told the boss I want some down time... time to straighten out my life again...
Once he heard me out he asked what kind of work I would like to come back to so he could try to work on something while I was off & just asked to be kept informed. What kind of boss does that when you just dissappear one morning & show up in his office later in the afternoon? Temping may suck but it does have advantages...

Thanks for reading as I vent...

's for you Quinn...

I will be thinking of you and wishing the best for you.
If you want My e-mail address IM Me and it's yours!

 

[Stegral]

As per a request...

Sorry I have a very bad memory as of late...

here are pics from the photo shoot Tolyk did with my pets & I
(WARNING: THEY ARE REPTILES, NO CUTE FURRIES !!!!!)

 

[Stegral]

and here are the rest...
max of 5 files per post...lol
(WARNING: THEY ARE REPTILES, NO CUTE FURRIES !!!!!)


Last one is me in a bellydance costume with the snake that actually performs WITH a professional ON STAGE !!!
(Beedy did 5 shows in 3 days at the neptune theater)

 

[Dumpling]

Came & looked at you Pets Steg~
Well its not something I would like to have in the House ~but we cant all like the same Things!

 

[Stegral]

Came & looked at you Pets Steg~
Well its not something I would like to have in the House ~but we cant all like the same Things!

LOL.. I understand Ling !!

I am terrified of dogs & alergic to dander so these are mine...
only 3 pics are actually mine... the balls, Digger & Beedy
I am pet sitting Emily (her owner is moving & didn't want to stress her alot) & Hurley (this owner is in Alberta so I have her long term)....
Mercedes & Buddy I am ATTEPMTING to find good homes for (these 2 need EXPERIENCED handlers as they get 15-20 feet full grown & even though they are extremely gentle giants they are instinctual animals..)

Thanks for peeking anyway Ling.. it is why I put the caution in the post...
(will edit the 2nd one.. realized I forgot it.)

 

[Dumpling]

LOL.. I understand Ling !!

I am terrified of dogs & alergic to dander so these are mine...
only 3 pics are actually mine... the balls, Digger & Beedy
I am pet sitting Emily (her owner is moving & didn't want to stress her alot) & Hurley (this owner is in Alberta so I have her long term)....
Mercedes & Buddy I am ATTEPMTING to find good homes for (these 2 need EXPERIENCED handlers as they get 15-20 feet full grown & even though they are extremely gentle giants they are instinctual animals..)

Thanks for peeking anyway Ling.. it is why I put the caution in the post...
(will edit the 2nd one.. realized I forgot it.)

Iam ok looking at them
now being close to them would be little more difficult
Have Fun Hun

 

[Quinn71]

The snakes look awesome

 

[Stegral]

The snakes look awesome

Ty Quinn... it would have been a better shoot if we had more time...
I RARELY pose in pics so this was hard for me to do... wish I looked better ...lol

 

[Quinn71]

Ty Quinn... it would have been a better shoot if we had more time...
I RARELY pose in pics so this was hard for me to do... wish I looked better ...lol

You did very well

 

[Stegral]

You did very well

*Blushing*

You can thank Tolyk, he was the photographer...
He did his best in the very makeshift set & lighting...
should have put some makeup on so I looked a bit better or different clothes...
we were pinched for time so maybe next time I can prep better... look prettier.

 

[Quinn71]

*Blushing*

You can thank Tolyk, he was the photographer...
He did his best in the very makeshift set & lighting...
should have put some makeup on so I looked a bit better or different clothes...
we were pinched for time so maybe next time I can prep better... look prettier.

He did very well

And no matter what you think, the camera does seem to like you

 

[Stegral]

well an update...

I have made a new friend.. (he is in the lifestyle)
He is going VERY slow with me... friends for a while first.
(well... friends with benifits... he enjoys indulging me)
no talk of any relationship, commitment... we just go out for walks or hook up
this is what he is MAKING for me... just replace the reds with black hematite rings... Click to see
I know you will tell me to be careful & I think I am...
I am trying my best NOT to fall for/get attached to him...
Although I do feel that pull to belong to someone.... BAD STEG....

 

[Stegral]

One of the guys from my previous job stopped in last night..
my AV shows the nibble mark he left on me as teasers.
nothing but a bit of heavy petting & a few kisses exchanged.
It was odd to have gotten that sexually heated with nothing being done...
He is fasinated with the snakes & watched one eat last night.
But I guess he had to get home before Wifey came in from work.
I asked him what drew him to me & I got the same reply...
"don't know.. it is just you" I need to find what it is & reset it to attract single guys, not married ones.

I will attach the pic for when I change my AV...

 

[KyleW]

That looks really nasty and disgusting. Foul. Please don't ever show your face, I don't think my monitor could handle it.

 

[Stegral]

That looks really nasty and disgusting. Foul. Please don't ever show your face, I don't think my monitor could handle it.

I didn't ask to be on your monitor so piss off asswipe

 

[Stegral]

well, found a lifestyle group in the area & am going for a "chat" with them tonight before work... two good things in one day !!!

I am back in the rigs tonight & heading into an area I am not very familiar with so hopefully I can find my big map book of NS...

I am sooooo excited !!!! don't think my day could get much better !!!

(well unless one of my FWB came by for a session...)

Happy HUMPDAY everyone !!!!! ​

 

[mark197205]

*wanders in....*

 

[Stegral]

*wanders in....*

hello sexy... welcome

where would you like to start??

*sits in Marks lap*

 

[mark197205]

hello sexy... welcome

where would you like to start??

*sits in Marks lap*

Good morning beautiful

*strokes your thigh..*

You tell me, just let them thoughts out.....

 

[Stegral]

Good morning beautiful

*strokes your thigh..*

You tell me, just let them thoughts out.....

mmmmm I love being touched...

I love wearing the leather collars, I even have my latest "gift" as my profile pic... I don't "belong" to anyone but I think I would like it...
A term I have heard as of late while lurking here & in another site is "switch"
It seems to suit me well... I have a fasination with those pinwheels & would LOVE to feel them first on my back, from the base of my skull to the heels of my feet (soles are ticklish). I have a "thing" for oral & seem to be giving alot more than getting lately... (I just can't get the nerve to ask...)
I don't think I would like breast torture, but am marveled by candle play...
I do carving personally, more for stress relief than pleasure...
(see previous posts with TOW pic in it)

 

[mark197205]

mmmmm I love being touched...

I love wearing the leather collars, I even have my latest "gift" as my profile pic... I don't "belong" to anyone but I think I would like it...
A term I have heard as of late while lurking here & in another site is "switch"
It seems to suit me well... I have a fasination with those pinwheels & would LOVE to feel them first on my back, from the base of my skull to the heels of my feet (soles are ticklish). I have a "thing" for oral & seem to be giving alot more than getting lately... (I just can't get the nerve to ask...)
I don't think I would like breast torture, but am marveled by candle play...
I do carving personally, more for stress relief than pleasure...
(see previous posts with TOW pic in it)

*runs a finger tip up and down your side.....*


Now thats a beautiful collar....
Belonging is a big step, you would have to hand over a lot to the Dom in your life.

Ah yes, Switch, thats how I would describe myself, someone who enjoys both roles......

I've seen the wheels too, they can go for quite a lot of money apparently, but if your after one and dont mind that its not a "proper" dressmakers wheel, let me know and I'll give you the details.
Now I never used to enjoy giving oral until a year or two ago, I suffer from hayfever and my nose is often blocked or running, not good for trying to concentrate on the lips and clit at all, but I've gotten past it and now love it, probably more than receiving....

Depends on what you mean by breast torture, something mild like nipple clamps arent that bad, but hitting with a crop or whatever has to be done carefully.

I havent tried candle or wax play yet, mainly because of the amount of chest hair I have and getting wax out of that is a right bitch......

Carving, as in using a sharp blade on yourself? just as long as you are very careful can induce a hard rush.....

 

[Stegral]

Depends on what you mean by breast torture, something mild like nipple clamps arent that bad, but hitting with a crop or whatever has to be done carefully.
I havent tried candle or wax play yet, mainly because of the amount of chest hair I have and getting wax out of that is a right bitch......
Carving, as in using a sharp blade on yourself? just as long as you are very careful can induce a hard rush.....

Breast torture to me would include ANYTHING that is not fingers or lips/tongue.

Wax play, well I am usually furless... I would want to try it on the back or stomach first, before going erotic...

Carving I have been doing since I was 12... it is a stress relief for me & I bear a few scars from it.
My latest was a small tribute to what I have become in the last 8 months...
T.O.W scarifacation
I sat & realized I have been "the other woman" now, something I vowed I would never do,
so I carved a reminder of my shame into my forearm as a reminder & to release the guilt from my mind.
I have a high pain tolerance for a "vanilla" but very low for a "pain slut"

*nibbles your ear & rubs your chest hair, grazing your nipples*