The Confessional

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Are you seriously questioning the skills of a man that trained in the X-Men sex club, bar and grill? Check yourself before you wreck yourself.

Guess what we're serving at the reception?

How bad do you want to fuck right now?
 
Wait, wait, wait, you mean after two and a half months of online chatting, YOU'RE NOT IN LOVE WITH ME?

You don't want to whisk me off my feet and e-marry me in a Lit thread titled 'Elvis's All Night Wedding Chapel'?

You're not going to let me have twenty of your babies just because I can make you cum on a porno board?

Mother.

Fucker.

*RAGE BOMB EXPLOSION*


No, really, this is EXACTLY what I've been explaining to people, in some way, for days now. I can become 'close' with anyone on here. We (and by 'we' I mean me and any other Lit member) can IM and email and maybe kick it into phone fun if I decide that you're worth the time and trouble. I can learn a lot of things about you, from what you tell me and what I see you tell others. But that's the catch: I only know you as well as you allow me to.

We are all strangers on here. We can develop 'friendships' but without ever having met someone, you cannot really, REALLY know them. The written word can add so much intensity to what would be normal conversation. On the flip side, the Internet kills off all tone, unless you're writing with someone who's a master at conveying everything they're saying during RP. But there is nothing that compares to a face to face conversation, and no, I don't think web cam time counts.

Being physically present with someone changes everything. This screen can be a huge security blanket for a lot of people. And in a way, we're all sitting here attempting to present the best versions of ourselves as we can. (Or, if you're like Light Ice and Ahren, you don't give a damn what people think, and you're just letting it fly. I love that about these boys.) Someone told me today that I come off as a big slut here on Lit, but that I'm sweeter in private. And hey, that's what I'm going for on here. I'm not like darling Minx; I don't necessarily WANT to be seen as a raging whore. I actually like to come across as... a slut with standards. :D You have to impress me before you'll get ANYWHERE with me.

And if you can do that? If you can seduce me? If you can make me feel not only wanted, but also present yourself as a man who knows just how to please a woman, as a man who is desired as much as I am?

Then you're in for a wild ride.

But again - this is what I present myself as via text. (Handle, avatar, and signature help me out there too.) There is so much about me that people don't know, even the people I talk with on IM. Once you're in someone's life for real, then it's a whole different ball game. They can judge me based on more than the picture I artfully paint with words and suggestive images. Nothing on here is impromptu, and a phone conversation isn't a good substitute for a face to face interaction when you've yet to meet. There's a lot less I can control, and that's really how it should be.

What I don't get about most of the people on here is how flirting equates with love and an intimate connection. Several people have PM'd me asking if they can play with me, or play with Light Ice, because they're not sure if we're... devoted to one another or... something. *Smirks* The answer is YES YOU CAN. And then someone else on an alt name asked me if I loved him, which is ludicrous. When I said no, he/she/it flipped out and called me every name in the book.

I'm just trying to figure out which one of you psychotic monkeys said that to me, so I can thank you for making me crack up.




Sweetie, don't take this the wrong way, but do you really think you know Leo as well as your best friend? I know you've said on here that YOU'RE in love with him, but until you meet face to face, how can you be so sure? Until you can see the type of man he is in public, and how he treats you without words, is it real?

What about chemistry? You can't fake chemistry, and you can't fake things like sexual tension. What happens when you meet and you kiss and the sparks aren't there? I'm not saying that's the case; I'm just saying it's possible.

Short answer? Yes.

Long answer?

Oh boy...

Even face to face with Bradin doesn't equate to much of jack, he's actually more comfortable just fucking me than he is telling me anything to my face. He'll flirt with me in all kinds of ways in text and then he's rather reserved in person yet I can still bring that out in him when we're together.

We have great fuck buddy chemistry but no relationship chemistry. We don't have the emotional span, we're very sarcastic towards each other in general conversation and we joke a lot.

Honestly though? I have far more chemistry with Ado or Leo than I do with Bradin and that's just over the net. I can say things to them while they see my face which is just as you would IRL or face to face and it quite simply thrills and effects me in a different way. Likewise, I can be camming and on audio with Bradin and the chemistry there lacks entirely still.

I don't have chemistry with everyone I role play with or talk to or cam with, there's a few select ones I have that with in different ways and that's why I prefer them over others.

Also, Leo and I intend to meet IRL, it's called a long distance relationship more than just a simple Lit based one. He doesn't just claim ownership here but in my RL too and yeah, my feelings are quite real if that's what you're questioning here.

Do I believe I know him as well as I know my best friend?

Yes.

Bradin can lie to me just like Leo can and I might never find out but meeting him face to face is gonna change what about that exactly?
He still doesn't tell me, I still don't know and the lie perpetuates.
Meeting face to face doesn't denote any honesty at all, you're kidding yourself if you think that you're really seeing a person just because you can poke them in the chest instead of typing it.

I would love to and when we finally can, it will be so exciting that I may well blow up the boards entirely running around screaming but I can be patient enough to wait for that and spend my time getting to know him even better.

When there's chemistry, you just know it, I don't have to kiss him to know that when I finally do, I won't stop.
 
That's when guys actually dressed well and girls dressed ELEGANTLY.

Britwitch, let's get married. I'll go find us an Elvis.

Amen. I love watching Boardwalk Empire just to see how dressed up everyone gets for a night out on the town.
 
I confess that I don't do well when being screamed at by anyone, especially not a 2 year old *glares at niece who thinks she needs me in the room 28 hours a day*
 
I confess that I too am enjoying writing again.

Scientific writing has made me overly succinct.
 
Short answer? Yes.

Long answer?

Oh boy...

Even face to face with Bradin doesn't equate to much of jack, he's actually more comfortable just fucking me than he is telling me anything to my face. He'll flirt with me in all kinds of ways in text and then he's rather reserved in person yet I can still bring that out in him when we're together.

We have great fuck buddy chemistry but no relationship chemistry. We don't have the emotional span, we're very sarcastic towards each other in general conversation and we joke a lot.

Honestly though? I have far more chemistry with Ado or Leo than I do with Bradin and that's just over the net. I can say things to them while they see my face which is just as you would IRL or face to face and it quite simply thrills and effects me in a different way. Likewise, I can be camming and on audio with Bradin and the chemistry there lacks entirely still.

I don't have chemistry with everyone I role play with or talk to or cam with, there's a few select ones I have that with in different ways and that's why I prefer them over others.

Also, Leo and I intend to meet IRL, it's called a long distance relationship more than just a simple Lit based one. He doesn't just claim ownership here but in my RL too and yeah, my feelings are quite real if that's what you're questioning here.

Do I believe I know him as well as I know my best friend?

Yes.

Bradin can lie to me just like Leo can and I might never find out but meeting him face to face is gonna change what about that exactly?
He still doesn't tell me, I still don't know and the lie perpetuates.
Meeting face to face doesn't denote any honesty at all, you're kidding yourself if you think that you're really seeing a person just because you can poke them in the chest instead of typing it.

I would love to and when we finally can, it will be so exciting that I may well blow up the boards entirely running around screaming but I can be patient enough to wait for that and spend my time getting to know him even better.

When there's chemistry, you just know it, I don't have to kiss him to know that when I finally do, I won't stop.

Okay so I should say that I've had a bit to drink tonight and I made a list of all the things that make me happy in Alana's thread, so. I'm tipsy. And I'm happy. And I'm hyper. So bear with me here.

You are a nice girl, Minx. You're a nice girl who love sex and owns her sexuality wholly. However, you can't tell me that what you have with Bradin (my friend spells it Braden) is less than what you have with Leo. Leo is still a man online. I have had chemistry with men online. Some of them I've taken the plunge with and talked to on the phone and you know what? Sometimes its awkward as hell. One guy in particular was just STRANGE and we wrote so well together. It was an eye opener. It made a lot of things click into place. It would have been an even more dramatic realization had we MET.

I don't want to start shit here. And I don't want to dictate your relationship with Leo to anyone else. Does he really own your ass in real life? Like how would he know if you 'cheated'? He wouldn't. Because you're in Australia and he's in Florida and you don't have mutual friends. He would never, EVER know if everything you had to say was bullshit, unless you got sloppy with your lies. And vice versa! Sweetheart, listen to me: You can have fun with Leo. Cam with him, get all wrapped up into the fantasy. But stay grounded. Until you meet, there are all these little things you won't be aware of or pick up on. And little things count. They might even throw off any chemistry you THINK you have. Do you know what I'm saying?

And I'm not kidding myself. What I think is that on here, it's very, very easy to manipulate who you are to people, okay? I used to lie all the time about who I was, for a million different reasons. I stopped, finally. However, the people I talk to still don't know every little thing about me. Furthermore, when you meet someone in person, they have a different emotional and subconscious psychological reaction to you than they do online.

Okay, so you brought me up to Light Ice. He and I both find it funny that people think we're about to get married even though we're STRANGERS ON A PORNO SITE, so maybe I shouldn't use him as an example because that might exacerbate the probelem, but he's a good example.

If I ever meet that man? It will be like we're meeting for the first time. People get nervous, and there's a different type of tension that occurs when you're in the same room as someone. It's the same way with anyone in real life. I can be confident on the phone with a guy, and then in person I might freeze up. Or I might be great with him in person, because I can see his face and gauge his reactions, but on the phone we might grow silent and it could be awkward. It's the same situation online, except even worse, because you really don't know a person until:

1) You've known them for a LONG time, at least a year

and

2) You've been through a few things with them.

You can know someone online for a long time but again, you can only know what they tell you. If I live in the same town as someone, I know this person's way of llife, I know their friends/coworkers/church members/classmates, etc. I know where they live and where they've come from. I get a better picture of who they are from the things they DON'T tell me. But on the Internet, it's all biased and skewed from their perspective. I have to believe them at their word if I want to get anywhere with them.

Leo could be lying to you, you could be lying to him. You'll never know it until you meet. Love cannot exist without trust, girly girl. You may trust Leo when you play with him and you may trust him with your secrets because he's far away. But you can't deeply trust someone with all of your soul until you've known them for a long, long time and experienced things with them.

Light Ice is awesome. He's sexy and funny and handsome and talented. But OMG he's a stranger on the Internet. Until we meet in person, I have to stay guarded. And even after we meet in person, I still have to stay guarded. But I'm perceptive, Minx. If I meet Light Ice in the flesh, my intuition will kick in, more than it does now, and I can get a better read on him. I can see if we have chemistry, if he's trustworthy, if he's someone I enjoy being around. I may feel good chatting with him and I may feel great when we play. But that's not the same thing as feeling good in someone's company. So much of what we as humans say is without words, hon. On here, it's all text, and or if its phone/cam it's almost all verbal. Body language means a lot. The vibe you get from being in close proximity with someone means a lot. And sexual chemistry is not something that can be properly gauged with words, honey.

Seeing someone from a cross the room, watching their lips as they speak and knowing you could reach out and kiss them, feeling their hand on yours. That's what chemistry is about. Or looking at someone halfway through a conversation and realizing how electric it feels, whether you're agreeing completely or having a big debate. You cannot replicate these moments online, and it doesnt matter if you're Shakespeare or Tennessee Williams or whoever. When you meet Leo, you will learn all sorts of new things about him. The way he moves, the way he reacts to you in front of him, are all different, hopefully, than how he is on a web cam.

You're fuckin crazy girl but I dont want to see you disappointed you know? Be careful with your heart and who you profess your love to. And don't t be so quick to tell people you're a whore and that you'll suck off anyone. You need to learn self-respect. And Leo, or anyone else for that matter, doesn't deserve your love and devotion until they've earned it. Like, okay I know you have that whole BDSM relationship and he's the MASTER and you're the SLAVE and ohhhh, he cracks a whip and blah fucking blah. Make him respect you and don't think for a moment that he's above having to prove himself to you. Online dating is great for many, many people. But DIG AROUND! Give it a long long time before you say you love someone, and yeah, sometimes that means being blunt like Ahren and Light Ice and I guess now me because I don't feel like mincing words. What I really think is that love without a physical meeting cannot exist. Also Leo has a persona on here that may or may not match up with the real world and if you're too trusting you won't be able to tell what's truth and what's just a bunch of lies.

I didnt come onto Lit looking for a boyfriend. Some people do and it makes me really wonder sometimes. This is just a place where people are sexual and have fantasies, it is not indicative of who they really are in life. SO BE CAREFUL.

/MASSIVE WARNING OF DOOOOM
 
We aren't getting married? What the hell, man. I had an Orange tuxedo on lay a way.
 
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