Then, Now and After -

[cgraven]

“Captain, we can’t take another hit like that. Aft shields are gone, starboard just buckled. Hull breach on crew quarters. Causalities on all decks.” Rocked out of my chair with another blast. I scramble back to my station.


“I got some minimal power to the starboard shield Captain, but it’s not gonna hold.”

We have been caught flat footed in planetary orbit with half the crew on the surface. It is time to make a decision the decision that all Captain’s hope that they will never face. I make it in a flash and then issue my orders.


“Alyssa divert all available power to the shields, Martian I’ll take the helm, Make preparations to abandon ship.”

I take the helm and it the GQ alarm.

“This is the Captain all hands prepare to abandon ship.”

The next thirty minutes is a game of dodging the enemy’s fire, and motoring the damage reports.

“Alyssa on my mark go to full power and then get the hell to a life pod………………All Hands abandon ship on my mark…………….Alyssa better get going kid.”

 

[Annabelllee2003]

“Alyssa divert all available power to the shields, Martian I’ll take the helm, Make preparations to abandon ship.”
My blood freezes when I hear him give the order to abandon ship and he takes the helm. Fearing what I know will be coming.

“All power diverted, Aye.”

Blinking blood out of my eyes, I scramble to hold power to the shields.

“Alyssa on my mark go to full power and then get the hell to a life pod………………All Hands abandon ship on my mark……………Alyssa better get going kid.”

“Full power, Aye”

“Alyssa get out of here, NOW,” he bellows as another volley rams into us. A shower of sparks rein down from the overhead as he punches the gun and we shudder and lunge downward.

“I can hold shields a little longer Captain, just keep our ass end from being hit. You don’t have a chance if I don’t. I’m not leaving you here,” I scream back, holding steady at my station

“GET OUT”

“NO, court marshal me later but I’m not leaving without you.”

 

[cgraven]

“I can hold shields a little longer Captain, just keep our ass end from being hit. You don’t have a chance if I don’t. I’m not leaving you here,” I scream back, holding steady at my station

“GET OUT”

“NO, court marshal me later but I’m not leaving without you.”

‘Ensign you are insubordinate…………………..Thanks Alyssa…………………..5, 4 , 3, 2, 1, Mark”


I hit full power we surge ahead I watch as the indicators count off the ejections of the life pods. I only hope the ion burst shield the launch signatures of the pods giving the crew a chance to make the surface.

“”Alyssa Strap in and my mark well I'll detach and make for the surface…..3, 2, 1, Mark............Hold on this is going to be a rough ride kid.”

I had timed our separation form the main ship to coincide with their next attack, with any luck they would believe all where destroyed. We went careening off in a steep dive for the planets surface and I soon lose consciousness from the G pull.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

Strapping in as Derek directed, I didn’t have time to be scared as we broke free and started toward the planet. When the rest of our ship explodes, I don’t even see the blast.

I wake to the tick, tick, tick of cooling metal… and Derek shaking my shoulder. My head was pounding, a beat somehow matching the ticking of the ship. I was so happy to see him, I unbuckled and threw myself in his arms with enough force to make him stagger back. The deck was crooked, we must have lost a strut or landed badly.

His eyes were shadowed and hurt as I pulled back to look at him. A deep sigh was pulled from him as he helped me stand upright on my own.

“Did you … have you seen any evidence that the pods made it here Derek?” Please don’t let him say no. I’d rather hear anything but that. Some MUST have made it, we did…

 

[cgraven]

Slowly I come to we are down in one piece, but it was a rough landing to say the least. Alyssa is still strapped and ther is a deep cut over her eye.

“Alyssa, ….Alyssa”

I shake her shoulder trying to bring her around. The suddenly she is in my arms and I am staggering backwards my arms around her waist. Alyssa pulls back a bit her eyes wide worried full of concern as my hands still around her waist I steady her to stand on her own.

“Did you … have you seen any evidence that the pods made it here Derek?”

I see the fear in her dark green eyes., she is holding her breath waiting for an answer. And what can I tell her. Like my old chief in training told me When all else fails try the truth.

“Alyssa I don’t know,…… some made it as least as far as the atmosphere, and we have half a crew down here……………………………. But we are along way away from them.”

I enfold Alyssa in my arms hugging her close desperately needing the feel of another human being at this moment.

“Our best chance of locating them is to get some rest and then see if we can get some sensors on line. to pinpoint them.”

 

[Annabelllee2003]

I would stay in his arms forever if I could, resting my throbbing head against his broad chest. I know he’s careful not to get my hopes up about the rest of the crew and I know this must cost him.

Finally moving away I look about the bridge. I’d shake my head in wonder if it didn’t hurt so badly. I look at all the damage sustained. Some indicators still burn, but sensors are indeed off-line.

The lights blur as it catches up to me… the last barren six months, the hurt of being near him, the battle, and our flight to this planet. My reserve crumbles and a hitching sob burns my chest.
I grope blindly for him, and he’s there. Thank god he’s there.

 

[cgraven]

Alyssa looks around the bridge, I know she must think me mad that any thing could be mad to work in the chaotic mess that surrounds us.

As Alyssa shakes her head in disbelief she staggers a heart wrenching sob burst forth from her all the pain destruction and pen up emotion break at once her eyes blurred by her tears her arms reaching out, then she is in my arms I ease Alyssa to the deck hugging her fiercely to me my lips crushed to her, My hands stoking her hair.

“It’s all right let it go dear let it go’

I hold her tightly letting her know I am there as she sobs into my shoulder.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

I cry until my tears are used up. Until my nose is clogged and my head pounds even more. I cling to Derek like a burr. I hear the rumble his voice makes in my ear as he soothes me with his words. When I level off to hicking chest spasms, I try and remember when I have cried like that last. I must have been a child.

Derek’s shirt is wet with my tears and smears of my blood. My hitches and spasms slowly fade as I lay, cradled against his chest. I feel his arms tighten and shift in his grasp. Raising my arms to his neck, my muscles creaking in protest, to snake around and lock. I look at him, his eyes so warm and expressive in the flickering emergency lights. He’s never looked better to me.

I slowly release his neck and push off to sit beside him. I take a deep breath, and gather courage.

“Derek, it’s been a horrible six months, I told you I couldn’t forget our time together and I haven’t begun to. I’ve been correct and proper. I’ve worked and worked hard to push you out of my mind. It hasn’t worked.

“I can’t let you near me again. I …I …thank you for the comfort you gave me now, but I won’t do it again. We’ll do as you say, we’ll get some sleep and fix the sensors and find the crew. Things will go back to normal. But when we get out of this, I’m transferring. Or resigning, whatever it takes to leave.

“I can’t keep being near you Derek. It hurts too much. I love you and it hurts too much to be near you and not be able love you.” I look away, unable to meet his eyes.

 

[cgraven]

Alyssa sobs; I hold her close, trying to ease her pain and fear. Slowly her sobs stop. Then she pushes away from me sitting up.

“Derek, it’s been a horrible six months, I told you I couldn’t forget our time together and I haven’t begun to. I’ve been correct and proper. I’ve worked and worked hard to push you out of my mind. It hasn’t worked.

“I can’t let you near me again. I …I …thank you for the comfort you gave me now, but I won’t do it again. We’ll do as you say, we’ll get some sleep and fix the sensors and find the crew. Things will go back to normal. But when we get out of this, I’m transferring. Or resigning, whatever it takes to leave.

“I can’t keep being near you Derek. It hurts too much. I love you and it hurts too much to be near you and not be able love you.”

She looks away shielding her eyes from my gaze.

“Alyssa what if I do not want you to go, refuse to endorse your transfer?…………… do you think it hasn’t been hell for me these last six months?”

I warp my arms tightly around Alyssa refusing to let her move away from me.

“To be so close, your sent, the warmth of your body as we passed in the passage way, so close yet out of reach. No I made the mistake of letting you walk away six months ago for the sake of duty, I will not lose you again my love.”

I turn Alyssa to face me and I kiss her with all the love, passion and frustration of the last six months in that kiss.

“Alyssa I love you more than life itself.”

My eyes hold hers my soul bared to my love.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

“Alyssa what if I do not want you to go, refuse to endorse your transfer?…………… do you think it hasn’t been hell for me these last six months?”

He would stop my transfer? I start to protest and the words die quickly on my lips when he gathers me firmly, holding me solidly.

“To be so close, your scent, the warmth of your body as we passed in the passage way, so close yet out of reach. No I made the mistake of letting you walk away six months ago for the sake of duty, I will not lose you again my love.”

With this, his kiss is wild on my lips. I strain toward him, my heart pounding at his words. Everything, every bit of passion denied, every unspoken word, every aborted touch and arrested glance, every bit of the love I’d been hiding came pouring out when our lips met.

Pulling back, his stare fires my soul.

“Alyssa I love you more than life itself.”

My heart blooms, seeming to expand in my chest. Joyous at the relief of the tension and longing of those barren six months. It forces tears of happiness to spill, wetting my cheeks, and I hug him tightly, tightly. Unwilling to let him go for an instant.

 

[cgraven]

Tears glisten in Alyssa’s deep dark green eyes, they form crystalline drops the roll down her smooth cheeks. Alyssa’s arms around me, hugging me tightly, holding on to me as if I were life itself, My arms enfold her and I crush her lithe body to mine as if that hug could make up for the lonely, hollowness, of the last six months. Slowly with a finger I lift her chin, my eyes soft tender and full of love.

“Alyssa I love YOU………… I love You……….. I love You “

My lips bathe her face, kissing away here tears as I declare my love for her. A love that I will never walk away from again. We recline still locked in our intense embrace, fearing, to let go even for a second , and I cradle Alyssa’s head to my shoulder, her fragrance so intoxicating.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

With the wreckage of the bridge around us, stranded on a basically uncharted planet, attacked by unknown enemies, unsure of whether any of our equipment or instruments have made it in tact, ignorant of where our fellow crewmates are, indeed whether any from the ship made it here alive, even with all that I am happier than I have ever been in my life.

It doesn’t matter, none of it. And while not really trivial, our situation in general is overshadowed by the reality of hearing Derek’s heartbeat as I lay against him. It could be the furthest thing from the truth, but I feel safe. Content. The burden I’ve been carrying around, gone.

I start to nod off. The last thing I remember before sleeping is telling him how much I love him.
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We woke at about the same time. I don’t think I have moved in hours. I raise my head and smile at Derek, still in his arms. His brilliant eyes smile and he half rolls on me to kiss me the rest of the way awake.

The way his lips move over mine, our kiss deepens until I think sparks will fly. His tongue rolls, flirts and dances with mine as our hands careen wildly, seductively over each other. Pent up passion and our ordeal seem to make us hasty, clumsy. We are making raw nonsense sounds in each others mouth and we start to shed clothing. His shirt, my shirt, my bra. Raw need has seized us and nothing will stop us from consummating our love.

“Hhurmphhhhh, EXCUSE ME?” Well THAT stops us.

We jerk upright. Scrambling crazily behind Derek, a dark flush of embarrassment staining my face, I peek over his shoulder at Martin, making his way onto the bridge through the emergency hatch. His face is blistered in places but he’s smiling almost indulgently at us.

“Ensign Descartes,” he drawls, winking at Derek, “Have you ever been IN the proper uniform during a crisis?”

Oh, my giddy aunt.

 

[cgraven]

Heavenly dark green eyes, a shy sleepy smile and I roll to kiss Alyssa.
White hot flashes of passion, the feel of Alyssa, the taste of her, the long and need to me one with Alyssa. Hands pulling at shirts, Alyssa bra gone the feel of her young breast bared to me.

“Hhurmphhhhh, EXCUSE ME?”

I set bolt upright and ease Alyssa behind me placing myself between her and the dark form.

“Ensign Descartes, have you ever been IN the proper uniform during a crisis?”

Martins slow drawl and that devilish wink so much a part of him. Martian has the gift for understatement and rye humor.

“ Lieutenant I believe it is customary to request permission to enter the bridge before just barging in.”

My voice is stern.


“I am sure you’ll forgive me for not standing given the situation.”

Then a smile creases my face .

“Damn it I glad to see you made it in more or less one piece Martian. How many others made it?”

Martian gives his report, most of the crew had made it to the surface, we had lost some, but al in all where in pretty good shape. I learn that the crew is spread out over a 100 kilometer area, and we are 200 kilometers from the landing party.

“Sir I’ll start to round up the crew in the immediate area and set up a secure homing beacon………………………………….. It will take the better part of the day Sir.”

Again Martin’s teasing wink. and a roughish smile.

I’ll report back in 8 hours sir.

He turns and secures the hatch behind him as he leaves.

““Ensign Descartes what ever should we do about you being out of the proper uniform during this crisis?”


I tease Alyssa.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

With Martin's and Derek's banter, I smile, hiding my face against Derek's back.

When Martin gives the sitrep, the smile dies as I think of who is lost. I may have gotten off to a rocky start on this now wrecked ship, but I grew to respect and like most of the crew.

We'd gotten off lucky and it was going to be hard going - 100 and 200 klicks. Not bad. But some of the terrain on this planet was treacherous. It was temperate climate, but we'd seen some pretty good storms here.

I smile again, pressing into Derek's back when I hear Martin tell us we have 8 hours... I raise a hand to Martin as he leaves and hear Derek taunt me -

“Ensign Descartes what ever should we do about you being out of the proper uniform during this crisis?”

I lick up his back and press my breasts into him, rubbing against him, exciting myself in the process, then put my arms around him pulling him back to me and let my hands stroke his chest and down to his crotch. I kiss his neck and shoulder, nipping playfully and feel his responsive shiver.

"Rather out of uniform yourself Captain..." I say as I open his trousers and reach inside.

"Mmm, little more out of uniform, eh Sir?"

 

[cgraven]

The feel of Alyssa’s bare breasts and nipples as she presses and rubs her self against my back. Her tongue as it seductively licks up my back sending shivers a pleasure coursing through me as I tease Alyssa Ensign Descartes what ever should we do about you being out of the proper uniform during this crisis?” Her playful nips. Kisses, and her tempting fingers as they tease me raking across my chest and abdomen to my crotch.

"Rather out of uniform yourself Captain..."

Alyssa’s dainty fingers at my pants, freeing my throbbing penis, that jumps at the soft caress of Alyssa’s fingers.

"Mmm, little more out of uniform, eh Sir?"

There is a wicked smile on my face as I rest my head on the on the pillows of Alyssa’s breast My hand at the back of her neck slowly drawing her to my lips. as I arch my neck to meet her lips. I am so relaxed and at ease with Alyssa as If I had know her all my life, no longer than that as if I had know her sense the beginning of time.

“Alyssa lets get out of these uniforms dear.”

I tease as I swing Alyssa around to my lap.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

“Alyssa lets get out of these uniforms dear.” he says as he swings me round to his lap.

"I can't take off my trousers Derek, sitting on your lap," I say reasonably, then kissing him.

I hike up wrapping my legs around him and pressing my still trousered crotch against his. Arms around his shoulders hugging him. Moving seductively, teasing him.

Happy to tease and enjoy each second with him. It's easy to be so happy. Even with enemies probably scoping us out as we sit. It's perfect.

But as I shift on his lap, another more ugent need comes to light...

"Derek, I have to pee."

 

[cgraven]

Those stunning green eyes of Alyssa look up and me smiling teasing longing as she lay on my lap.

"I can't take off my trousers Derek, sitting on your lap,"


Alyssa soft whisper, her lips brushing mine., then the next thing I know she is setting on my lap straddling me. Alyssa’s legs around me her arms around my shoulders as she hugs me tightly to her, Alyssa’s hips rocking seductively her groin rubbing against me, and I know she can feel my rising ardor pressing against her firm rump.

"Derek, I have to pee."

This is not what I want to here at this moment My eyes are wide, hers demurely lower our foreheads rest against each other’s, the I laugh.

“So a more pressing call of nature is it Ensign Descartes?”

A quick peck on Alyssa’s full moist lips.

“The head at the back of the bridge might still be intact...........My dear your hardly dressed to go out and explore for a spot on the planet."

I tease Alyssa.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

Untangling from Derek, I smile and make my way through the debris to the head. The hatch gives a squeaky moan but opens and I attend to business inside. Still smiling at the thought of him, still almost giddy with the incredible turn of events I stretch and peer in the cramped space looking into the small mirror above the basin. ‘Damage Report’ I think with a laugh as I wet a towel and sponge off the blood on my forehead. It’s tender and rather ugly looking, but not serious, the headache is almost gone. I take another towel and wash my face and run the damp across my body trying to freshen up.

I twist to run the towel over my back and yelp. Twisting again, I look into the mirror and see fine horizontal scratches over my back. I must have fallen against something but I don’t remember what. Looking at the scratches a huge shudder passes through me, making me stagger. Another flash of something deep in me pushes up and I have to clutch the basin to remain upright. It’s like the feeling I get when accessing terrain, but much more strong. Like I stepped into someone else’s body and witnessed their injury.

Shaking my head to clear it, I wet the towel again and cover my face.

 

[cgraven]

I snap bolt upright when I her Alyssa’s yelp and I run to the head swing the door open . The look of fear in her eyes the fine horizontal scratches over Alyssa’s back as she leans on the basin for support. My arms go around her and I hug her to me. Some thing is wrong, I know she has sensed something.

“Alyssa what wrong love ?”

I pause just holding her close letting her feel my love.

“Please dear tell me there should be no secrets between us.”

 

[Annabelllee2003]

My heart thuds in my chest with the feeling those scratches brought forth so strongly. The towel on my face does nothing to dispel the weird déjà vu feeling.

When Derek bursts in and hugs me, asking what is wrong, the feeling is gone. Entirely gone like a switch being thrown.

“Please dear tell me there should be no secrets between us.”

“I don’t know really. But when I saw the scratches on my back I just… felt this huge terror and …despair? I’ve never felt anything like it. It felt like I was someone else,” I take a deep breath and continue.

“When you came in and held me – POOF! it went away.” Laughing, I shake my head.

“You seem to have banished my demons Captain.”

 

[cgraven]

I hold Alyssa close, I do not know what it is but I feel with have loved and been loved through out all time , and yet there is a sadness in that knowledge as if we never fond the happiness that love promised.

“I don’t know really. But when I saw the scratches on my back I just… felt this huge terror and …despair? I’ve never felt anything like it. It felt like I was someone else,” I take a deep breath and continue…………………….“When you came in and held me – POOF! it went away.”

Her laugh as Alyssa shakes her head the feel of her hair as it tickles me the sensual warmth of her body pressed to min, stirs a burning desire within me for this shy beauty.

“You seem to have banished my demons Captain.”


I turn Alyssa to face me my hands on the gentle swell of her hips our lips meet and tongues dance in a wild kiss.

“Ensign and you seem to have awakened my demons and a burning desire for you.”

Our kiss deepens and my hands glide over Alyssa’s sensual curves the feel of her bare flesh amazingly intoxicating.

“Any ideas come to mine Ensign?”

 

[Annabelllee2003]

“I have a few ideas, Captain,” I smile and push him back a little, “I see you’re still out of uniform,” tugging on his uniform pants, now comically open, his restored erection poking out. He didn’t think to zip back up.

Of course I did what any normal women would do under the circumstances. I twitched, I sputtered. I quit trying to control it and burst out laughing. I laughed until I had to hold onto him to stand up. Then he started laughing. It really wasn’t that funny, but by God it felt good to laugh.

We laughed supporting each other until my sides ached. It must have been a release of tension from the battle, leaving the ship, the danger, and my weird spell. Finally, I got a stitch in my side that hurt crazy. I gasp and wheezed, in laughter and pain.

“DEREK, I need you to rub here, I’ve got a CRAMP!” taking his hand and guiding it to my side. He massaged it.

While still giggling, he kisses me. The kiss stops my laughter like the stitch in my side couldn’t. Now I hold on to him and pull him tight against me. Rubbing my breasts against his chest. Kissing his neck his shoulder, my hands caressing his back and I have never wanted a man as badly as I want him.

“Duty Bunkroom Captain?”

 

[cgraven]

“I have a few ideas, Captain,” ……………………..“I see you’re still out of uniform,”

Alyssa’s eyes have a naughty little twinkle in them as she pushes me back, then that twinkle, turns to merriment as her eyes drop to my waist. A giggle then a stifled laugh. I look down and I see that I had forgotten to zip up in my hurry to see what was wrong when Alyssa had yelped. My ardor for my beautiful young Ensign was quite oblivious and Alyssa’s laugher breaks forth as I blush, and join in. It dose not take long before we are both doubled over laughing the stress of the last six months and are recent plight ease away.

“DEREK, I need you to rub here, I’ve got a CRAMP!”

Alyssa’s hand covers mine and I massage the cramp I her side , my lips find Alyssa’s and I brush my lips to her giggling smile. Her arms are around my neck Alyssa body sways as we kiss her bare breasts pressed and rub against me. She bathes my face and neck with soft kisses and I kiss tongue and nip at the nape Of Alyssa’s neck.

“Duty Bunkroom Captain?”

“Yes Duty Bunk room Alyssa.”

I give Alyssa my hand let in her lead the way and set the pace.

 

[Annabelllee2003]

When Derek draws me from the head, there's no more laughter. We walk together unwilling to let the other go as we cross the duty bunkroom. It's a utilitarian space, cramped as most spaces on the ship.

Derek closes the hatch and I move against him pressing him with my body so he's against it. When he looks as though he wants to speak, I press my fingers to his lips and look into his eyes. His beautiful eyes show every emotion and I stand on tiptoe to brush my lips across his.

My hands explore his chest and my nails drag slowly against his skin. I feel the gooseflesh that rises at my touch. I kiss down his chin to his neck, wanting to taste him at my leisure. My hands meander downward, slowly caressing him to his stiff shaft and I pull his trousers lower nudging his legs until he moves and I can take them off.

I move up his body again pressing into him and tease my nipples across his chest, reaching up to kiss him again. When he moves to put his arms around me, I stop him with my hands at his wrists and I move down him again sliding along his hard cock until I am on my knees before him.

My mouth opens and I lick around the head of his penis and relish the moan that escapes him. I move lower until my tongue can bathe his sack with long slow laps of my tongue. Derek tenses and I smile, holding his wrists to the hatch when he would raise them again. Nudging his legs apart, I nuzzle his balls and below, licking, and inhaling his private scent. When I lick back up to his cock and take his head in my mouth his answering shudder and moan makes a rush of wet coat my pussy.

I tease and tease my tongue whirling and licking, sucking him in deep and back out until just his head is locked between my lips allowing my tongue to create more intense pleasure for him. I feel his hips start to move and stop him with a minute shake of my head. His frustrated groan is music.

I stand still holding his wrists and lead him to the bunk. Pushing him back onto it my eyes locked on his until he’s prone. Then I lay on him, bringing his arms above his head, moving until his cock is against my pussy between my legs. Not in me, just squeezing my thighs around him. Teasing, teasing the man of my dreams.

 

[cgraven]

Loving, playful, beautiful and alluring all theses aspects of Alyssa I had seen before, yet there had always been a reserve to this young beauty. That reserve was gone now. Some how with the confession of our love, Alyssa let completely go of any reserve. She was sensual, seductive , teasing , wanton in her need to please and tease me.

Alyssa used her mouth, lips, tongue, hands, supple body to please, tease, delight and torture me all at once. My love passion, and need for her ignited in to a whit hot all consuming desire. Alyssa denied me even the pleasure of a touch , or kiss. She was in control and I moaned gasped and sighed my pleasure, anticipation and frustration as they shrilled within me as her tongue did as she suckled my cock.

I am prone on the duty bunk Alyssa eyes hold me a willing captive, I feel every gentle supple curve of her body as she press down on me and squeezes my prick between her thighs and squeezes.


“Alyssa I need you so, I need you now my love.”

I managed a choked whisper as I groan in delight.