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cactusjack0584 said:
Why did this make me both hopeful and sad at the same time?
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I’ve been thinking on this all day. I wanted to have something nice and uplifting but I have nothing. I tend to be hyper independent because of past trauma. It seems like every time I take a chance and ask for help I regret it later. It’s just easier to count on myself. That’s not healthy and it definitely doesn’t help build a relationship so….i think we should be able to do things on our own but we should also be able to ask for help.
 
Chillygirl said:
I’ve been thinking on this all day. I wanted to have something nice and uplifting but I have nothing. I tend to be hyper independent because of past trauma. It seems like every time I take a chance and ask for help I regret it later. It’s just easier to count on myself. That’s not healthy and it definitely doesn’t help build a relationship so….i think we should be able to do things on our own but we should also be able to ask for help.
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cactusjack0584 said:
Why did this make me both hopeful and sad at the same time?
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Unasked for Two Cents

Because I occasionally struggle with this version of loneliness

I know what it looks like when I offer help to people … when I give them what I can. And so if I ask for help or expect them to help without being asked … and they don’t provide that specific kind of help i imagine, I become quite disappointed and let down and lonely.

I’ve come to realize that’s a version of manipulation and self-misery… because I will never be able to make anyone do anything

They choose. And they are allowed to choose.

I’m learning to possibly ask for help but whether I do or not … not to expect help at all.

What keeps this from being lonely is to remember to be grateful for the moments that have had assistance in this way or that.

I’m still not good at this. At all.

But I’m trying and I think I’m better for it.
 
Chillygirl said:
Sometimes I wonder if I’d truly enjoy a real D/s relationship in person 24/7.
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I have wondered the same for me, i read stories and some make it intriguing, then I read stories and just think that is not me or how I want to be at all, i guess just like any other relationship, trust, and open communication would be heavily needed before and during the whole relationship building.

But I am not sure I will ever trust like that again…
 
Broken_paladin said:
Can you imagine just how exhausting that would be?

But would it be the kind of exhaustion that makes you sleep better at night or the kind that makes you seek anti-depression meds?
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lol that’s what I’m talking about. The couple of times I thought I could completely trust someone I got badly burned. So now I’m not even sure if I could trust myself let alone another person. And the pressure it would put on the partner!

But man wouldn’t it be nice to have someone I could be completely vulnerable with. To know they would protect me and give me that safe space. Even more than that to be able to do the same for my partner.
 
Chillygirl said:
Well it’s really happening. A RIF will begin…no word for the agency I work for at this time. Just been told to wait 🙄🤬
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I'm sorry to read that! I've been in your situation a couple of times and I know the feeling of not knowing what will happen next.
I always feel better when you get the paper. Then you know what will happen and can take actions from there.

Sending big hugs from Sweden! 🫂🫂
 
That sucks. I'm sorry to hear that. I have a few friends who are going through this. All of them are decent people and don't deserve what they are being subjected to.
 
Well OPM and the State Department fired all their probationary employees this afternoon. No notice, no warning, no union. A teams meeting followed by an email.

I’m no longer manic and panicking…I’m more my body has given up and I’m just going to lay here and wait for something horrible to happen. I’m not probationary, I’m not close to retirement. I’m right in the middle. And hopefully being in a hospital means something. But damn I hate this for everyone.
 
Chillygirl said:
Well OPM and the State Department fired all their probationary employees this afternoon. No notice, no warning, no union. A teams meeting followed by an email.

I’m no longer manic and panicking…I’m more my body has given up and I’m just going to lay here and wait for something horrible to happen. I’m not probationary, I’m not close to retirement. I’m right in the middle. And hopefully being in a hospital means something. But damn I hate this for everyone.
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I sad face for the firings and thumbs up for hope because it's a hospital and they run short handed as is. That ugly ass teletubby in the oval office is killing careers, moral and lives. I hope nothing happens to you Chilly, you've been thru enough. 🌹
 
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