What the hell…Chilly’s little spot on lit

I think we can all tell you are a good person.

Men always look at a womans heart. It's not out fault that God put 2 of our best friends in front of it.
 
Therapy homework…ask for help. I was taught in my marriage not to ask for help because no one had time for my bullshit. So I don’t ask for help. Last summer I had a panic attack and I asked for help. I got help. I was scared and excited knowing I could ask for help. Then that person left and never looked back. I’m back to not asking for help. Why make myself vulnerable, why lean on someone else? I really don’t know if I can do this.
You can do it... Reach out to the network circle of people you trust. If you don't take chances, you will never know... If I need help I reach out and talk to my friends... It has helped me so much over the years.. Your not vulnerable when asking for help, sometimes we need someone to listen and understand what we feel and go through... Who cares what others think, we need to do what we feel we need to do to help ourselves... Friends and family are my support system...
 
Of course I wouldn’t think twice but there’s a bit more going on than you’re aware of. Because if my experiences I don’t trust anyone enough to be vulnerable enough to ask for help.
Lots of support on here for you x
 

When the river's raging, I'll be the levy
I'll be the steady hand that's holding on to you
I'll be the view, your change of scenery
Well, let me be your way out when your walls are closing in, so darlin'
Gimme you on your worst day, and I'll give you my best
When you only got 10, I'll be that 90 that's left
So go on and run me ragged, long as your loving don't stray
Don't worry 'bout meeting me in the middle when I'm already running your way
And I'll be the answer to what you're praying
When you're pinned down in the foxhole
Right beside you when the enemy surrounds
So gimme you on your worst day, and I'll give you my best
When you only got 10, I'll be that 90 that's left
So go on and run me ragged, long as your loving don't stray
Don't worry 'bout meeting me in the middle when I'm already running your way
Gimme bad, gimme ugly
Gimme sad and pour it on me
I'll take anything and everything that you have
So gimme you on your worst day, and I'll give you my best
When you only got 10, I'll be that 90 that's left
So go on and run me ragged, long as your loving don't stray
Don't worry 'bout meeting me in the middle when I'm already running your way
Don't worry 'bout meeting me in the middle
 
Therapy homework…ask for help. I was taught in my marriage not to ask for help because no one had time for my bullshit. So I don’t ask for help. Last summer I had a panic attack and I asked for help. I got help. I was scared and excited knowing I could ask for help. Then that person left and never looked back. I’m back to not asking for help. Why make myself vulnerable, why lean on someone else? I really don’t know if I can do this.
Trusting someone and being vulnerable is the hardest part after so many years of learning you can't be that way. It's not easy to just erase it and step out and be vulnerable.

Especially here.
But, after coming here after filing for divorce, and finding people that helped me in one fashion or another has taught me that most people aren't always going to be there forever. They are there for a time. They help get you through, give you the strength you need to take that next step. And, if we think of it in those terms, looking back and smiling at the good memories instead of crying that it's gone, then we still have the strength to move forward.

Or I'm lying to myself! 😂
It works for me. Smile. Think on the good memories.
 
Trusting someone and being vulnerable is the hardest part after so many years of learning you can't be that way. It's not easy to just erase it and step out and be vulnerable.

Especially here.
But, after coming here after filing for divorce, and finding people that helped me in one fashion or another has taught me that most people aren't always going to be there forever. They are there for a time. They help get you through, give you the strength you need to take that next step. And, if we think of it in those terms, looking back and smiling at the good memories instead of crying that it's gone, then we still have the strength to move forward.

Or I'm lying to myself! 😂
It works for me. Smile. Think on the good memories.
Oh so much this.

It seems very few people are there for the duration. Sometimes people are there for what you need and when that need has gone... then it can just drift apart.
Sometimes a person is there to lift you and boost you when you needed it. But it doesn't always end well. But then you can look back and say, actually that person helped me, was kind and did me some good. And because of that experience I am now a different but better me.

And leave it at that. Trying to hold on to something or someone that doesn't want you is painful. And you only hurt yourself.

You've been and are being so amazingly strong, even if you don't feel it. And you are seen here.
 
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