I know where you are coming from. I have some of the same issues from getting older. Doesn't seem to stay as hard as we'd like sometimes. We bought a "cloning" kit and made a copy of my erection. Came out pretty well and gave me a better appreciation of my size. Let's just say I know first hand that I am a mouthful. We sometimes have a threesome with my cloneThat is so hot. I have finally got my wife to consider us getting a realistic dildo, preferably my size or smaller. As I am older, I sometimes have a problem with maintaining a really hard erection, particularly since she likes to squeeze her legs together to achieve orgasm. With a smaller dildo, she can clamp down without squeezing the hardness out of me. Plus it is just damn hot to think about her fucking with a realistic dick.