Confessions: What are yours? Part V

[Chillygirl]

ICT I’ve gotten past the fear and now I’m excited.

 

[Mom_nxtdoor]

I crave rough, dirty sex

 

[Peppadance]

I crave rough, dirty sex

Brings to mind so much

 

[One_ping_only]

I crave rough, dirty sex

The best SEX. Can't lie especially when there's no inhibitions and you just do it in that so animalistic way hmmmm!

 

[AmandaKellyUK]

ICT I havent been entirely faithful

 

[Gentledom45]

ICT I need some naughty fun

 

[Micio_Lambire]

ICT I do too. Shame it ain't gonna happen

 

[javajug]

ICT I havent been entirely faithful

ICT I haven't been at all faithful.

IFCT it's been with another man's wife.

IFCT it's been with him, too

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT my cranky mood from yesterday afternoon has persisted and I still feel it this morning. I yelled at the Kiddo when he came charging into the room about fifteen minutes ago. It's the same time he does almost every Saturday morning. Hubby is making him breakfast and letting me 'rest', which is code for "Mommy's in a bad mood."

IACT I can't blame it all on the proposition I got yesterday (Post in thread 'A place to rant' https://forum.literotica.com/threads/a-place-to-rant.1513177/post-97072758). It's certainly not the first time I've gotten propositioned from unexpected sources. Sure, I vented about it, but that felt like the end.

IACT I can't blame it on yesterday being our Vice Principal's last day at our school. All the thoughts and fantasies that have been rattling around, unwanted, since I based the character in my story on him, just seemed to flit away yesterday, and I had nary a twinge when he hugged me goodbye and told me I was a great teacher and that he would miss me.

IFCT I may just be nervous about my plans for tonight.

 

[Chillygirl]

ICT I’m trying so hard

IACT my anxiety and insecurities are at an all time high

 

[Hipshot1554]

ICT I’m trying so hard

IACT my anxiety and insecurities are at an all time high

That's not good...

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I’m trying so hard

IACT my anxiety and insecurities are at an all time high

I feel you. It's a daily battle. Sending hugs and good thoughts.

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT my mood is a bit better, but I have been getting more and more anxious about this evening as the day goes on. I am on the verge of confessing my plan to Hubby. But since I don't think it will work if I do, I will confess it here...

ICT I plan on suggesting Hubby take me to a strip club after we go out for dinner tonight. The Kiddo is staying with my Hubby's cousin tonight, so we will have the house to ourselves. I plan on 'meeting' a stripper tonight who we hit it off with and who comes home with us. The stripper is really my ex-girlfriend's ex. She and I have been texting almost since I found out they broke up. She's totally up for the plan, although she's never met my Hubby. I have had sex with her before (a FFF with our mutual ex), and I have no doubt a FFM with her and my Hubby will be amazing. I can't wait for tonight to get here...

 

[TipTopTits]

ICT that it's been years since I've been around here (previously under a different name). I became widowed earlier this year but my sexual nature has been rearing it's head lately. Looking for a place to release some of that tension.

 

[rangerted]

welcum back TipTopTits

 

[peekingone]

ICT that it's been years since I've been around here (previously under a different name). I became widowed earlier this year but my sexual nature has been rearing it's head lately. Looking for a place to release some of that tension.

Welcome back. Sorry for your loss.

 

[One_ping_only]

ICT that it's been years since I've been around here (previously under a different name). I became widowed earlier this year but my sexual nature has been rearing it's head lately. Looking for a place to release some of that tension.

My most sincere condolences. Good to see that you're able to be strong and go on with life. Best wishes in your quest here.

Just recently came back to LIT as well after years of being away. Good to be back with these perverts!!

 

[Lady2020]

ICT I'm pretty low key given recent health issues and healthcare in the US. Given the odds of having NH lymphoma (2007) and ovarian cancer (a current possibility) while having a heart attack and getting an emergency stent it could be worse. It took 3 ER visits for a cardiologist to be on staff. I would suggest that any time a doctor says the possibility of your having a serious diagnosis is nil should be taken with a grain of salt. I told my daughter earlier I didn't know how much time I had left, but it's just a matter of doing the best you can one day at a time, which is not unusual.

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I've had less than three hours sleep but I'm wide awake. Our new friend (well, new to Hubby, not me) left about half an hour ago.

IACT Hubby figured out my plan really quickly, I think the moment I suggested going to the strip club after dinner. But he went along, although I suspect that he was going to draw the line at the strip club. But then he and Misty (not her real name, but close to her stripper name) hit it off really well. Things kinda progressed naturally from there.

I ACT I realized how forced/directed (by me) our two threesomes with my ex GF had been. Everything last night just worked without me having to make suggestions or give direction. They even fucked while I watched (and jilled off) without me telling them I wanted that. I mean, Hubby knows I like that, and I had told Misty, but I didn't have to tell them I wanted them to do it. The whole thing was fucking hot and sexy and awesome, awesome, awesome!!!

IACT I've come to the conclusion my Hubby likes bad girls. Now, I know y'all are going to say, "Of course he likes bad girls, Jenni. He married you." But I've always thought I was the exception. I've heard about his past relationships from his family and friends. Hell, I even met the ex his mom wanted him to marry. None of them are bad girls. Not even close. But he and Misty clicked almost from the start, talking, and laughing, and teasing me... It's so different from how he interacted with my ex GF when we had our threesomes, and she's not a bad girl at all. So, my conclusion is that he must like bad girls.

I guess I should also confess that I'm a little jealous how well they clicked. Of course, that's part of the thrill for me, feeling that jealousy. But if we continue playing like this (and I want us to... hell, when they were fucking and I was watching, I was imagining them doing it alone and then Hubby telling me about it later as he made me taste her on him), I'm going to have to manage some anxiety, methinks.

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I should probably start my own thread instead of always posting here...

IACT Hubby and I talked a lot yesterday about what it means that I identify as polyamorous. He's been reading a lot about it. He told me his concern is making sure I'm fulfilled.

He's still not.comfortable with swinging, and as things stand he's only interested in having sex with other women if I'm there too. Yeah, it is a bit of a Catch 22.

IACT I was surprised (shocked may be more accurate, but not as shocking as the next paragraph) that he said an MFM is a real possibility. However, he is as straight as straight comes, so no interest in a MMF. He said the MFM was a possibility because I deserve to be the center of attention like he has been (at times) during our FFM threesomes.

IACT our marriage parameters have expanded to include me having sex with men outside the possible MFM, if I want. That was the real shocker. He said it was retrogressive and sexist to limit my polyamory to just other women, and he did not want to do that to me. Wow. I fucking love my Hubby!

He has no interest in hearing about it, or even knowing. And I had to promise to be safe. Also, since we are trying to get pregnant, he's asked that I forgo vaginal sex with other guys, even with a condom, at least for now. I've agreed.

IFCT I texted my former vice principal (we'll call him Keith since that is the name I used in my story) and invited him to coffee tomorrow. Thoughts of him came back with a vengeance after my talk with Hubby.

 

[Lostsoul34]

ICT a little bit of privacy would be nice just once in a while .......

Yep, right there with ya on that.

 

[Rj_Gallos]

ICT I've had less than three hours sleep but I'm wide awake. Our new friend (well, new to Hubby, not me) left about half an hour ago.

IACT Hubby figured out my plan really quickly, I think the moment I suggested going to the strip club after dinner. But he went along, although I suspect that he was going to draw the line at the strip club. But then he and Misty (not her real name, but close to her stripper name) hit it off really well. Things kinda progressed naturally from there.

I ACT I realized how forced/directed (by me) our two threesomes with my ex GF had been. Everything last night just worked without me having to make suggestions or give direction. They even fucked while I watched (and jilled off) without me telling them I wanted that. I mean, Hubby knows I like that, and I had told Misty, but I didn't have to tell them I wanted them to do it. The whole thing was fucking hot and sexy and awesome, awesome, awesome!!!

IACT I've come to the conclusion my Hubby likes bad girls. Now, I know y'all are going to say, "Of course he likes bad girls, Jenni. He married you." But I've always thought I was the exception. I've heard about his past relationships from his family and friends. Hell, I even met the ex his mom wanted him to marry. None of them are bad girls. Not even close. But he and Misty clicked almost from the start, talking, and laughing, and teasing me... It's so different from how he interacted with my ex GF when we had our threesomes, and she's not a bad girl at all. So, my conclusion is that he must like bad girls.

I guess I should also confess that I'm a little jealous how well they clicked. Of course, that's part of the thrill for me, feeling that jealousy. But if we continue playing like this (and I want us to... hell, when they were fucking and I was watching, I was imagining them doing it alone and then Hubby telling me about it later as he made me taste her on him), I'm going to have to manage some anxiety, methinks.

Fantastic shared experience for you both!

Thanks for sharing!

May many more fun experiences be ahead!

 

[Chillygirl]

ICT I wanted to know if I meant anything to him.I also wanted to know if he wanted to fix it.

 

[sallysparrow23]

ICT I have never gone to the beach on vacation. I also confess that I travel with my own French press and Instant Pot

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I got more aroused today at my Gyno visit than ever before... In fact, it was a first. I'd never gotten really aroused during an exam before.

My new OBGYN is a woman in her early fifties, I think, but very attractive. She wears a wedding ring, but I get a vibe from her that makes me think her spouse is not a man. Thinking about that had me kind of... well, you know...

I never got that way with my now retired male OBGYN. Of course, he was old, cranky, and seemed really jaded.

IACT my arousal went away when she did what my psychiatrist hadn't done, which was lecture me for going off the Depo without telling her or my psychiatrist.