Cookie

Wednesday - 11:40 pm

Oh pete! And all of you who replied or messaged - thank you. A million thank you's and hugs -- Mr. cookie knows I'm on Lit, knows I've been having fun with new friends! He smiled hearing about the support we get here. A week ago, we knew he had declined to a point we needed to start planning for the difficult decisions we'd have to make. But just a week ago, we thought we had some time.

2 days ago, he passed out, he was throwing up, he just got sicker. The hospice doctor told us he was actively dying and he said these symptoms indicated Mr. cookie had days to live. What the heck? Days????? On top of it, Mr. cookie felt like he wanted to go. He was hallucinating. He was miserable. Everything the hospice nurse did made him worse. It was this surreal nightmare -- the people who promised comfort care were making him worse.

Sunday night, around 1 a.m. we ended up in the ER. The goal was only to stabilize his nausea. Instead, they told us he had pneumonia.

To make this insane, perfect storm of everything that could go wrong going wrong story shorter... we spent 2 long days in the hospital thinking this was it.

As of right now, he's sleeping in bed at home.

He's weak. He has a hard time speaking. When he looks at me, he's not looking at me. But he's lucid. He's home. He's actually comfortable.

Our days ahead will be more difficult. He's completely bedridden. Lost all muscle control in his neck. It's so weird. He's spent the last two years in his wheelchair pretty much 24/7. He slept in his chair. He never ever got a pressure sore. His bony little butt is now covered in bruises, welts and open sores. In 24 hours, it just went from bad to worse.

I know I share a lot here. Maybe too much sometimes?? I appreciate that some of you are riding this roller coaster ride with me. Some of you have experienced hospice, caring for someone sick, have gone through this grief process and I've appreciated your support, your empathy and your friendship.

Thanks, everyone. I feel really grateful for so much.

Ohh Cookie 😢😢 sending huge hugs for you...
You will be in my thoughts all day now.. I've also had the week from hell, My Dad was rushed to hospital last Sunday, on Weds he was put into a medical induced coma.. Will be thinking of you and Mr Cookie...
🌹🌹🌹💐💐
 
Don't mind me, just doing a little landscaping :D

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Mr. cookie comes from the south where the spanish moss hangs in trees so thick - it's like being in another era.

The willow is beautiful. Almost fort like. :)
 
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I like this sentiment a lot. :rose:




I think we do live in the moment. What I write here is more of an internal conversation. With him, it's all about making him comfortable, making him smile. Touching him. Telling him what's going on with Lit :) Just small talk, small moments that keep us connected.

Thanks again for the good thoughts and virtual hugs. Mr. cookie says it's all good. :)

Glad that you do. It's advice we should all take to heart really....the hustle and bustle of life gets us moving, sometimes without taking the time to appreciate the little things. Keep going with these moments.

*gives some more bearjugs* You're welcome. Take care, both of you.
 
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The Rules of Fort Badass:

1. Badasses don't play by your rules

2. Sunglasses are to always be worn, regardless of the time.

3. If something explodes, you are required to walk away from it in slow motion, and not look back.

4. " Two for flinching " is always in effect.

5. You do not talk about Fort Badass.

6. The only acceptable greeting or acknowledgement of another, is a quick, sharp, inclination of the head in their direction, which must be answered. ( This will continue as long as it has to. )

7. Entry will not be permitted to anyone who approaches wearing shorts and white socks with flip flops.

8. Every hour, on the hour, George Thorogood's " Bad to the Bone " will be played. Singing along and/or air guitar is required ( air drumming may be substituted ).

9. Every sentence spoken within the walls of Fort Badass, will end with the words," and shit." Example:" When I get home I want to take a scented bubble bath with candles, and shit."

If, at some point, an occupant violates any of these rules they will be ejected from the premises and punished severely. Punishment entails myself holding your arms behind your back while cookiecat stomps on your feet, MyNameIsNO and Farawyn give you simultaneous purple nurples, Stag of Oberon and Noemask perform synchronized wet willies, all while MastersDelight and Collar_N_Cuffs dump stale ZIMA on your head. Then... Fuck, I don't know... You'll slowly be fed feet first to Consilience's cat.
 
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The Rules of Fort Badass:

1. Badasses don't play by your rules

2. Sunglasses are to always be worn, regardless of the time.

3. If something explodes, you are required to walk away from it in slow motion, and not look back.

4. " Two for flinching " is always in effect.

5. You do not talk about Fort Badass.

6. The only acceptable greeting or acknowledgement of another, is a quick, sharp, inclination of the head in their direction, which must be answered. ( This will continue as long as it has to. )

7. Entry will not be permitted to anyone who approaches wearing shorts and white socks with flip flops.

8. Every hour, on the hour, George Thorogood's " Bad to the Bone " will be played. Singing along and/or air guitar are required ( air drumming may be substituted ).

9. Every sentence spoken within the walls of Fort Badass, will end with the words," and shit." Example:" When I get home I want to take a scented bubble bath with candles, and shit."

If, at some point, an occupant violates any of these rules they will be ejected from the premises and punished severely. Punishment entails myself holding your arms behind your back while cookiecat stomps on your feet, MyNameIsNO and Farawyn give you simultaneous purple nurples, Stag of Oberon and Noemask perform synchronized wet willies, all while MastersDelight and Collar_N_Cuffs dump stale ZIMA on your head. Then... Fuck, I don't know... You'll slowly be fed feet first to Comsilience's cat.

Omg I'm DYING and shit! :cool:
 
Fara....I misread that. *snickers*

Stag and Necro.....couch/pillow forts are awesome, (and probably the more ideal thing for some, due to weather, fear of heights, or whatever personal issue) but a good old tree fort is nice as well, although a couch/pillow fort does have the benefit of being easy to assemble and take down if need be.

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I love these! I want one!

Always knew if I had the land....and some strong trees on the grounds, I would love to build an epic, multi-tiered tree house that would make the most cantankerous of individuals embrace their inner child and have as much fun as they could.

There is actually a place around where I live that is best described to me by a friend as "an obstacle course mixed with the Ewok village".....sorry, forgot that you haven't seen Star Wars.....it's a village in the trees. Planned on going there this summer, but due to work, I was unable to....might get a chance before it is too cold out or will most definitely do so in spring. There are zip lines and all sorts of fun stuff to do....can't wait. :D
 
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The Rules of Fort Badass:

1. Badasses don't play by your rules

2. Sunglasses are to always be worn, regardless of the time.

3. If something explodes, you are required to walk away from it in slow motion, and not look back.

4. " Two for flinching " is always in effect.

5. You do not talk about Fort Badass.

6. The only acceptable greeting or acknowledgement of another, is a quick, sharp, inclination of the head in their direction, which must be answered. ( This will continue as long as it has to. )

7. Entry will not be permitted to anyone who approaches wearing shorts and white socks with flip flops.

8. Every hour, on the hour, George Thorogood's " Bad to the Bone " will be played. Singing along and/or air guitar is required ( air drumming may be substituted ).

9. Every sentence spoken within the walls of Fort Badass, will end with the words," and shit." Example:" When I get home I want to take a scented bubble bath with candles, and shit."

If, at some point, an occupant violates any of these rules they will be ejected from the premises and punished severely. Punishment entails myself holding your arms behind your back while cookiecat stomps on your feet, MyNameIsNO and Farawyn give you simultaneous purple nurples, Stag of Oberon and Noemask perform synchronized wet willies, all while MastersDelight and Collar_N_Cuffs dump stale ZIMA on your head. Then... Fuck, I don't know... You'll slowly be fed feet first to Consilience's cat.

Necro! :heart:
Great rules. Forts are good for us. Good for cookie.
One question... can I deliver said purple nurples with clothespins if the violators nipples are big enough to do so?
 
*bakes cookie and hubs a banana bread and baked ziti and leaves it outside the fort, and shit*

How are you holding up, GF?
 
Free backrubs in the fort. :rose:
Take turns, no pushing.
Cookie gets to cut in line anytime she wants.
 
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