Thank you for trying this morning. It means more to me than you could possibly know. I'm sorry it wasn't as good as you had hoped. Maybe we could try again soon?
You are so beautiful. I have a smile on my face every time I see the sunlight upon you. I just wish you weren't so much work... but I'm willing to work on our ability to share the same space.
A+ for making the effort. That cake is your bitch. Don't ever let it think otherwise. And if the fucker fell apart, make it into a trifle. There is always plan B.
I'm developing feelings for you that scare me. Please be patient with me. My heart is a little dented and tarnished, and my brain has learned not to trust my heart. Please know that if I lash out at you, I'm really just lashing out at myself. Being around you makes me a better person, and I truly don't want to fuck that up.
Off to bed, sure to think of you as I sleep...especially after that last message. Wondering if you meant tonight (tomorrow)...if so, please know it will be unlikely I can meet you here at that time. One day soon, perhaps?
Why did you have to be so selfcentered. I thought you wanted to have a relationship. Yet now you act like you don't know me. I tell myself you aren't worth it but I know you are and you are worth fighting for. Can we try again?
I'm not even sure if this is the right place to say this, but I don't know anywhere else I can say this...
I've got some issues...
But the worst part is, I feel really alone....
Haven't got anyone I can talk to...
No-one... and that's not an exaggeration... there is quite literally no-one I can talk to...
No-one (aside from myself, of course) really knows how I feel...
Funny how a client was telling me today about the "stresses" they're dealing with... because you see, while on the surface, I'm being professional, offering some appropriate empathy, etc., deep inside, I'm pretty fucking close to breaking point myself... the irony, eh...
To be fair, it's entirely my own fault... I ain't blaming anyone else...
To an extent, looking back, I didn't choose the right role models in life...
No idea how I'm going to fix things now...
To be fair, I'm fortunate I even have a decent white collar job...
I am truly, from the bottom of my heart, grateful for the good things I have in my life... but the irony is, there's this great big weight on my chest and I simply can't seem to figure out exactly how to get it off...
I'm sure there's been others before me in this situation...
How do I stay motivated?
I've just got to keep marching forward, but my faith in myself is shaky, to say the least...
Is anybody perfect? I don't know about anyone else, but I sure am not...
Would be nice if someone could wish me luck on this thread (but no private messages please)...
Step back, take a moment for yourself, and breathe. Nothing is ever that dire, really.
Take inventory, start fresh today, and start living for your future. Stop dwelling in the past - can't do nothing to change it. Start making new, different decisions.
Nobody is perfect. As far as fixing things, start with the first step. It is often the toughest step, that first one, but it gets easier once you find your new rhythm and gait.
Good luck and hang in there. Only take manageable bites and don't let the insignificant things grind you down.
You're not alone - we are all pushing our rocks up our respective hills.
Well we had a long distance thing for so long and we shared love. We wrote here on Lit...and then the bad things happen and you stopped talking to me. You said it wasn't me and I know you're in pain. I doubt we'll talk again and while I might reach out to you on your birthday this year...I don't expect much. I think of you sometimes, but I try not too. I wonder if you ever think of me and the good times.