Depression. Anxiety. Panic Attacks. etc

[onlyerics]

Thank you for the support, SweetE, oe, and ed.

Things are back on track. My outlook is a little brighter this morning.

Glad to hear that, BG.

 

[onlyerics]

onlyerics: jeez, that sucks! i'm sorry to hear your manager is completely and totally useless.


ed

Tell me about it. But it'll be okay. Eventually, I'll leave to find work at a different hospital or just stay there until I get into pharm school. I don't plan to stay there for long.

 

[onlyerics]

I finally have own internet again!

I did finish high schol, and are now studying at Uppsala University (history). It feels... Both intresting and booring nat the same time. It is fascinating how easy it is to take a intresting subiect and make it so booring just by puttig some pressure on it.

I really dont know what to do any more. But I realized this weekend that Iam really school tired, so after this year, I will try and do something else. If it is possible.

But I must say, I feel alot better now compared to high school. Even if it isnt all good.

Now I´m just lookingfor a girl to cudle with. As it is now, it goes slowly, but it goes. Atleast if I am not too blind...

Congrats on finishing high school, Ibsen. I think history is an interesting field. It's one of my favorite subjects. But if you're having second thoughts about continuing history, I'm sure you will find something that will fulfill you. Good luck in finding a new girl and school.

 

[onlyerics]

13thFallenAngel, I'm sorry that you are going through this. Going to a mental health professional would be your choice. If you feel that it is getting worse and affecting your everyday activities, then seek help.

As for taking meds, that will depend on how severe your depression is. The psychologist can recommend it if she/he thinks if it would be best for you to be on medication, but they can't give a prescription for it. Only a psychiatrist or your family doctor can do that. Also, it might take more than a few sessions with that psychologist before they can recommend meds. The sessions will help him/her evaluate you. Also, taking meds will always be your decision, not theirs. I suggest you do some research on that certain drug they will recommend you, if that happens. On the other hand, you might not need any meds ... or you might only be on it for a short time. Who knows? Only a counselor/psychiatrist can determine that.

If you don't want to take meds, try exercise, even if it's just a little or just walking around the block ;

As for your friend...maybe that psychologist wasn't a good one. They really shouldn't manipulate your feelings. They should not only listen...but also help you cope with your daily life.

Ibsen and 13thFallen Angel: I can definitely relate to what you are feeling about how our own cultures affects the way we see mental health. In my culture, it feels like we don't say or even feel what we're suppose to feel, even though we know deep down inside it's not right. In fact, it's almost like we're apologizing for it!

Even though I grew up here in the US, my family raised me on Asian values...and yes, that still affects my way of thinking. Still, I have the best of both worlds - American and Asian...at least that's how I look at it in a positive way.

Unfortunately, My family has a negative POV on counseling and drugs, but I keep thinking: It's my life...not theirs...and it's up to me to help me.

Good luck, 13thFallenAngel. I am sure that everything will work out - whatever you decide on.

 

[silverwhisper]

i'm not sure i know who i am anymore.

 

[Phaedre]

i'm not sure i know who i am anymore.

That makes two of us.

 

[silverwhisper]

i can at least take comfort in having good company.

 

[bobsgirl]

i'm not sure i know who i am anymore.

{ed} That's an uncomfortable feeling, I know.

 

[Phaedre]

Come on now don't make me get out the pointy stick...

 

[Sarojaede]

I think we are all faced with that feeling, sometimes more than once. Sometimes I wonder why not knowing who we are is approached with such trepidation instead of a sense of wonder in discovering what we could be.

I know, when that question of who am I really rears it's ugly head--and I always think of it as "rearing it's ugly head"; it's a question that I face with fear, discomfort, and the urge to vomit.

[sighs]

 

[silverwhisper]

thanks, BG, SJ.

http://forums.rpghost.com/images/moresmiles/troutslap.gif phaedre

 

[Phaedre]

http://forums.rpghost.com/images/moresmiles/troutslap.gif phaedre

You know it works better if you do this...

 

[bobsgirl]

You forget just how close to surface it is festering and just how little it takes to open it up.

This morning I was thinking how true this statement is. All it takes is one inconsequential word or action to make it all come gushing out.

I can't seem to find my bandaids this morning.

 

[midwestyankee]

This morning I was thinking how true this statement is. All it takes is one inconsequential word or action to make it all come gushing out.

I can't seem to find my bandaids this morning.

Here ya go, bg. They must have fallen out of your purse.

 

[bobsgirl]

You're very kind. A choice of colors too.

 

[Sarojaede]

oohhhh...can i borrow the orangey-purple one.

i have just the spot for it!

 

[Jheryn]

That makes two of us.

Or three...

 

[silverwhisper]

OK, feeling a lot better about things, now. evidently, i just needed someone to give me a particularly sharp kick in the ass.

[glares at someone who will remain nameless]

ed

 

[Sarojaede]

OK, feeling a lot better about things, now. evidently, i just needed someone to give me a particularly sharp kick in the ass.

[glares at someone who will remain nameless]

ed

All I want to know is if that someone was wearing cowboy boots because if so, that had to have hurt.

[hugs ed]

I'm glad you are feeling better.

 

[silverwhisper]

there were definitely boots involved.

[goes in search of an ice pack]

but, it was definitely therapeutic.

ed

 

[Sarojaede]

[silently hands silver ice packs from her freezer]

Here; they are the comfy kind you can actually sit on.

Ummm...

[points to the dusty boot print on silver's rear]

You might want to brush that off.

I'm glad it was theraputic. Sometimes we all need a swift kick in the pants wielded by someone who understands us.

 

[silverwhisper]

[brushes off bootprint prior to using ice pack]

thanks, SJ.

so...what football game do you like this weekend?

ed

 

[MercyMia]

Had a tough night. Couldn't sleep. Felt a tightness in my chest. All kinds of worrisome thoughts (mostly little niggling things, nothing major) swarmed through my brain. Sadness was the emotion that prevailed. Also a feeling of futility. That nothing seems worth living for.

Underneath the roil of emotions, I knew that I'd be all right. I just had to get through the tough times. I finally succumbed and took a sleeping pill, but even that didn't take effect for a couple of hours. I think I dozed off around 4 am.

It's morning now. I feel better, just not rested enough. I've survived!

 

[bobsgirl]

Had a tough night. Couldn't sleep. Felt a tightness in my chest. All kinds of worrisome thoughts (mostly little niggling things, nothing major) swarmed through my brain. Sadness was the emotion that prevailed. Also a feeling of futility. That nothing seems worth living for.

Underneath the roil of emotions, I knew that I'd be all right. I just had to get through the tough times. I finally succumbed and took a sleeping pill, but even that didn't take effect for a couple of hours. I think I dozed off around 4 am.

It's morning now. I feel better, just not rested enough. I've survived!

And that is a victory! The key is finding the patience and strength to get through the tough times. The feeling of life being worthless is the worst, Mia. I've been there many times. Those thoughts are more intense for me at night, when everything is dark and quiet.

Glad you made it thorugh!

 

[Chantilyvamp]

I've been reading the thread since yesterday and it is really helpful to see other go through the same things that I do. And to see some of my concerns and fears voiced by others.

Lately I have been trying a herbal calming tablet. And it works but when I stop taking them for even a day I start crying again and cant seem to get it stopped. Before I never got bad enough to have to have any meds. I seemed to be able to pull myself back up afterwhile.

This time it has lasted for over 3 months and doesnt seem to want to let up. I try and be happy at least durring the day for the kiddie and stay calmer for the hubby. So its like a big production for me. I wake up miserable, slap on my stupid happy mommy routine to not scare the hell out of the baby and pretend all day. And then crash at night in total relief that one more day is over. While inside I'm in knots and screaming at the top of my lungs.

This year just sucks though and it's never gotten calm enough to really be able to work through any problems with any success.

Maybe the new year will bring some relief.