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quoll said:I am consumed by apathy, filled with self loathing at not being able to overcome it and as guilty as hell at not respondng or replying or finishing things.
quoll said:I am consumed by apathy, filled with self loathing at not being able to overcome it and as guilty as hell at not respondng or replying or finishing things.
tbs230 said:People go through that all the time, I go through it ALL the time, but I know that you are a caring person, I know that this apathic person IS NOT YOU...Don't try to overcome it, just ride it out, it won't last forever...
bobsgirl said:{{{{{pq}}}}} I'm so sorry.
I know you must be so tired from all the happiness (but hard work) that's going on in your life. Rest when you can, and don't beat yourself up thinking about all the "shoulds" in your life.
Hang on, sweetpea. It'll all come right soon. Be kind to yourself.
quoll said:I am consumed by apathy, filled with self loathing at not being able to overcome it and as guilty as hell at not respondng or replying or finishing things.
quoll said:Thanks tbs, I do care, but somedays I just don't care to care even if I want to care, if you get my meaning.
BG *sighs* I know I shouldn't worry about the shoulds... but you know.
Hey I responded didn't I.
onlyerics said:and I didn't like it. It just gave me headaches. Looks like I have to call the doc again, but he won't be back until next week. It's so frustrating, but I'll be okay. ****Sigh****
bobsgirl said:Awww, sorry oe, lexapro didn't work for me either. Try, try again, I guess, but I know how frustrating it is.
quoll said:observation - annoyance
Why is it with this damned thing that you have to go to the deepest darkest recesses of your mind, think the worst of all thoughts before you can start the climb back up?
Maybe you have to reach the point where you are so disgusted/horrified of your own thoughts, before that little something in your mind is triggered that finally releases you from the grip of impending insanity. I don't know, but it's a dangerous way to live.
bobsgirl said:I started thinking "the worst of all thoughts". It's how I knew it was time to get some help. It must have been bad because my doctor, who's usually pretty laid back said, "You MUST get help." I don't know why that is. Maybe until we start going to those very dark places, we think we can fix it ourselves by ourselves.
Keep your chin up, pq. If it helps at all, I'm in your corner.
bobsgirl said:I hate those tentacles of anxiety that are starting to wrap around me.
God, I hate that feeling! I've been fighting them all day, and they're gaining on me.
quoll said:Soooo, what's the weather like there? It's a bright sunny day here in drought riddled oz.
bobsgirl said:Right now the weather is dark.
but earlier today the sun was out. Nice day but a little cool. About 45F.
I'm celsius challenged.
I know what you're trying to do.
bobsgirl said:Maybe I just need a good swift kick in the rear.
bobsgirl said:I've been thinking about this for a while. Familiarity is comfortable. It takes a while to break in new shoes, for example.
Now you all know I believe that the disease of depression does exist. I'm all too familiar with it. But sometimes I think I am holding on to some of this pain because it's what I'm familiar with. I am afraid to trust positive feelings. I dunno, maybe I'm not making any sense. I'm just trying to figure out why this horrible lethargy and emotional pain keep hanging on. I haven't really accomplished anything for days it seems. Day after day it the same old thing and I just fall back into this fog of apathy. I always have good intentions, you know what they say about intentions.
Maybe I just need a good swift kick in the rear.
VelvetDarkness said:My neurologist is at a loss as to how to advise me re: panic attacks and grief. My therapist has no clue about epilepsy. I try so hard to slow down and calm myself and I fail every time. I never had a panic attack before my mother died so I'm really at a loss. I'm staying with a friend and have scared her to death on a number of occasions now, which also upsets me.
quoll said:*Ahem* See my current location.
What do you want to do, the tiles or the grout?
onyxvixen said:YOU? Scare ME? Don't be so damned ridiculous or I'll get the crop out, whether you're bereaved or not.
I'LL worry about me, thankyou very much.