if you haven't already i suggest you start with your own.
Yes, I’ve tasted my own cum, more than once.
Like those who struggle to do it the first time, I have an incredible urge to eat my cum when jerking off, but those urges evaporate the moment I orgasm. Still, I make a point of tasting from time to time, just to make sure something hasn’t changed. It hasn’t.
It’s not because the taste is so terrible; it’s not. Just kinda eh, though I enjoy spreading it on my lips and pretending it’s from a big cock.
So why do I want to swallow another man’s load? It’s in my head more than my mouth. Mental and emotional, because it’s one of two ultimate gay acts of pleasuring my lover (the other would be taking a load in my ass) and knowing I’m responsible for that pleasure.
It’s not unlike eating a pussy (I’m married and consider myself bi). Despite all the wonderful notions that pussy tastes great, I don’t find the actual taste all that wonderful, but I love the rush from giving the woman her orgasm.
So far, I’ve sucked two cocks, and I loved it both times. But neither man came in my mouth, in large part because I was worried about disease. I spent a couple weeks freaking out about what I might have gotten just from their precum.
In spite of those fears, I dearly want to take the next step once we’ve dealt with Covid, and reading this thread gave me hope that maybe I could swallow without worrying about disease.
But now, I wonder whether I will ever have that experience. I am many things, but I’m not suicidal. And sucking a cock with a condom sounds kinda awful.