alexanna
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Osg
I'm sort of conflicted about OSG's situation. On the one hand I myself often like to entertain morbid fantasies where horrible things happen to me. I can even relate to her statement that maybe it is better for these things to happen to her rather than someone else because she can take it. There are levels where I am a bit jealous of her and her extreme experiences of degredation. I enjoy watching movies where there are female characters who have lost all respect for themselves and any notion of saving themselves, becoming martyrs for the pleasure of those that use them with no thought for whether they are being used for good or evil.
On the other hand whenever I read a post by OSG my heart wants to save her. Its just a natural reaction I have to her situation. I am a fixer....I fix things and sometimes people. Fixing people is sort of a hobby actually, one I don't indulge very often because it can be a very messy affair. My sister was with a terrible guy for 5 years and for 4.5 of those years I said almost nothing against the guy. I preferred to appear to support the situation until I felt she was ready to get out. When the time was right I got her a job where she would have to travel away from him to see me regularly and I talked and talked and talked and talked and talked to her until she decided to leave herself; until she believed she deserved better and it was within her grasp. She moved in with us for awhile while she healed emotionally before venturing out into the world on her own. I didn't know if the guy would retaliate against my family or not but my husband and I decided to risk it.
I do not believe the state gets to decide that someone can't kill themselves or punish themselves by risky living. If someone wants to drink themselves to death they get to. However it is also good to care about our fellow human beings who have no self worth left. If you want to help someone you have to be willing to get your hands dirty and your life dirty. We aren't obligated to do it and we don't get to sit around thinking some government agency or some church will do it for us. Personally I feel the only right way to "save" someone is to invite that person into your heart for the long haul which is risky in itself. It takes guts to help someone that low because their life is going to get all over yours but for some people having someone care to that degree is the only thing that will convince them they are worth saving.
I like reading OSG's posts in a voyeristic sort of way, but I never expect to feel comfortable about them.
Sometimes evil wins and sometimes it does it right down the street everyday.
I'm sort of conflicted about OSG's situation. On the one hand I myself often like to entertain morbid fantasies where horrible things happen to me. I can even relate to her statement that maybe it is better for these things to happen to her rather than someone else because she can take it. There are levels where I am a bit jealous of her and her extreme experiences of degredation. I enjoy watching movies where there are female characters who have lost all respect for themselves and any notion of saving themselves, becoming martyrs for the pleasure of those that use them with no thought for whether they are being used for good or evil.
On the other hand whenever I read a post by OSG my heart wants to save her. Its just a natural reaction I have to her situation. I am a fixer....I fix things and sometimes people. Fixing people is sort of a hobby actually, one I don't indulge very often because it can be a very messy affair. My sister was with a terrible guy for 5 years and for 4.5 of those years I said almost nothing against the guy. I preferred to appear to support the situation until I felt she was ready to get out. When the time was right I got her a job where she would have to travel away from him to see me regularly and I talked and talked and talked and talked and talked to her until she decided to leave herself; until she believed she deserved better and it was within her grasp. She moved in with us for awhile while she healed emotionally before venturing out into the world on her own. I didn't know if the guy would retaliate against my family or not but my husband and I decided to risk it.
I do not believe the state gets to decide that someone can't kill themselves or punish themselves by risky living. If someone wants to drink themselves to death they get to. However it is also good to care about our fellow human beings who have no self worth left. If you want to help someone you have to be willing to get your hands dirty and your life dirty. We aren't obligated to do it and we don't get to sit around thinking some government agency or some church will do it for us. Personally I feel the only right way to "save" someone is to invite that person into your heart for the long haul which is risky in itself. It takes guts to help someone that low because their life is going to get all over yours but for some people having someone care to that degree is the only thing that will convince them they are worth saving.
I like reading OSG's posts in a voyeristic sort of way, but I never expect to feel comfortable about them.
Sometimes evil wins and sometimes it does it right down the street everyday.
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