LT : It's nice to go out and hang with friends... it sucks when it brings up thoughts you'd rather not be reminded of.
Feeling: A bit lonely tonight.
Doing: Watching some hopefully mind numbing tv.
The ESPYs really had a few nice moments. Caitlyn Jenner made a tremendous speech and the most of the platform she was afforded. But, to me, nothing beats Devon Still speaking about his five year old daughter's battle with cancer and then Lauren Hill's parents accepting the award on her behalf.
Lauren Hill, while given a nice little tribute, had a much larger story. Her ability to acknowledge fear in the face of certain death, the slow loss of function and articulation, and willingness to show the ugly reality of her cancer's progress was something that really struck me.
I watched this report. This was not on ESPN. This was not on national TV. It should have been.
Going on a date tomorrow night... a FIRST date. Not sure what to wear. Provocative? What if we don't click? What if we do? Maybe a hint of suggestion on the outside and something sexy underneath... just in case!!
Thinking - I didn't get laid last night (first date)
Feeling - Conflicted about it because he was quite nice
Doing - Waiting for him to ask me out again.
LT: Some threads need to come with trigger warnings.
F: in my early twenties. Insecure, uncomfortable, and a bit sick.
D: Going to go to work and try and forget about what I just read. And try again, like I do on what seems like too often a basis, to tell myself it's okay that I am who I am and I like what I like. And the past is where it is, not the future. I own that.