What would you tell your younger self if you could travel back in time?

Never trust anyone showing any level of positive regard for you. Remember telling yourself you were unworthy of anyone's time, effort, friendship or...you know, that fucking L-word? Now you're talking sense. They're going to tell you not to isolate. Isolate. You have nothing to offer on a non-professional level, keep that in the center of your mind and you will never be disappointed. You do not "deserve". Get that word out of your lexicon. Be vigilant...nobody cares. The harder they try and convince you, the more suspicious you should be. Never delude yourself...you are a product or you are garbage. There are only two things you need to understand about humans..what do they want and how much are they willing to pay? The rest is manipulation. Remember that - you were never supposed to be here. You are a mistake. As bad as you imagine they all are...they're worse. Stay angry...you're at your best, angry.
When I was angry, I was at my best. People say to bury anger, I did, may have well buried myself. Stay pissed. Keeps you focused.
 
If you're not going to even read your notes before going in to the exam hall, yet alone revise, don't waste your time doing the course - enjoy life instead. Mind you, getting 37% was pretty remarkable😅
 
"OK, young self - people will do things...compliment you, act interested in you as a person, "care"....100% of the time these are intended to manipulate you, to enslave you. They are lies. Always remember - they are lies. Yes, that includes EVERYBODY, especially your family. Always remember: Nobody cares. You deserve nothing. There is a silver lining, the sooner you embrace isolation, the sooner you'll find peace. You want positive interactions? Find the local shelter. They are unwanted as well - you'll understand each other. Oh...and you that one person who is a problem? Yeah...I think you know what to do...all you need is a old rag, some gasoline, a lighter...really? Ok, then! You're good to go! And don't fret...you'll, ever get caught."
 
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