Blinded by Love

[Rowan00]

I know I feel stupid

Love does that, though. Give yourself all the permission in the world to feel sad, but not stupid. You are not stupid.

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Your friends will understand. And if not...FUCK em. There's plenty of new friends available.

I wont be able to talk to them. its been years

 

[dkovic77]

I know I feel stupid

Alright...well..don't feel stupid. As it's been said....not your fault. Don't put yourself in that corner.

You have made a choice to reach out...that's the most important thing.

 

[BabyDoc]

v-v-v-v-very nice way to start off!!!!

 

[BrokenGirl30]

You've not revealed much about yourself save one photograph, but based solely on that image I can truly say yes, you do.

You look sexy in that photograph, and, if nothing else, your ownership of that sexiness is reason enough to wink and feel good about yourself.

Thanks. I dont know anything anymore

 

[dkovic77]

I wont be able to talk to them. its been years

Isn't that was facebook is for? (I wouldn't know) Reaching out and getting a hold of someone?

 

[BrokenGirl30]

I'm sorry. Yeah, the problem when you're with someone for so long -- especially if it's someone your friends don't particularly care for -- is you tend to distance yourself from everyone else. I kind of felt the same way when I came out of my engagement. But I wouldn't be surprised if some of those people would still love to hear from you. It's worth considering making a call or two. And even if that's not the case, what I said earlier still stands about taking care of yourself -- go out shopping, maybe buy yourself a new dress that also shows off that incredible body you have. Treat yourself to a movie or a day at the spa -- anything to just get you out and maybe the lift the clouds for a few hours.

And obviously you already have a ton of us on here willing to chat with you whenever. So in no way are you alone.

Thankyou. I feel so hurt and stupid. Why did I let this happen? Thanks for your kkind words

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Isn't that was facebook is for? (I wouldn't know) Reaching out and getting a hold of someone?

I dont want to be on that. never joined. I dont think they would want to hear from me

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Love does that, though. Give yourself all the permission in the world to feel sad, but not stupid. You are not stupid.

I feel stupid. and hurt

 

[Rowan00]

Thankyou. I feel so hurt and stupid. Why did I let this happen? Thanks for your kkind words

I've been there. Trust me. You made a smart decision to come here, I know that much. Lots of people willing to befriend you and remind you that you're a gorgeous woman who could have men falling at her feet if she wanted.

 

[dkovic77]

I dont want to be on that. never joined. I dont think they would want to hear from me

Well..if they were ever good friends...I"m sure they would.

Recently I called on some friends I haven't talked to in ages...and they were very much the voice of reason.

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Alright...well..don't feel stupid. As it's been said....not your fault. Don't put yourself in that corner.

You have made a choice to reach out...that's the most important thing.

I want someone to tell me its a nasty dream

 

[BrokenGirl30]

I've been there. Trust me. You made a smart decision to come here, I know that much. Lots of people willing to befriend you and remind you that you're a gorgeous woman who could have men falling at her feet if she wanted.

Thanks so much.

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Well..if they were ever good friends...I"m sure they would.

Recently I called on some friends I haven't talked to in ages...and they were very much the voice of reason.

I just couldnt do that. im ashamed

 

[Teddybarehead]

BG30 - Hang in there. Loved your first pic, can't wait to see more. If you need anything that I can give let me know. - Subscribed.

 

[dkovic77]

I want someone to tell me its a nasty dream

Many of us can tell you what you want to hear...but you know you've pinched yourself. You aren't dreaming--as much as you'd like it to be.

Just be careful from doing something destructive.

 

[dkovic77]

I just couldnt do that. im ashamed

That's the hardest part...putting down your shame and reaching out to those around you. You've done the first step here on Lit..now you need to take the next one.

When you are ready.

 

[BrokenGirl30]

BG30 - Hang in there. Loved your first pic, can't wait to see more. If you need anything that I can give let me know. - Subscribed.

thankyou

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Many of us can tell you what you want to hear...but you know you've pinched yourself. You aren't dreaming--as much as you'd like it to be.

Just be careful from doing something destructive.

I do think whats the point in life

 

[BrokenGirl30]

That's the hardest part...putting down your shame and reaching out to those around you. You've done the first step here on Lit..now you need to take the next one.

When you are ready.

Thank you

 

[dkovic77]

I do think whats the point in life

Yeah well....been there done that....have the tshirt.

 

[Teddybarehead]

Sometimes the pain of dreams that have been killed by a horrible reality stay with us for a really long time. -_- I still find myself looking at old photographs that cause me pain :/

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Sometimes the pain of dreams that have been killed by a horrible reality stay with us for a really long time. -_- I still find myself looking at old photographs that cause me pain :/

I do too. it makes my heart cry

 

[temp1384]

I dont want to be on that. never joined. I dont think they would want to hear from me

Your picture is beautiful and I am sorry to hear you are so broken. From what you have shared, it sounds like you have been isolated from outside friends and think no one cares. They do. True friends would. You need to do what is uncomfortable and start slowly reaching back out to others. This is a safe great first step. You should be proud of yourself for dabbing you toe back in the water of sharing your feelings with others. Get comfortable in the online and then start reaching out to friends around you in the physical world. Controlling people often try to keep their spouses away from others. To control them and manipulate them to the point that they feel like others don't care. That gives them power. It makes you dependent on them. It's not real. Its just your perception. Start chipping away at that perception and rebuild your self-esteem. I have some thoughts on books and groups that could help. Anyway .. you should be proud of yourself here. But keep working. Keep doing what is uncomfortable and you will bounce back. Don't let other people or other people's opinion of you determine your happiness. You can be, do, achieve. Believe and bounce back. You're not a victim, you're a victor. Rest of your life the best of your life.

 

[BrokenGirl30]

Thankyou to everyone for the posts, comments and messages of support. I said in my first post that this may be the wronf thing to do. I can say it has not been already.
I never thought such support could be found here. I thank you all.