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For women who are tied to the moon,

love alone is not enough.

We insist each day wrap it’s knuckles through our heart strings and pull.

The lows. The joy. The poetry.

We dance at the edge of a cliff, you have fallen off.

So it goes. You will climb up again.

You rare girl, once again, you have a body that belongs to no lover, to no father, belongs to no one but you.

Wear your sorrow like the lines on your palm.

Like a shawl to keep you warm at night.

Don’t mourn the love that is lost to you now.

It is a book of poems whose meters worked their way into your pulse. Even if it has slipped from your hands, it will stay in your body.

You loved a man who treated you like absinthe, half poison and half god.

He tried to sweeten you, to water you down. So you left.

And now you have your heart all to yourself again.

A heart like a stone cottage.

Heart like a lover’s diary.

Hope like an ocean.

― Letter from Anais Nin to Clementine von Radics
Her unexpurgated journals are fantastic too!
 
Sounds like you're dealing with a lot right now. I haven't been been able to catch up on everything you're going through, so can't really offer advice. I will say that it's OK to accept help from others. You (no matter who you are) cannot thrive in life without others.
I believe that just as dogs and wolves are pack animals, I believe we humans are also. We need our group, we need that support. Don't be ashamed to ask for or accept help. It doesn't make you less independent, it just means you are human.

Good luck with everything. Hope it all goes well!
 
My dear girl! That is not a good time. 😬

When you are usually the fixer it can be be so tough to accept help. Why it should be so much harder to receive than give for some personality types is . . . well, something I'd like the answer to myself.

I'm completely on board with taking a lesson from every situation. It's challenging to have people with strong opinions converse to the decisions you are making for yourself. It's an opening for a schism in your sense of self. Yet, to find those people, who disagree, but let it make no difference to the relationship or their value in you as a person can be a gift one didn't even know one needed.

This will get better. :rose:

Good luck with surgery tomorrow.
 
It took me a long time to embrace that just because I can do it myself, doesn’t mean I have to always do it myself. I knew that, but I didn’t live it. And I’m very grateful I’ve learned some of the joy and sense of belonging that comes from being supported. I’m so glad you’re allowing your community to rally around you and help. They want to help and accepting their offers is a mutual gift.

I’m always so wonderfully amazing by your open heart and loyalty. I hope you always keep that attitude ❤️

As for people with opinions…eh, 🤷‍♀️ Everyone’s got one. So unless they’re one of your rocks, I wouldn’t put any stock in them. Even then, you don’t have to agree with them.

And now surgery. That’s just a lot at once and the timing has got to be frustrating as fuck. I hope tomorrow goes well and then you’re off to a speedy recovery 🫂

P.S. I don’t really know any of my current neighbors and you’re inspiring me to think about how to change that.
 
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