Depression. It's a silent killer.

[razor33a]

I won't say that "things can/will/do get better", that's probably the last thing you want to hear.

Oh yeah that's a red flag. I've been on meds and done therapy but they are either spot treatments or it's something to keep me working and paying taxes but not actually living. It comes down to if I want to do it, there's really nothing to stop me, used to be but that was parent/child care and that's now over. I'm sure I'll be the reason for my demise, just when. i don't have any serious health issues or family history of them.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Doing the best I can today. I do that everyday but some days are better than others.
Keep going. It can’t get better if you’re not here.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Beholders_Eye]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

 

[hulmule]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

Sorry to hear this. Key thing like you said .Stay strong for your children.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Hey all it's been awhile, life was actually going really good for me and then last night it went to shit again. Hope y'all are well

 

[Wetkitty09]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

The fear of losing any of my kids makes me want to pull them all close and wrap them in bubble wrap. I can’t imagine how I would feel or if I would maintain my sanity.
Were here for you.

 

[ZinJ]

The fear of losing any of my kids makes me want to pull them all close and wrap them in bubble wrap. I can’t imagine how I would feel or if I would maintain my sanity.
Were here for you.

my young, barely 10 year old cousin and his dad drowned a couple years ago. never had much contact with them, but it's still sad and i can't imagine what the mother/wife is going through

 

[Bassytian]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

Not having children myself, I can't begin to imagine how hard that must be. I don't even know what to say about this...

Sorry to hear this. Key thing like you said .Stay strong for your children.

All I can do is second this.

 

[LittleGreene]

I’ve just heard that a friends husband attempted suicide a few days ago. He failed thankfully. She’s not close, so I can’t put my arms around them physically.
So I’m sending a virtual hug to everyone that’s suffering today.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I have an event I’m going to later this afternoon. I’m going to be busy until tomorrow afternoon sometime.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Medicalman13152]

I’ve just heard that a friends husband attempted suicide a few days ago. He failed thankfully. She’s not close, so I can’t put my arms around them physically.
So I’m sending a virtual hug to everyone that’s suffering today.

Over the years, I have had three people I knew commit suicide, two were close friends and there were no signs it would ever have happened. Now a days, we are better educated to reach out and check on our friends, and make sure they are well, and really ask them " Are you OK" and mean it!

 

[Beholders_Eye]

Not having children myself, I can't begin to imagine how hard that must be. I don't even know what to say about this...


All I can do is second this.

Thank you. The hospice is helping by mitigating her pain. She had a better day yesterday.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Hope all is well with y'all, me on the other hand I am fighting the urge to slice up my leg from toe to nuts

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. My event went well and I’m recovered for the most part.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Hope all is well with y'all, me on the other hand I am fighting the urge to slice up my leg from toe to nuts

Please call someone to help. I know that feeling and it’s hard to resist. We’re here to chat.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Please call someone to help. I know that feeling and it’s hard to resist. We’re here to chat.

Nah not calling anyone I don't plan on ending myself just frustrated and now I heard more lies about me

 

[Bloodandglitter]

I had a little breakdown the other morning at work. I bawled but realized I really had no right to be upset. So I wiped my tears and got back to work.
Days before, I saw my doctor who increased my doses on most of meds and can already see a difference. Let’s hope for the best.

I hope everyone is doing good. Enjoy your weekend

 

[Bassytian]

I had a little breakdown the other morning at work. I bawled but realized I really had no right to be upset. So I wiped my tears and got back to work.
Days before, I saw my doctor who increased my doses on most of meds and can already see a difference. Let’s hope for the best.

I hope everyone is doing good. Enjoy your weekend

Yeah... sometimes it doesn't need a reason to happen. While I do believe that brain chemistry plays a part in depression, it's only one piece of the puzzle. I hope you continue to see improvements!

 

[Bloodandglitter]

Yeah... sometimes it doesn't need a reason to happen. While I do believe that brain chemistry plays a part in depression, it's only one piece of the puzzle. I hope you continue to see improvements!

I agree with you about the brain chemistry. If one part is not on line with the others, it sets everything off.
I hate crying over something I have no control over. To me, it's like crying when you're pissed off.
Thank you me too!

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. A smoky morning here in the PNW. I’m getting my living space set up and it feels good to be on my own again.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Hello. I’m full enclosed now. The next step is anchoring the structure then some sort of insulation. Winter is coming and the more I do now the better likely I’ll survive it in a little comfort.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Today isn't too bad for the first time in weeks I woke up not depressed and kinda happy, even had Satan try to fuck with me through email but I didn't let it bother me and I kept my cool and finished with a smile

 

[curioustxn]

In my experience, the most common cause of depression is living the life you were taught to life as you were growing up, rather than the life that you want to live as an adult. You can't change the world around you, you can only change your part of it. I would suggest that you look within yourself, and decide what will make *YOU* happy, not what will make the world around you happy.

We didn't come into this world to serve a culture created by society, we came into this world to find a little peace and happiness of our own!

Just my opinion........

 

[Wetkitty09]

In my experience, the most common cause of depression is living the life you were taught to life as you were growing up, rather than the life that you want to live as an adult. You can't change the world around you, you can only change your part of it. I would suggest that you look within yourself, and decide what will make *YOU* happy, not what will make the world around you happy.

We didn't come into this world to serve a culture created by society, we came into this world to find a little peace and happiness of our own!

Just my opinion........

I agree with this statement and want to add that the brain chemistry is also a factor for many people.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Today isn't too bad for the first time in weeks I woke up not depressed and kinda happy, even had Satan try to fuck with me through email but I didn't let it bother me and I kept my cool and finished with a smile

Killing them with kindness is its own reward.