Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Wetkitty09]

I had depression since my teens (even struggled with suicidal thoughts). It got a little less intense in by my late 20s, but then flared up around covid. Then work management changed and the replacement is an awful man who's still sadly in the same job, even if I did file a complaint about his behaviour towards me (like him getting upset at me for being too sick to work when I got food poisoning, among other things). HR practically strong-armed me into "quitting" and I was too fed up and just left. Despite being mostly jobless now, I actually feel myself getting better now that I'm not in a toxic workplace struggling with constant anxiety. Hope the next permanent job I find won't be as bad.

Morning. I was amazed at the feelings of relief I had when I left a toxic job. I’d had crappy jobs in the past but the last one was the worst. I had started therapy and was a bit more in tune with my mental state and actually noticed the feeling of freedom and relief when I finally left.
I know it’s a hard decision in this economy to leave a job, no matter how toxic, but your life and mental health are more important than any employer’s bottom line.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I came across some questions that I want to ask to open up some discussion.
If you’re not interested that’s fine but please keep all comments positive.

Question 1. What constitutes a perfect day for you?

I look forward to seeing your answers.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I’ll go first.
I’ve actually had this day.
The day that everyone (my kids) woke up in a good mood and got themselves ready to start the day without my having to fight with them. They got on the school bus on time.
That evening after a calm dinner and homework session. Everyone relaxed together in the living room. Each doing their own thing but all together.
The memory of the bliss of that day has kept me going more often than one might think.

 

[razor33a]

I can't remember a "perfect day". Even a decent day is coated in pessimism about the tomorrow or what didn't get done today. I tend to phrase it more as a "less fucked up day". Eeyore sums me up normally.

 

[PotNoodle79]

I don't know any of you good folk. I do know how important it is to share feelings etc. I'm no shrink or anything but my inbox is open if anyone wants a vent or anything.
Look after yourselves.

 

[Bassytian]

Morning. I came across some questions that I want to ask to open up some discussion.
If you’re not interested that’s fine but please keep all comments positive.

Question 1. What constitutes a perfect day for you?

I look forward to seeing your answers.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

Interesting idea, I like this!

A perfect day for me is a day when I get to stay home all day, no one calls or bothers me in any way. Just a day entirely to myself where I can write, eat, write some more, take a small break, write again (I've been bitten by the writing bug BADLY), and... you get the idea!

 

[Wetkitty09]

Interesting idea, I like this!

A perfect day for me is a day when I get to stay home all day, no one calls or bothers me in any way. Just a day entirely to myself where I can write, eat, write some more, take a small break, write again (I've been bitten by the writing bug BADLY), and... you get the idea!

Thanks Bass for answering the question. I hope you have many perfect days.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I’ll have another question tomorrow. I’m going to give this one another day to marinate.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Beholders_Eye]

Morning. I came across some questions that I want to ask to open up some discussion.
If you’re not interested that’s fine but please keep all comments positive.

Question 1. What constitutes a perfect day for you?

I look forward to seeing your answers.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

One of two things:
1. A day playing golf
2. A day masturbating

(Just being honest...)

 

[ZinJ]

Morning. I came across some questions that I want to ask to open up some discussion.
If you’re not interested that’s fine but please keep all comments positive.

Question 1. What constitutes a perfect day for you?

I look forward to seeing your answers.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

Perfect day for me would be if I'm all alone in the house, writing with nothing but silence around me. At least that's one of the perfect days for me, anyway.

 

[smtst5]

Im struggling today.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Im struggling today.

Morning. How are you doing?

 

[Wetkitty09]

It’s amazing how quickly things can change. The morning yesterday was calm but the evening ended with flashing lights.
Domestically violence is a horrible experience.
It wasn’t me who experienced it but my son and grandson. But everyone is dealing with the hurt and betrayal.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I hope you’re day goes smoothly.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Cool and breezy here today. Being in my own space is such a balm to my brain.
I hope you have the best day you can.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[razor33a]

Decided this isn't the week to self checkout, but was at very edge as normal. Not sure how long this period will last.

 

[Bassytian]

Decided this isn't the week to self checkout, but was at very edge as normal. Not sure how long this period will last.

I'm glad you didn't, I have been there recently myself. I won't say that "things can/will/do get better", that's probably the last thing you want to hear. Anything you want to talk about?

 

[Wetkitty09]

Decided this isn't the week to self checkout, but was at very edge as normal. Not sure how long this period will last.

I’m glad you’re still here, still fighting. I’m not going to sugarcoat the fact that it can be a long time. Follow your relief. Find and do the things that give you some relief from the depression. It can be as small as sitting in a different chair but if it gives you relief then that’s what you need to do.

We’re here to talk or you can PM if you’d rather not talk publicly.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wonderer67]

Occasionally drop in here. I struggle occasionally with depression, anxiety and ptsd.

I hope these pics will cheer you up some if you are struggling.

The late season wildflowers are really starting to kick in! We were on a road trip across Pennsylvania this last week and wild Fields were just yellow with golden rod (Solidago).

https://imgur.com/a/zIacnyB

We got home Friday night and yesterday morning looked at all our wildflowers.

Beauty berry

https://imgur.com/a/DVPu7dc

Cosmos

https://imgur.com/a/l2ggKP2

https://imgur.com/a/7Ya0W1S

 

[Wonderer67]

Woodland sunflower. We took a clump out of a field a few years ago, and they have totally taken over. They are borderline invasive. but in a good way.

https://imgur.com/a/KgnHWwd

Anemone

https://imgur.com/a/9TWDnby

Boneset and argeratum (sp)

https://imgur.com/a/pGlVMkL

 

[Wonderer67]

Question 1. What constitutes a perfect day for you?

Just being in nature.

Being able to take in the natural beauty. Even when I’m working on our farm, just being outside feels so good to me. Working, feeling purposeful.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Thank you to those that answered my question.
My situation as usual has changed. I miss the days of being able to predict with some certainty what the day would be like.
I’ll post another question in the series later this week. My mind and body are tired clear to the bone.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

A little depressed today. There is a quote from Theodore Roosevelt that best describes a major source of my depression: "comparison is the thief of joy".

 

[Wetkitty09]

A little depressed today. There is a quote from Theodore Roosevelt that best describes a major source of my depression: "comparison is the thief of joy".

Morning Bass. I used to keep that quote on the bathroom mirror so I saw it everyday. A reminder to look at where I am now vs where I was yesterday, last week etc. and not compare myself to where others seem to be. We never see a full picture of what others are going through only what they choose to show us.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

Morning Bass. I used to keep that quote on the bathroom mirror so I saw it everyday. A reminder to look at where I am now vs where I was yesterday, last week etc. and not compare myself to where others seem to be. We never see a full picture of what others are going through only what they choose to show us.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

Thanks, I may try that. Comparing myself to others is a HUGE one for me. Stopping could go a long way toward my recovery!

I'm doing better today. I have a three-day weekend ahead, which for me is tomorrow through Thursday. My plans? Staying at home!