Depression. It's a silent killer.

[smtst5]

Im struggling today.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Im struggling today.

Morning. How are you doing?

 

[Wetkitty09]

It’s amazing how quickly things can change. The morning yesterday was calm but the evening ended with flashing lights.
Domestically violence is a horrible experience.
It wasn’t me who experienced it but my son and grandson. But everyone is dealing with the hurt and betrayal.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I hope you’re day goes smoothly.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Cool and breezy here today. Being in my own space is such a balm to my brain.
I hope you have the best day you can.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[razor33a]

Decided this isn't the week to self checkout, but was at very edge as normal. Not sure how long this period will last.

 

[James_Bassytian]

Decided this isn't the week to self checkout, but was at very edge as normal. Not sure how long this period will last.

I'm glad you didn't, I have been there recently myself. I won't say that "things can/will/do get better", that's probably the last thing you want to hear. Anything you want to talk about?

 

[Wetkitty09]

Decided this isn't the week to self checkout, but was at very edge as normal. Not sure how long this period will last.

I’m glad you’re still here, still fighting. I’m not going to sugarcoat the fact that it can be a long time. Follow your relief. Find and do the things that give you some relief from the depression. It can be as small as sitting in a different chair but if it gives you relief then that’s what you need to do.

We’re here to talk or you can PM if you’d rather not talk publicly.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wonderer67]

Occasionally drop in here. I struggle occasionally with depression, anxiety and ptsd.

I hope these pics will cheer you up some if you are struggling.

The late season wildflowers are really starting to kick in! We were on a road trip across Pennsylvania this last week and wild Fields were just yellow with golden rod (Solidago).

https://imgur.com/a/zIacnyB

We got home Friday night and yesterday morning looked at all our wildflowers.

Beauty berry

https://imgur.com/a/DVPu7dc

Cosmos

https://imgur.com/a/l2ggKP2

https://imgur.com/a/7Ya0W1S

 

[Wonderer67]

Woodland sunflower. We took a clump out of a field a few years ago, and they have totally taken over. They are borderline invasive. but in a good way.

https://imgur.com/a/KgnHWwd

Anemone

https://imgur.com/a/9TWDnby

Boneset and argeratum (sp)

https://imgur.com/a/pGlVMkL

 

[Wonderer67]

Question 1. What constitutes a perfect day for you?

Just being in nature.

Being able to take in the natural beauty. Even when I’m working on our farm, just being outside feels so good to me. Working, feeling purposeful.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Thank you to those that answered my question.
My situation as usual has changed. I miss the days of being able to predict with some certainty what the day would be like.
I’ll post another question in the series later this week. My mind and body are tired clear to the bone.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[James_Bassytian]

A little depressed today. There is a quote from Theodore Roosevelt that best describes a major source of my depression: "comparison is the thief of joy".

 

[Wetkitty09]

A little depressed today. There is a quote from Theodore Roosevelt that best describes a major source of my depression: "comparison is the thief of joy".

Morning Bass. I used to keep that quote on the bathroom mirror so I saw it everyday. A reminder to look at where I am now vs where I was yesterday, last week etc. and not compare myself to where others seem to be. We never see a full picture of what others are going through only what they choose to show us.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[James_Bassytian]

Morning Bass. I used to keep that quote on the bathroom mirror so I saw it everyday. A reminder to look at where I am now vs where I was yesterday, last week etc. and not compare myself to where others seem to be. We never see a full picture of what others are going through only what they choose to show us.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

Thanks, I may try that. Comparing myself to others is a HUGE one for me. Stopping could go a long way toward my recovery!

I'm doing better today. I have a three-day weekend ahead, which for me is tomorrow through Thursday. My plans? Staying at home!

 

[razor33a]

I won't say that "things can/will/do get better", that's probably the last thing you want to hear.

Oh yeah that's a red flag. I've been on meds and done therapy but they are either spot treatments or it's something to keep me working and paying taxes but not actually living. It comes down to if I want to do it, there's really nothing to stop me, used to be but that was parent/child care and that's now over. I'm sure I'll be the reason for my demise, just when. i don't have any serious health issues or family history of them.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Doing the best I can today. I do that everyday but some days are better than others.
Keep going. It can’t get better if you’re not here.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Beholders_Eye]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

 

[hulmule]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

Sorry to hear this. Key thing like you said .Stay strong for your children.

 

[CuriousInAR78]

Hey all it's been awhile, life was actually going really good for me and then last night it went to shit again. Hope y'all are well

 

[Wetkitty09]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

The fear of losing any of my kids makes me want to pull them all close and wrap them in bubble wrap. I can’t imagine how I would feel or if I would maintain my sanity.
Were here for you.

 

[ZinJ]

The fear of losing any of my kids makes me want to pull them all close and wrap them in bubble wrap. I can’t imagine how I would feel or if I would maintain my sanity.
Were here for you.

my young, barely 10 year old cousin and his dad drowned a couple years ago. never had much contact with them, but it's still sad and i can't imagine what the mother/wife is going through

 

[James_Bassytian]

I am feeling sad because my oldest daughter is suffering from metastatic cancer and has just gone into hospice. While I realize it is normal and natural to feel this way, I am fighting to keep it from pulling me down to a place I don't want to be. I have already lost one son; it's not natural to outlive your children. So, I keep doing what I regularly do, which is browse the internet and occasionally post in the Lit forum. And playing golf twice a week. Fortunately, my other children are helping her and she has a good husband and friends. This is a comfort.

I realize she will probably pass away soon and not sure how I will handle it. I know it is not about me, but I want to be brave for my children. Shit...

Not having children myself, I can't begin to imagine how hard that must be. I don't even know what to say about this...

Sorry to hear this. Key thing like you said .Stay strong for your children.

All I can do is second this.

 

[LittleGreene]

I’ve just heard that a friends husband attempted suicide a few days ago. He failed thankfully. She’s not close, so I can’t put my arms around them physically.
So I’m sending a virtual hug to everyone that’s suffering today.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I have an event I’m going to later this afternoon. I’m going to be busy until tomorrow afternoon sometime.

Be safe out there.
Love you.