Depression. It's a silent killer.

[JonathanBair]

Hello. Seems I’ve taken over this thread and that’s not what it’s meant for.
Depression, no matter the cause, eats away at what makes us our best selves. Keeping us from feeling the joy of life and connection. It’s a killer that often leaves the body alive with a dead spirit.

Follow your relief and don’t let the demon win. Each little win makes the difference.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

You are so right... It dose eat the body alive leaving a dead spirit.

 

[Xxllrs69xx]

Just like to add. I knew someone personally that was very unhappy with their personal appearance. To the point where depression was deeply rooted. What saved them was talking to their physician and treatment and the final recommendation was rhinoplasty.

So my view has always been if you are unhappy with your appearance (especially physically) you might be able to address part of it. I understand it can lead a person down a rabbit hole but it might help others.

 

[JonathanBair]

That sounds more like a self-esteem thing then depression... For me I got bi-polar depression so I cycle from being happy to sad or high energy to feeling like I can not get enough sleep...From what I understand it is a chemical thing in the brain.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Regardless of what causes depression it is valid. One is not more important than the other.
Have the best day you can. Follow your relief.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

Depression is more than sadness. In fact, sadness only seems to come when it is the most severe. Normally, it’s apathy and emotional numbness, and sometimes it can be anger.

Though I’m doing much better than I was a few months ago, happiness still eludes me, and I can’t figure out why.

 

[JonathanBair]

Depression is more than sadness. In fact, sadness only seems to come when it is the most severe. Normally, it’s apathy and emotional numbness, and sometimes it can be anger.

Though I’m doing much better than I was a few months ago, happiness still eludes me, and I can’t figure out why.

I hope you have something you can hold on to for when times get dark for you... Hang in there and keep going

 

[Jagseouman]

I would like to chat about a big problem that not too many people discuss. Sorry to be a downer. But there are too many people out there who are dying because they are depressed. I suffer from depression (not sure why) but I wouldn't think of killing myself. I've always been told that is a perminant solution to a temporary problem. I think it would do a good service to discuss what has worked for you to overcome your depression or what has helped someone you know.

Hi Justadude64, I just stumbled ont his ... many moons since you posted (it). Two years ago I ent through the lowest point in my life, tried SS, failed and ended up in psychiatry for 2+ yrs

How you do nou?

 

[JonathanBair]

I know for me self removal is not something I "normally" would think about. Tho there is days when I know I do cycle and when I am on my down swing sometimes my brain twist things and takes it to get me to look at something in the wrong way. That can point me to think about removing my self tho it is not a normal everyday though. I do know sometimes under rare conditions tho I am at risk to letting that kind of abnormal though slip into my head, and if isolated like when my area State of Texas was hit with that polar vortex that over loaded the power grid for a few weeks. The isolation along with being on a down cycle did have me think of self removal. Tho I had my dogs and I pushed threw it for them, so no mater how bad I felt I knew I needed to keep going for them...It has been 30 years from the last time I actively tried to self harm but now and then the thoughts do creep in my head tho it is rare.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I have gotten through the times I want to self harm primarily because of my need to care for my kids and my pets. The thought of my children being the ones to find me has stopped my hand.

Find and follow the relief.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Madhatter02]

Morning. I have gotten through the times I want to self harm primarily because of my need to clean for my kids and my pets. The thought of my children being the ones to find me has stopped my hand.

Find and follow the relief.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

Have an amazing day

 

[JonathanBair]

Morning. I have gotten through the times I want to self harm primarily because of my need to clean for my kids and my pets. The thought of my children being the ones to find me has stopped my hand.

Find and follow the relief.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

I am really glad that you have a strong reason not to give in and to keep fighting the thoughts of self harm... I hope you have a amazing day

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I hate the saying but today it fits. One Day at a Time. Sometimes it’s one hour at a time. Keep going.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

I hope you have something you can hold on to for when times get dark for you... Hang in there and keep going

Thank you.

I’ve been doing alright for a while now. I came close to ending it all a few months ago, but I’ve gotten help, and have reached a much better place, mentally and emotionally.

A major thing that has helped is that I have stopped negative self-talk. Much of my depression comes from having an extremely negative view of myself, shaped from years of bullying at school, and emotional abuse/neglect from my dad. I interalized it, and kept it going, even after graduating and my dad’s passing, both events occuring more then twenty years ago now.

But now that I have stopped that, my depression has lost a lot of its power. Is it a cure? No. Will it work for everyone. Again, no. Everyone’s battle with it is as unique as whatever it will take to help them.

 

[JonathanBair]

Thank you.

I’ve been doing alright for a while now. I came close to ending it all a few months ago, but I’ve gotten help, and have reached a much better place, mentally and emotionally.

A major thing that has helped is that I have stopped negative self-talk. Much of my depression comes from having an extremely negative view of myself, shaped from years of bullying at school, and emotional abuse/neglect from my dad. I interalized it, and kept it going, even after graduating and my dad’s passing, both events occuring more then twenty years ago now.

But now that I have stopped that, my depression has lost a lot of its power. Is it a cure? No. Will it work for everyone. Again, no. Everyone’s battle with it is as unique as whatever it will take to help them.

I am really glad you found something that is making your life better

 

[Wetkitty09]

Hello. My day started off fast and I didn’t get to check in until now. My living situation has improved and soon we’ll have heat and a true door in the shelter. My son has been a true gift for all his help and support while we get ready for the winter. Not being alone helps both of us so much.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I hope today goes smoothly for you.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

I hope everyone is having a good day so far.

I'm having a good day off from work. Over the weekend, I have no idea what happened, but the heel and ankle of my right foot began hurting so badly I could barely walk. I wore a brace on that ankle Monday, which made walking possible. Yesterday, I put two sets of gel insoles in my shoes, and that helped dramatically!

Today, I'm kicking back and staying off my feet as much as possible.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. My son and I got the door in the blanket fort done yesterday. Today the heater goes in if all works out well.
The snow will be here soon.
Having the place you live comfortable and safe is so important to your mental health.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[WordsthatCaress]

Having never suffered from depression personally I cannot really offer any meaningful insight.

However, one of the bravest people I ever knew took their own life earlier this year. This was a man who fought in a number of conflicts and whose selfless bravery I witnessed many times.

We stayed friends long after we both left the military. Last Christmas we ran in the Brecon Beacons as we had done as young army officers. We drank beer and reminisced. I thought I knew him really well.

He never said a word about his demons. His struggle to adapt to civilian life. His night terrors. I only found that out after his funeral.

I feel guilty that I couldn't save him - that I didn't ask the right questions.

If you are struggling please reach out to someone. Anyone. Don't let depression envelop you completely. Your life is precious and priceless.

 

[Wetkitty09]

So often we don’t want to burden our friends with the demons we fight. The enjoyment of those we care for often keeps those demons away for the time we’re together with friends. It’s the times alone that wear us down and for some the ability to reach out isn’t there.
We mask our depression with smiles and redirect the conversation whenever it gets too close to the subject of our lives. Most friends don’t notice the change in subject or see through our masks.
This thread allows us our anonymity so we can share our stories and pain and know we aren’t alone and, hopefully, find the ear of someone else that knows what we’re going through.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wonderer67]

Having never suffered from depression personally I cannot really offer any meaningful insight.

However, one of the bravest people I ever knew took their own life earlier this year. This was a man who fought in a number of conflicts and whose selfless bravery I witnessed many times.

We stayed friends long after we both left the military. Last Christmas we ran in the Brecon Beacons as we had done as young army officers. We drank beer and reminisced. I thought I knew him really well.

He never said a word about his demons. His struggle to adapt to civilian life. His night terrors. I only found that out after his funeral.

I feel guilty that I couldn't save him - that I didn't ask the right questions.

If you are struggling please reach out to someone. Anyone. Don't let depression envelop you completely. Your life is precious and priceless.

Your message is quite uplifting, however, I gave it a sad because I’m sorry for the loss of your friend…

I know. Ive been there. Maybe your friendship and communication helped him live longer.

I have kept in touch w several friends who I served and deployed with. We don’t ever talk about our feelings. I sometimes wish we could. But I don’t ever go there. All of us have invisible injuries, I know. One of us has very visible physical injuries - But he’s maybe the stablest of us all!

I know I keep going often by staying busy. And sometimes this is a dangerous mask. I have to be super aware and vigilant.

I don’t know what I’m trying to say or express here. Most importantly, I’m sorry for the loss of your friend.

So often we don’t want to burden our friends with the demons we fight. The enjoyment of those we care for often keeps those demons away for the time we’re together with friends. It’s the times alone that wear us down and for some the ability to reach out isn’t there.
We mask our depression with smiles and redirect the conversation whenever it gets too close to the subject of our lives. Most friends don’t notice the change in subject or see through our masks.
This thread allows us our anonymity so we can share our stories and pain and know we aren’t alone and, hopefully, find the ear of someone else that knows what we’re going through.

True words wet kitty.

I know I don’t want to burden my friends when things get tough.

Thanks for jump starting this thread many moons ago - you are never alone.

We are here for you on this thread if you are struggling.

 

[Fillingthevoid]

Depression is so hard to explain to people even those who have suffered from it sometimes. I have always been a very outgoing person but for the last 10 months I keep slipping further and further to just nothingness I try not to let loved ones actually see me cause they could tell something is wrong but I fake it when I have to and just carry it myself but I got this

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I hope today goes as smoothly as possible.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[ericalauren]

It's almost winter here in New Jersey (USA). I'm usually fine with the darkness of winter until February and March. Then, get seasonal depression. I have to do light therapy with a light therapy lamp and also take small doses of Xanax sometimes. It's a doozy! Praise be for psych meds, though.

 

[SlipperyPeaches]

It's almost winter here in New Jersey (USA). I'm usually fine with the darkness of winter until February and March. Then, get seasonal depression. I have to do light therapy with a light therapy lamp and also take small doses of Xanax sometimes. It's a doozy! Praise be for psych meds, though.

Goodluck facing the winter! I've just escaped one of the statistically coldest winters where I live. It gets lonely when you can't go outside :/