Depression. It's a silent killer.

I wish it was seasonal. Feel this way most days. You can tell the good from the bad depending on how many words I get down on paper, sometimes a couple of thousand, other days just a couple of hundred. It's the loneliness which hits first, then the feeling of disinterest, and on the really bad days, the thought that I can do nothing right. Been like it now for about nine years, all tied up with the same marital issues which led me to write in the first place. Sorry, sharing too much on what is a serious conversation.
I understand because it's the same for me.
 
Morning. Sky’s are clear and cold here today. I’ll take it over the clouds and rain anytime.
I hope your day goes smoothly.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
I guess a good day is sometimes just ticking off the little things... pumping up the car tyres to avoid the sensor telling me they are flat when they aren't, just because it's cold for one :)
 
I started the ball rolling for the procedure to take care of the pinched nerves in my back. Now I wait to see if the insurance will cover it. Fingers crossed.

Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
Follow your relief. The holidays are upon us and for some it’s the worst time of the year. Do what something healthy that gives you relief from the emotional stress this time of year can bring.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
You know... sometimes you get the most uninspiring of days which really takes you by surprise, and today was one of those :)
 
Walks/hikes outdoors in the sunlight everyday also helps, a minimum of 45 mins per day is supposed to be best.
I was working from home today, but I did go out for about a 40 minutes at lunchtime. It does help.

I am in a bad SAD funk. I really hate these early evenings.

Last nite, I had a bad ptsd dream. I know what to do to come down from them, and I walked it off in our basement for abt an hour. Luckily, I was able to go back to sleep and I did have another dream, but at least it was a good sex dream! 😜

Today sucked balls but I’ll take it one day at a time. The next few weeks will be difficult for me.
 
I was working from home today, but I did go out for about a 40 minutes at lunchtime. It does help.

I am in a bad SAD funk. I really hate these early evenings.

Last nite, I had a bad ptsd dream. I know what to do to come down from them, and I walked it off in our basement for abt an hour. Luckily, I was able to go back to sleep and I did have another dream, but at least it was a good sex dream! 😜

Today sucked balls but I’ll take it one day at a time. The next few weeks will be difficult
It’s good that you got out. I’m stuck away from home with two post stroke family members. If a sound wakes me up, I can’t go back to sleep until I’m sure they are settled.
Late at night can be the worse time for grief, obsessing about abuse and being let down.
I’m glad you were able to go back to sleep.
 
The seasonal depression crap hit me today, and made me think about my past. It’s kind of funny, how my past makes me sad but my present doesn’t. I’m not saying my life is effing great, but I’m in a much better place than I was even earlier this year. Realizing this helps, a lot. I can’t change the past, it’s over and done with. So, why obsess over it?

This week had been extra hard for me. The intrusive thoughts seem to be stronger lately. It is weird to look around and can't see any reason to feel like I do, but here I am, not wanting to go on anymore.
I’ve been there, just a few months ago. I know how it feels to not want to keep going, to give up. I won’t shove the “keep fighting” mantra down your throat, but feel free to reach out to any of us if you feel the need. Sometimes, a listening ear, or reading eye, can help.
 
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