Depression. It's a silent killer.

Being active and outside is the best thing for my mental health. I was in foul humor Friday night, having been forced to work for my day job well into the weekend. (Fuckers who can’t plan…)

I really do not like these short days where I have to wrap up my day at the farm by 430.

But I was outside nearly all weekend and I got a good bit done today and that helped me.

I hope you all have a good week.
 
My plan for the holiday is to be in a quiet place with my dog and cats. Relaxing and snuggling with no stress. It’s self care for me to avoid the anxiety that comes from being in a large group. I love the people in my life but I can only be with a few at a time.

Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
Yesterday, I was the most depressed I had been in months. I was frightened that I had relapsed, that my meds had stopped working (which I'm still not 100% sure hasn't happened).

I feel better today, though. I almost called out of work, but I thought being in a hectic work environment would distract me more than staying at home to mope; it turns out I made the right decision.
 
I'm definitely not the happiest I've been... Not the worst.
See, I lost my husband 4½ years ago.. For the next 3 years, I was in a daze and fog... And I did the holidays like he was here... Full of all the trimmings..

But this year, it's just myself and my 19yr old son.. And he doesn't want to " waste money on Thanksgiving".. but he wants a nice Xmas ..
It's fine, but it feels even more empty..
 
I'm definitely not the happiest I've been... Not the worst.
See, I lost my husband 4½ years ago.. For the next 3 years, I was in a daze and fog... And I did the holidays like he was here... Full of all the trimmings..

But this year, it's just myself and my 19yr old son.. And he doesn't want to " waste money on Thanksgiving".. but he wants a nice Xmas ..
It's fine, but it feels even more empty..
I understand not wanting to waste money on something but if it brings you joy or at the very least relief then it’s not a waste. Do what makes your heart feel full.
 
Yesterday, I was the most depressed I had been in months. I was frightened that I had relapsed, that my meds had stopped working (which I'm still not 100% sure hasn't happened).

I feel better today, though. I almost called out of work, but I thought being in a hectic work environment would distract me more than staying at home to mope; it turns out I made the right decision.
Sometimes staying busy is half of the trick. Not to negate your feelings or what is happening around you, but something to help you thru a tough time.
 
How is everyone doing today? My seasonal depression is acting up tonight. My parrot broke my SAD lamp, so I had to order a new one. I was able to do some light therapy this morning, though. It wasn't enough to help my depression, alas.
Keep at it. Whatever you to cope is worth it. I have a multi spectrum light at work and I forgot to bring it home.

I did spend a good part of today outdoors which helped.

I have heard natural sunlight is best if you can get outside.
 
I received my new SAD lamp last night! My parrot had broken my former SAD lamp. Anyway, I'm exhausted and in pain, but at least my depression is under control for now.
I am glad to hear that. (The light helped).

But sorry abt the exhaustion and pain.
 
I'm definitely not the happiest I've been... Not the worst.
See, I lost my husband 4½ years ago.. For the next 3 years, I was in a daze and fog... And I did the holidays like he was here... Full of all the trimmings..

But this year, it's just myself and my 19yr old son.. And he doesn't want to " waste money on Thanksgiving".. but he wants a nice Xmas ..
It's fine, but it feels even more empty..
Hang in there, time has a weird way of healing.
 
Yesterday, I was the most depressed I had been in months. I was frightened that I had relapsed, that my meds had stopped working (which I'm still not 100% sure hasn't happened).

I feel better today, though. I almost called out of work, but I thought being in a hectic work environment would distract me more than staying at home to mope; it turns out I made the right decision.
Good for you, changing your mind and swapping context is helpful. Too much introspection is not good when feeling down.
 
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