Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Wetkitty09]

I'm definitely not the happiest I've been... Not the worst.
See, I lost my husband 4½ years ago.. For the next 3 years, I was in a daze and fog... And I did the holidays like he was here... Full of all the trimmings..

But this year, it's just myself and my 19yr old son.. And he doesn't want to " waste money on Thanksgiving".. but he wants a nice Xmas ..
It's fine, but it feels even more empty..

I understand not wanting to waste money on something but if it brings you joy or at the very least relief then it’s not a waste. Do what makes your heart feel full.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I was stupid yesterday and went out without my coat. I caught a chill and spiked a fever. I went to bed and passed out until early this morning. The fever broke and I’m fine now but it was yet another wake up call to take better care of myself.

I hope your day goes smoothly.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[ericalauren]

I received my new SAD lamp last night! My parrot had broken my former SAD lamp. Anyway, I'm exhausted and in pain, but at least my depression is under control for now.

 

[Wonderer67]

Yesterday, I was the most depressed I had been in months. I was frightened that I had relapsed, that my meds had stopped working (which I'm still not 100% sure hasn't happened).

I feel better today, though. I almost called out of work, but I thought being in a hectic work environment would distract me more than staying at home to mope; it turns out I made the right decision.

Sometimes staying busy is half of the trick. Not to negate your feelings or what is happening around you, but something to help you thru a tough time.

 

[Wonderer67]

How is everyone doing today? My seasonal depression is acting up tonight. My parrot broke my SAD lamp, so I had to order a new one. I was able to do some light therapy this morning, though. It wasn't enough to help my depression, alas.

Keep at it. Whatever you to cope is worth it. I have a multi spectrum light at work and I forgot to bring it home.

I did spend a good part of today outdoors which helped.

I have heard natural sunlight is best if you can get outside.

 

[Wonderer67]

I received my new SAD lamp last night! My parrot had broken my former SAD lamp. Anyway, I'm exhausted and in pain, but at least my depression is under control for now.

I am glad to hear that. (The light helped).

But sorry abt the exhaustion and pain.

 

[Vitriolhack]

I'm definitely not the happiest I've been... Not the worst.
See, I lost my husband 4½ years ago.. For the next 3 years, I was in a daze and fog... And I did the holidays like he was here... Full of all the trimmings..

But this year, it's just myself and my 19yr old son.. And he doesn't want to " waste money on Thanksgiving".. but he wants a nice Xmas ..
It's fine, but it feels even more empty..

Hang in there, time has a weird way of healing.

 

[Vitriolhack]

Yesterday, I was the most depressed I had been in months. I was frightened that I had relapsed, that my meds had stopped working (which I'm still not 100% sure hasn't happened).

I feel better today, though. I almost called out of work, but I thought being in a hectic work environment would distract me more than staying at home to mope; it turns out I made the right decision.

Good for you, changing your mind and swapping context is helpful. Too much introspection is not good when feeling down.

 

[LucianaGrace]

 

[Bassytian]

We had our Thanksgiving yesterday. Though it was too crowded for my liking, I had a good time. I crashed about an hour after coming home and got the first full night of sleep I've had in a while.

I hope everyone is able to have a great holiday today!!

 

[Wetkitty09]

I hope the day finds you well and whatever you have planned for the holiday gives you some fulfillment.
Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[aquamarina35]

Depression is the worst. Without my meds, I'd probably be dead.

 

[Wonderer67]

Depression is the worst. Without my meds, I'd probably be dead.

Well. I’m glad your hear with us.

 

[ericalauren]

Hello, all! I'm using my SAD lamp now. It's sunny outside so I may go sit out in the cold for a bit to get some natural sunshine. I hope that everyone is doing well.

 

[LucianaGrace]

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning all. Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

For me the time between thanksgiving and new years is the dead zone. Nothing gets done because of the holidays. I have a procedure planned that I’m waiting on insurance to decide if they’ll cover it. I feel like it won’t even be looked at because it falls during the dead zone of the year.

Have a smooth day.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

For me the time between thanksgiving and new years is the dead zone. Nothing gets done because of the holidays. I have a procedure planned that I’m waiting on insurance to decide if they’ll cover it. I feel like it won’t even be looked at because it falls during the dead zone of the year.

Have a smooth day.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

Aren't insurance companies "the best"? I rank them somewhere between bleeding hemorrhoids and crowds.

My bout of depression earlier this week has passed, thankfully. Working on Black Friday and the weekend before is a lot of fun.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Aren't insurance companies "the best"? I rank them somewhere between bleeding hemorrhoids and crowds.

My bout of depression earlier this week has passed, thankfully. Working on Black Friday and the weekend before is a lot of fun.

Crowns without Novacaine.

Thanks Bas. Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

The cold is oppressive but if you take a step outside my front door the stars are amazing.
I hope today goes well for you.
Be safe and warm out there.
Love you.

 

[LucianaGrace]

 

[sister jenny]

This season is so hard.
I had a really rough patch in the beginning of November that got worse by drinking too much. It became more for everyday and finally my husband sat me down and we talked. Deep inside I knew I needed daylight and exercise, but my brain convinced me wine worked just as well.
Still fighting with depression and self hatred but the walks are doing wonders and having my daughter hug me clears the darkness.

Listen.
Be there.
Hug.

Keep fighting everyone.
We can do this!

 

[Bassytian]

This season is so hard.
I had a really rough patch in the beginning of November that got worse by drinking too much. It became more for everyday and finally my husband sat me down and we talked. Deep inside I knew I needed daylight and exercise, but my brain convinced me wine worked just as well.
Still fighting with depression and self hatred but the walks are doing wonders and having my daughter hug me clears the darkness.

Listen.
Be there.
Hug.

Keep fighting everyone.
We can do this!

I never started drinking, which shocks me, because I've had plenty of reasons and opportunities to. Ambien was my vice, so I can both relate and not relate to those who drink.

We have to be there for each other, and let others be there for us!

Crowns without Novacaine.

Thanks Bas. Love you.

Love you, too!

 

[Zeppelin1969]

I avoid talking about it -- it's the ultimate turn-off. People just disappear if you ever show vulnerability, or at least me, a straight male.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I avoid talking about it -- it's the ultimate turn-off. People just disappear if you ever show vulnerability, or at least me, a straight male.

Those that disappear were never meant to hold your vulnerability sacred. Let them go and keep looking. There are people out there who understand the gift that someone’s vulnerability is a hold it safe.