Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Wetkitty09]

I dread going into work today and having to put on a happy act just so I don't have to deal with it getting a barrage of "what's wrong?" questions, if I do finally begin to tell them about being depressed they suddenly don't want to know. You see the uncomfortable body language of them realizing they opened a Pandora's Box.

Either that or you get the usual response of "well... just get happy!"

I get it. I tell them something like “I didn’t sleep well” or “something woke me up early”.
They never want to know what’s really happening to you.
I hope you have the best day you can.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Meanwhile, back at the fort…
I’m back home after what seems like months. I got so spoiled with heat and running water that I’m having trouble acclimating to the rustic conditions. Lol.

Update on my back issues. The next step is a consultation with a back surgeon. Fingers crossed they’ll be able to do something.

Be safe out there.
Love you

 

[Carson19820]

I hope you have the best day you can.

Thanks. Things were looking ok until the doctor's office called back about some test results. Sigh...

 

[Wetkitty09]

Thanks. Things were looking ok until the doctor's office called back about some test results. Sigh...

I hope you’re doing okay. We’re here if you need to vent/ talk.
Hugs.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Ended up overdoing yesterday and went to bed early to get away from the world. It happens.
Hope you’re having the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I hope today is the best it can be for you.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Not much to say about a Sunday morning.
Hope the day goes well.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[MerryeMikee]

Morning. Ended up overdoing yesterday and went to bed early to get away from the world. It happens.
Hope you’re having the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

It can get into a cycle sometimes, feel a fairly bright, maybe overdo it a bit much, then have to slip away from the world to recuperate.

 

[LegendInMyOwnMind]

Depression is so familiar to me that it's almost a friend. My depressions have varied immediate causes, but all trace back to my childhood emotional incest trauma.

What I most need is a reason to live with my own name on it. Loving my 26-year-old son as best I can is a very important reason to live, but that has his name on it.

One reason with my own name on it is being a Literotica author. A closely related reason is the enjoyment of these forums.

I have an affirmation that sometimes helps me:

Though my anxieties, doubts, and trauma make me tremble, I ... AM ... NOT ...AFRAID.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Accepting that I have fear and not allowing it to stop me from living my best life is a victory. Everyday I wake up and decide to continue. Sometimes it’s a conscious decision, others it isn’t. The latter is where the victory lies.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

The day started without me this morning. I’m already running late.
I hope your day goes well.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[ericalauren]

Hello! I couldn't fall asleep until around 6:30am. I woke up to my alarm at 2pm. I fed the baby bird and now I'm doing my SAD lamp therapy. I hope it helps my energy levels and keeps my seasonal depression at bay. Ciao!

 

[Wonderer67]

I am always very conscious of when the sun rises and sets.

Tonght at work, I noticed that the sunlight was quite a bit brighter at 5pm than it has been in sometime. It’s a month since the shortest day of the year and we can notice more sunlight in the evenings.

It’s about a minute a day longer each day right now.

I went thru a hellish November and December w depression, anxiety and ptsd dreams. January started badly, but in the last few weeks, things seem to be leveling down a bit… fingers crossed.

https://imgur.com/a/ypTowuX

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I’ve also been noticing the increase in length of the day. Living this far north in the US you really see the changes in the movement of the sun. It gives me a little thrill to see it still lite after 5pm. Lol.

Hope you’re having the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I spent nearly the whole day in bed yesterday. It was a purposeful lazy day. I’m feeling much more refreshed today and ready to start the grind again.
Taking care of myself is a big part of keeping my depression away.
The way things are going on in the world right now is enough to make me want to hide in my blanket fort and not come out.
Don’t let the bastards beat you down.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

The cold weather has driven me to a friends place for the weekend. My living situation doesn’t allow for 15 degree overnight temperatures.
Please, all who are affected by this cold storm, and everyone else, be safe and warm.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. 6 degrees at home this morning and 16 where I’m staying the weekend. I hope you’re safe and warm where you are. I’m thankful for the friends that let me stay with them during this cold spell.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[MerryeMikee]

Be safe, breathe through it.

 

[forgotmyantidepressants]

Stay safe out there everyone.

 

[ericalauren]

How is everyone doing today? I did 45 minutes of SAD light therapy this morning. It's a sunny and freezing cold day here. We are supposed to get a huge snow storm tomorrow (Sunday).

 

[Wetkitty09]

Sunday morning. I’m making cinnamon rolls for my friends. Fingers crossed they turn out. Lol.
Where I’m at will avoid most of the storms but it’s so cold.
Be safe and warm out there.
Love you.

 

[Ssbbw4u1974]

I feel my depression is trying to overtake my happiness.
I'm kinda new at trying to manage my BPD, but I'm also bipolar so if it's chemistry in my brain causing the depression to sneak up, it's can just stay dormant!!

 

[Wetkitty09]

Monday. Ugh. Back to the real world for me. I know most everyone else is already there but it doesn’t mean I have to like it.
Hope you have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Hanging out with my grandson. So much energy. It’s fun to be around for a little while anyway.

Hope your day goes smoothly.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

My pain level is up again. It shows how much the mattress you sleep on affects your body. The bed at the place I’m pet sitting is like a rock and that’s not good for my ticky hips.

Hope you have the best day you can.
Be safe out there
Love you.