Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Wetkitty09]

I’ve recently been dealing with the comparison issue. I’ve been having a talk with the woman in the mirror and letting her know she is enough. I don’t need to compete with anyone but myself.
Learning to accept and love myself is a challenge that I will always have. Some days are better than others. I’m learning to always choose what’s best for me and stop taking the shit hoping it’ll get better.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[ericalauren]

How is everyone doing today? I woke up late today. It's a cloudy day outside. I'm doing my SAD lamp light therapy now, to hopefully help with my seasonal depression and my chronic fatigue syndrome. What is everyone up to now?

 

[Wonderer67]

@Wetkitty09

And everyone.

I might have said this before.

But thanks for reviving this thread. I am glad I found it. It has been helpful. Sometimes cathartic.

 

[Wetkitty09]

@Wetkitty09

And everyone.

I might have said this before.

But thanks for reviving this thread. I am glad I found it. It has been helpful. Sometimes cathartic.

Thank you Wonderer.
I’m glad I found it during a deep search through the threads.
We all keep it going in our own way and the support that has developed through sharing our stories has helped so many.
Thank you to everyone let’s keep it going for another year.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

The day started out fast and then screeched to a halt. I’m waiting for my tires to be replaced and thinking about how my life has been going.
Ok mostly. It all averages out eventually.

Have a good day.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

The energy I expended on trying to get the people working on my tires to do the bare minimum of what I needed was exhausting and knocked me out for the rest of the day. I’m still feeling low this morning. Ugh.

I hope you’re having the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[ericalauren]

How is everyone doing today? I was able to wake up earlier than usual today. Finally! I did some SAD light therapy and then ran some errands. Now I'm about to do more of the SAD light before I have to feed the baby bird. What are you all up to now?

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I spent most of the day in bed with exhaustion yesterday. I’m finally feeling better this morning. Chronic fatigue is a thing.
Have the best day you can.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Hello all. Had a good day until about 3 yesterday. Then the exhaustion hit again. This is new for me. I’m not really liking it much.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I’m noticing that it’s staying lighter later. Yay. The sun is returning.
One day at a time.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Yourbbygrl]

I suffer from anxiety and depression; it is mostly controlled with meds. But if anyone is ever in a bad way and needs someone to talk to and I am online please message me.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Went to a bonfire last night and saw a few people that I need to make more effort to have in my life again. I’ve been so insular lately that I’ve lost touch with the people that are most important in my life.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

The days start so early when you have a furry alarm.
Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Off to a follow up about my back procedure.
Have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Carson19820]

I dread going into work today and having to put on a happy act just so I don't have to deal with it getting a barrage of "what's wrong?" questions, if I do finally begin to tell them about being depressed they suddenly don't want to know. You see the uncomfortable body language of them realizing they opened a Pandora's Box.

Either that or you get the usual response of "well... just get happy!"

 

[Wetkitty09]

I dread going into work today and having to put on a happy act just so I don't have to deal with it getting a barrage of "what's wrong?" questions, if I do finally begin to tell them about being depressed they suddenly don't want to know. You see the uncomfortable body language of them realizing they opened a Pandora's Box.

Either that or you get the usual response of "well... just get happy!"

I get it. I tell them something like “I didn’t sleep well” or “something woke me up early”.
They never want to know what’s really happening to you.
I hope you have the best day you can.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Meanwhile, back at the fort…
I’m back home after what seems like months. I got so spoiled with heat and running water that I’m having trouble acclimating to the rustic conditions. Lol.

Update on my back issues. The next step is a consultation with a back surgeon. Fingers crossed they’ll be able to do something.

Be safe out there.
Love you

 

[Carson19820]

I hope you have the best day you can.

Thanks. Things were looking ok until the doctor's office called back about some test results. Sigh...

 

[Wetkitty09]

Thanks. Things were looking ok until the doctor's office called back about some test results. Sigh...

I hope you’re doing okay. We’re here if you need to vent/ talk.
Hugs.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. Ended up overdoing yesterday and went to bed early to get away from the world. It happens.
Hope you’re having the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I hope today is the best it can be for you.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Not much to say about a Sunday morning.
Hope the day goes well.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[MerryeMikee]

Morning. Ended up overdoing yesterday and went to bed early to get away from the world. It happens.
Hope you’re having the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

It can get into a cycle sometimes, feel a fairly bright, maybe overdo it a bit much, then have to slip away from the world to recuperate.

 

[LegendInMyOwnMind]

Depression is so familiar to me that it's almost a friend. My depressions have varied immediate causes, but all trace back to my childhood emotional incest trauma.

What I most need is a reason to live with my own name on it. Loving my 26-year-old son as best I can is a very important reason to live, but that has his name on it.

One reason with my own name on it is being a Literotica author. A closely related reason is the enjoyment of these forums.

I have an affirmation that sometimes helps me:

Though my anxieties, doubts, and trauma make me tremble, I ... AM ... NOT ...AFRAID.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Accepting that I have fear and not allowing it to stop me from living my best life is a victory. Everyday I wake up and decide to continue. Sometimes it’s a conscious decision, others it isn’t. The latter is where the victory lies.

Be safe out there.
Love you.