Ive built her up to be something she is not.
The sex was incredible, definitely. Did i want to save her? probably.
At some point it just became an addiction maybe. i dont know.
I'm addicted to an ex girlfriend
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Ive built her up to be something she is not.
The sex was incredible, definitely. Did i want to save her? probably.
At some point it just became an addiction maybe. i dont know.
SweetErika
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So what? Why does it matter what she thinks at all? If what's healthiest for you is cutting her out of your life completely, then that's all that matters.
Stop worrying about what she might think if you do X, Y or Z, and focus on what you know to be true about yourself.
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Im not saying im thinking properly here!ha
Maybe you should seriously consider the issue, rather than just writing your detrimental thoughts off with a flippant response.
Sorry, but you've been doing the same thing for three pages and a significant period of time. That leads me to believe you're enjoying the drama and getting some kind of payoff from this situation, like The Gimp said. You can't be helped if you don't truly want to help yourself.
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Don't stop on my account. I'm just making an observation about what appears to be a pattern of behavior. I'd say this would be a good time to look at your thoughts (e.g. 'I worry what she'll think of me') and behaviors ('I can't stop myself') and see what you might do differently to break the pattern(s), since what you are doing doesn't seem to be working very well for you.
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I used to be in your shoes couple of years ago, by then I thought I could never be over her, I thought I would not be happy again without her.
It did take me quite long time to get over her, maybe few month, I forgot.
Now I have no any feeling to her, although I think about her from time to time.
It did take me quite long time to get over her, maybe few month, I forgot.
Now I have no any feeling to her, although I think about her from time to time.
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I going to take a hard line here and tell you to Shut up, get off your ass and go to some CODA meetings even if you have to do it online.
Mister, that is the best advise you will get this year.
http://www.coda.org/index.php
http://www.coda.org/meetings/index.php
Mister, that is the best advise you will get this year.
http://www.coda.org/index.php
http://www.coda.org/meetings/index.php
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well said
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Boy can I relate to your situation. I already suffer from depression, just to let you know. This relationship of mine was 20 years ago. It was the best and worst relationship I've had. He went back and forth on me all the time. He loves me one day, likes me days later, then he didn't want to see me, then a week later he loves me...never consistent. It id my head in. He was verbally abusive the whole time. It has been 20 years and I still think of him on a daily basis. I saw him on FB. The last time I talked to him over the phone was 1999. The only reason I got away from this guy is because my best friend told him to stop seeing me because he was leading me on. He really was like a drug. When he 'loved me' the high was unbelievable. I was soooo happy. It was the first time I believed someone really loved me. I have managed to stay away but I have still written him letters I never sent. Any love song I hear I think of him. A part of me dreams he will contact me someday.
Do your best to stay away. I know it is easier said than done. I have moved on with my life...I HAD to. But you know what? I learned a lot of lessons from him. Those lessons has helped me handle future relationships better.
Do your best to stay away. I know it is easier said than done. I have moved on with my life...I HAD to. But you know what? I learned a lot of lessons from him. Those lessons has helped me handle future relationships better.
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Maybe you are just angry because she dumped you and now she is jerking your chain. Sounds like you are confusing the hurt and anger of getting dumped with love. likely, if she came back, (and the two of you resumed the relationship), in the end, you would dump her. It happens that way some times.
Keep on nursing your anger, and sooner or later you will do something stupid that lands you in jail. I don't care how good she was in bed, (or anywhere else), there is not a woman on this planet worth this much grief. You should stop wasting your life and move on.
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Well then, give us an update, man!
How are things going? Have you broken the addiction? Are you dating, or working on bettering yourself?Well then, give us an update, man!
Oh man im way better and dating a fantastic girl not without some issues between us, but they are healthy issues!
The ex... Oh man. She got knocked up by this dude then aborted his baby and left him in the middle of the night then got back together with him and now they are getting married after dating for less than a year. She has cheated on him, called the cops on him and hit him.
ufdah was I mess and did not see the forest for the trees. Happy.
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Talk about dodging a bullet of crazy, my friend.
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Well, it's because you ARE truly and certifiably addicted.
When a person "falls in love" there are chemicals that are released in the brain in large amounts called dopamine, serotonin and oxytocin.
This is similar to taking a drug.. such as cocaine.. when you take cocaine large amounts of these chemcials are released.. and people get "high".
Same exact freakin thing with love but its extremely hard to find someone else who can make you feel this way when your brain is CRAVING a certain person. You think about them all day, you smell her panties.. blah blah blah. Because you want the CHEMICALS she makes your brain release.
So stop treating it like unrequitted love and just STOP all contact. Believe me.. I've been through it before.
But the GOOD news is once you are over her... it's for GOOD *in my experience* unlike drug addiction.
So get a puppy, go on dates, find a new hobby or go get addicted to World Of Warcraft.
But you are missing out on the "healthy" girl by trying to fix the sick girl. SO much like the Perfect Circle song Sleeping Beauty.
The sick girl will NEVER EVER EVER be healthy again. Pretend she has AIDS and GO HAVE FUN!!!!!
When a person "falls in love" there are chemicals that are released in the brain in large amounts called dopamine, serotonin and oxytocin.
This is similar to taking a drug.. such as cocaine.. when you take cocaine large amounts of these chemcials are released.. and people get "high".
Same exact freakin thing with love but its extremely hard to find someone else who can make you feel this way when your brain is CRAVING a certain person. You think about them all day, you smell her panties.. blah blah blah. Because you want the CHEMICALS she makes your brain release.
So stop treating it like unrequitted love and just STOP all contact. Believe me.. I've been through it before.
But the GOOD news is once you are over her... it's for GOOD *in my experience* unlike drug addiction.
So get a puppy, go on dates, find a new hobby or go get addicted to World Of Warcraft.
But you are missing out on the "healthy" girl by trying to fix the sick girl. SO much like the Perfect Circle song Sleeping Beauty.
The sick girl will NEVER EVER EVER be healthy again. Pretend she has AIDS and GO HAVE FUN!!!!!
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The above is a perfect example of why people should read the entire thread before posting.
