I'm having a lesbian affair...with a married woman

Nothing i can do about it. Wait till she feels like calling me I guess.

And live my life in the mean time
This is the danger of falling for the straight girl. The double danger is that she's married. No judgment here. I've been in your situation, I just never develop feelings (because im aro). It sucks to be where you are, I'm sure. Just remember, a girl that will sleep with you behind her partner's back will sleep with someone else behind yours.

Find someone free to love you like you deserve.
 
Nothing i can do about it. Wait till she feels like calling me I guess.

And live my life in the mean time
You can't worry about the things you can't control. Upset for sure, but you must control you and see where it goes. You can't stop your life waiting since you can't control her. She is married, confused and has a lot going on in her mind as you can imagine. Worry about you.
 
This is the danger of falling for the straight girl. The double danger is that she's married. No judgment here. I've been in your situation, I just never develop feelings (because im aro). It sucks to be where you are, I'm sure. Just remember, a girl that will sleep with you behind her partner's back will sleep with someone else behind yours.

Find someone free to love you like you deserve.
Thank you ❤️
 
Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and messages ❤️

I was very upset and emotional and i know she didn't mean to hurt me but i was very very hurt

I understand her issue and why she's struggling and confused. But it makes me feel helpless and desperate that I have no say in this, she could just decide to end it and nothing i can do about it.
 
And i am asking myself. Why was i REALLY so upset like a spoiled child? If i'm honest with myself, my anger was because I wouldn't get to have SEX with her this weekend. My emotions were rooted in my vagina, not my heart.

And my immediate reaction was to call someone else for sex.

Is this really love? Or am i just infatuated with her beauty and her sexuality and the intoxicsting pleasures of her body?
 
When Rico arrived last night, he came on very strong, as always. As aroused and full of desire as I was, i still fought him off. I was in the mood to tease and play games. My anger and despair aroused not only my lust, but also my strength. I wanted to be in control. Of him, and also myself.
 
I wanted him so bad, i wanted him to rip my clothes off and take me on the floor. But i kept laughing and pushing him away. A wild rough session of foreplay, my god it was what i needed, it drove out my sadness and pain and brought me fully into the moment with him.

He was chasing me around my apartment, pinning me against walls and aggressively kissing and groping and trying to undress me.

I would laugh and spin away. My dancer's body is strong and agile. One time I slapped him and he looked shocked but i laughed, dartrx in and kissedand pulled away again.
 
I let him trap me in the bedroom. On the bed. By that time we were undressed. He tried to pinn me down but i wrestled away and he let me end up straddled on top of him.

We kissed and he spanked me as my wet pussy slid along his big hardcock. God it felt good, i flexed my hips and drove my clit against his shaft.

I hadn't allowed him to have unprotected sex with me. He as asked. Well, he has BEGGED lol.

His hands gripped my ass and hips. He tried to position himself, and tried to hold me still. Please, he said. Come on, you know you want to. Let's just try it for a minute, i'll stop if you want.

I just want to feel you, he said. Feel all of you.

i didnt answer him. I stared into his eyes. I teased him.

Teased him oh god it was so delicious

I let him slip in a little, the pulled away. Then again, a little deeper. His bare cock was slowly opening me. I was so slippery and wet, i wanted him sooo soooo BAD.
 
I didn't really think about it, I just played naughty with him getting so arousedby his bare skin getting deeper inside me. No thought, just sensation and desire and dirty pleasure slowly taking control of me.

He was halfway in and I just thrust my strong hips forward and down and i flowered open and his cock was so huge and hard and i slid doen his shaft and hit bottom.

I swirled andspun my hips and stayed all the way down. My clit rubbed against him and sent electric shocks through my body. I moved my hips, grinding on him, wanted to feel his cock press me from different angles.
 
He grabbed my breasts hard and squeezed and he pinched and twisted my nipples till it hurt

The pain mixed so deliciously with the overwhelming pleasure

Bareback sex is extremely intense and pleasurable for me. I was crying as i began rising and falling on his cock. So emotional! The downstrokes were hard and violent and he thrust up to meet me.

He used his hard grip on my breasts to lift me, then pulled me down roughly as we collided.

I came violently and gushed my passion onto him
 
I rode him hard. I could bruises inside me, i didn't care. He had his hand on my throat and said terribly dirty things to me. Called me a dyke whore. Called me a bitch and a slut.

Said he was going to "breed" me.

He was very rough and dirty and wild. Being bare inside was making him that way i think. He's never felt so huge and hard.

He rolled me over and just bludgeoned me from on top.

It was so rough it felt like we were wild animals rutting in the jungle.

He was huge I felt so full it was so satisfying.
 
He was rough enough for it to hurt. I wanted it that way. I was punishing for not being desirable enough to keep my married lover, keep her from running back to her husband.

Rico hammered me. He dominated me, he did whatever he wanted to me and made me his little fucktoy.

It was exactly what I needed. I felt so completely stretched and full and satisfied.

I have no idea how many times i orgasmed.
 
He was tensing up and i knew he was getting close..

cum inside me daddy, I whispered. Breed your little bitch.

He groaned and shook and erupted. Oh my god i love that feeling, feeling him cumming inside me, his hot liquid passion pouring into my body

I held him close and locked my legs around and whispered to him how amazing it felt and ground and thrust against him, i bit his ear and scratched his back and he kept pulsibg and pulsing and i milked every drop out of him and just DRAINED him
 
And i am asking myself. Why was i REALLY so upset like a spoiled child? If i'm honest with myself, my anger was because I wouldn't get to have SEX with her this weekend. My emotions were rooted in my vagina, not my heart.

And my immediate reaction was to call someone else for sex.

Is this really love? Or am i just infatuated with her beauty and her sexuality and the intoxicsting pleasures of her body?
If the “love” can be easily transferred to another partner, is it love?

You are correct to question yourself.

More importantly, I hope you find your answers.

Thank you for sharing with us your inner conversations. 🫂
 
And i am asking myself. Why was i REALLY so upset like a spoiled child? If i'm honest with myself, my anger was because I wouldn't get to have SEX with her this weekend. My emotions were rooted in my vagina, not my heart.

And my immediate reaction was to call someone else for sex.

Is this really love? Or am i just infatuated with her beauty and her sexuality and the intoxicsting pleasures of her body?
I really want to root for you in this. I think you being able to ask these questions is very important. There appears to be so many positive elements to the relationship that need time and space to grow, but you may need to be introspective about your patience and care. I can't imagine what thoughts and emotions she is also struggling with, but it also feels like space can be made to talk about that... maybe without the temptation of sex as an avoiding trap.

You got this!
 
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