EricaAnna
Starting Over
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*all the hugs for you sweet girl*Dear Diary,
So that really sucked.
It’s scary how fast things change, one second you are up, feeling great and you make a really fucking bad decision and it all crumbles.
Someone like me should know better, and deep inside, of course, I do. But that fucking manic euphoria just kills you, you are on top of the world, unbeatable. You don’t need shit!
So, yeah, tuesday I went of my meds.
Big fucking failure.
Don’t ask me why, just move on.
Pain, confusion, panic attacks, big big fight, heartache, my therapist saying I’m a moron (well, in a much nicer way), vomiting, tons and tons of crying, I could go on but I won’t.
Haven’t fucking slept for days.
Need to shower too.
Lots of forgivness to ask, mostly from myself, but also my poor family. At least it did’t last months like last time.
Anyhoo… fuck me, right?