Tex
I represented everything she despised about men. Charming? No. Sophisticated? No. Rich? No. Belligerent and horny? Yes. I tell ya a few other things I was--Fun, something I was sure she hadn't had a day of in her life. Honest, a trait she probably turned on and off as it suited her needs. And a human being, a species she seemed to have turned her back on long ago. Did I wanna fuck her? Yeah. Hell, I'm a man, I can't fight that. Did I want to rescue her? No, only she could do that for herself. Did I want a friend? Maybe that was it. Maybe I knew that despite our apparent differences, we really weren't that far apart. I knew loneliness like the back of my hand. Hell, you think spendin' your life fighting and sleeping with whores is a happy one? Anyway, as she led me up the stairs I felt different than I had with any of the other girls. For some reason a nagging sense of sorrow and regret ate at me from the inside. Fuck, what the hell was happening to me? I'm supposed to be the tough guy, right? I really just felt like gettin' this over with. Hell, what was I thinkin'? It ain't like she was gonna talk to an asshole like me about anything but how much I owed her.
We entered her room. I looked around for a second, placed the bottle of champagne on her dressing table and noticed the picture on the mirror. I looked from the picture to Violetta and back. The child's eyes were as beautiful as hers.
"Yours?" I said, gesturing to the boy on the tricycle.
I represented everything she despised about men. Charming? No. Sophisticated? No. Rich? No. Belligerent and horny? Yes. I tell ya a few other things I was--Fun, something I was sure she hadn't had a day of in her life. Honest, a trait she probably turned on and off as it suited her needs. And a human being, a species she seemed to have turned her back on long ago. Did I wanna fuck her? Yeah. Hell, I'm a man, I can't fight that. Did I want to rescue her? No, only she could do that for herself. Did I want a friend? Maybe that was it. Maybe I knew that despite our apparent differences, we really weren't that far apart. I knew loneliness like the back of my hand. Hell, you think spendin' your life fighting and sleeping with whores is a happy one? Anyway, as she led me up the stairs I felt different than I had with any of the other girls. For some reason a nagging sense of sorrow and regret ate at me from the inside. Fuck, what the hell was happening to me? I'm supposed to be the tough guy, right? I really just felt like gettin' this over with. Hell, what was I thinkin'? It ain't like she was gonna talk to an asshole like me about anything but how much I owed her.
We entered her room. I looked around for a second, placed the bottle of champagne on her dressing table and noticed the picture on the mirror. I looked from the picture to Violetta and back. The child's eyes were as beautiful as hers.
"Yours?" I said, gesturing to the boy on the tricycle.