Lil_Jenni's Adventures, Past and Present...

Although it's even better when I have an orgasm at the same time a man is cumming in my mouth. :D
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So you're 69ing at this point, right? The only other way I can come(heh) up with this is if you're doing two guys at once. If so...
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To finish out my pity party, it's my birthday tomorrow, and I'm going to be fucking 37. Can I even claim mid-30s anymore? Fuck.

All I want is to be left alone tomorrow, but I know that's not possible. Hubby is taking the day off, so I should be able to find some time to relax, but what I really want is to be by myself someplace quiet... and snowy, but it barely even feels like fall...

FUCK! The other one's crying. I bet she's wet now. Fucking figures. 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
Happy Birthday!
 
I've been reading a wider variety of threads on here the last week or so. I've not been commenting, really -- just reading. I've confirmed many things I already knew (like folks on the political board mainly have no interest is actually discussing politics, or understanding the nuances thereof, but rather most seem to uncritically parrot the crap they read and hear). But I've noticed something I had not really considered in depth before. The folks who post in threads about "intelligence" and/or who self-identify as sapiosexuals are about the most pretentious assholes on here. Hell, they tend to be more pretentious than even many of the regulars in the Authors Hangout.

Further, the men drawn to such threads seem to be mainly white knight misogynists. I try to be a live and let live person and not condemn others for what gets them going, but too many of those fuckers give me creepster vibes. And I tried to be fair, as I have had bad experiences on here with men who claim to be sapiosexual and want intelligent conversation but then get quite pissy when the woman has her own thoughts and ideas that do not conform to what he thinks a smart woman should have... or uses words that only "low women" use... or such shit. But... creepster vibes. Lots and lots of creepster vibes. It's like the kind of shit that ruins John Norman's Gor series, when his characters spend page after page waxing philosophical on how female slavery is the natural order and intelligent women make better slaves.

Now, this last may seem strange for me to say, as many here know I'm submissive and love playing slave to Hubby's master. But, back in the way back, when I was young an naive, I had that "men are superior and women exist for men's pleasure" shit drilled into my head by a predator, and I believed it for a long time. Hell, some of my issues with intimacy and not believing I am worthy of love are because part of me still believes that shit. But I have also learned, by becoming stronger, and knowing strong women, and loving a man who likes strong women, that it is all fucking bullshit.

So, I am willing to admit maybe I am projecting a little when I read what these supposedly gentlemen sapiosexuals write, but... they still give me creepster vibes.

Okay... rant over.
 
I've been reading a wider variety of threads on here the last week or so. I've not been commenting, really -- just reading. I've confirmed many things I already knew (like folks on the political board mainly have no interest is actually discussing politics, or understanding the nuances thereof, but rather most seem to uncritically parrot the crap they read and hear). But I've noticed something I had not really considered in depth before. The folks who post in threads about "intelligence" and/or who self-identify as sapiosexuals are about the most pretentious assholes on here. Hell, they tend to be more pretentious than even many of the regulars in the Authors Hangout.

Further, the men drawn to such threads seem to be mainly white knight misogynists. I try to be a live and let live person and not condemn others for what gets them going, but too many of those fuckers give me creepster vibes. And I tried to be fair, as I have had bad experiences on here with men who claim to be sapiosexual and want intelligent conversation but then get quite pissy when the woman has her own thoughts and ideas that do not conform to what he thinks a smart woman should have... or uses words that only "low women" use... or such shit. But... creepster vibes. Lots and lots of creepster vibes. It's like the kind of shit that ruins John Norman's Gor series, when his characters spend page after page waxing philosophical on how female slavery is the natural order and intelligent women make better slaves.

Now, this last may seem strange for me to say, as many here know I'm submissive and love playing slave to Hubby's master. But, back in the way back, when I was young an naive, I had that "men are superior and women exist for men's pleasure" shit drilled into my head by a predator, and I believed it for a long time. Hell, some of my issues with intimacy and not believing I am worthy of love are because part of me still believes that shit. But I have also learned, by becoming stronger, and knowing strong women, and loving a man who likes strong women, that it is all fucking bullshit.

So, I am willing to admit maybe I am projecting a little when I read what these supposedly gentlemen sapiosexuals write, but... they still give me creepster vibes.

Okay... rant over.
One of the many reasons I only visit the same areas. 😁
 
Another small rant...

I don't care for AI rendered pictures of women, men, or sex. It's too uncanny valley for me. Cartoons and art? Sure. I'm not too proud to admit I've gotten aroused by sexy cartoons and erotic art. But that's at least partly because I try to imagine what the artist was thinking and why he/she/they made the art. AI generated art? Nah... no thanks. There is no there there for me.

Plus, generative AI is not really AI in the broad sense of general intelligence. It cannot make value judgements or know whether what is generated is really appropriate to the prompt. Our tendency to confirmation bias, combined with being unduly impressed by (usually) precise grammar, makes us think the response generative AI provides is appropriate, and we overlook the small infelicities as long as they are not obvious hallucinations by the generative AI. But what if they are all hallucinations, and some just conform close enough to expectations that we give the algorithm the benefit of the doubt?

Anyway, not a fan of erotic AI art... 🙄
 
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Another small rant...

I don't care for AI rendered pictures of women, men, or sex. It's too uncanny valley for me. Cartoons and art? Sure. I'm not to proud to admit I've gotten aroused by sexy cartoons and erotic art. But that's at least partly because I try to imagine what the artist was thinking and why he/she/they made the art. AI generated art? Nah... no thanks. There is no there there for me.

Plus, generative AI is not really AI in the broad sense of general intelligence. It cannot make value judgements or know whether what is generated is really appropriate to the prompt. Our tendency to confirmation bias, combined with being unduly impressed by (usually) precise grammar, makes us think the response generative AI provides is appropriate, and we overlook the small infelicities as long as they are not obvious hallucinations by the generative AI. But what if they are all hallucinations, and some just conform close enough to expectations that we give the algorithm the benefit of the doubt?

Anyway, not a fan of erotic AI art... 🙄
While I have some seen a few decent ones, I tend to agree.
 
While I have some seen a few decent ones, I tend to agree.
Yeah, except... Meh.

Plus, the models are rife with biases. About a year ago, I tried some generative AI rendering apps to to try to create an AI rendered likeness of me I could show when people wanted to know more what I look like. I didn't want to use a real pic, as I didn't want them being part of it's source material, so I kept trying to find the right parameters to generate something that looks similar to me. Well, let's just say more than one app balked at parameters including short, skinny, small breasts, etc. as asking for prohibited content. Put in big breasts? No problem. Short, skinny, big-eyed, waifs with huge tits are generated at will. But change to small breasts? Pedo warnings. Seriously. So, to at least three generative AI apps, my body parameters are associated with age restrictions. 🙄🙄🙄
 
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Yeah, except... Meh.

Plus, the models are rife with biases. About a year ago, I tried some generative AI rendering apps to to try to create an AI rendered likeness of me I could show when people wanted to know more what I look like. I didn't want to use a real pic, as I didn't want them being part of it's source material, so I kept trying to find the right parameters to generate something that looks similar to me. Well, let's just say more than one app balked at parameters including short, skinny, small breasts, etc. as asking for prohibited content. Put in big breasts? No problem. Short, skinny, big-eyed, waifs with huge tits are generated at will. But change to small breasts? Pedo warnings. Seriously. So, to at least three generative AI apps, my body parameters are associated with age restrictions. 🙄🙄🙄
I hadn't thought about that.

And I have never tried AI. I just show my face in my profile like a moron. 🤣
 
So, here's an update I know you were all waiting on... no one came forward about the cat, so she lives in our house now. 😸
I've been on the fence on cat ownership. I'm allergic to some, but not all, and I'm fond of ginger cats (and people 🤷🏻). How's that going?

I'm feeling good, and I am almost close to thinking I may someday get a handle on the whole having twins thing... 🤪
Never had twins, but it felt damn close having 4 kids appear in 5 years. My eldest turns 18 in 2 months and I still don't have a fucking clue how we got here. 🤣
I've had a lot more of this type of thing this time compared to the first time. My OBGyn told me carrying twins can result in more changes because the hormone production is usually higher with twins. Fuck, my hips and boobs are proof of that.

My hips didn't change hardly at all the first time. They are definitely wider now, and that's with having a C-section a bit early. 😟😡🤬
It's just an accentuation to an hourglass figure, right?

As for boobs, it could be the milk of course, but I'm a bit more than a cup size up from my nursing bras I had from the first pregnancy. We'll see how much sticks around. My fear is none will and I'll be flat and floppy... 😟
Never wean them, or teach your hubby to enjoy some fresh milk and you'll never have to worry about it! 🤣

I've been trying not to burden people here with my shit, but this is my thread, so fuck it...

You want to know the worst part of having twin infants? Hint: It's not It being overly busy. Yeah, that's rough, and there are times I don't think I will ever be up to the task, but at least I'm busy.

It's the boredom that comes between bouts of manic activity. With one infant, a caregiver can usually find time for other activities. But I don't feel I can. Part of it's exhaustion, but that's not the real problem. The real problem is that I'm always on edge because I know one of them is going to need something at any minute. So I don't do anything that really engages my mind because I know I'll be interrupted. So, inbetween flurries of activities, I sit around bored and exhausted and watching TV, although not shows I have to think about.
People on the backside of trauma, combat veterans, etc. experience this too - hyper-vigilance. If you don't find a way to relax from it through mindfulness, etc. then I highly encourage you to see a counselor. The earlier you can address it, the easier it is to cope with it. ❤️

Even posting here is sometimes not possible. I stopped in the middle of this post because one was wet. I checked the other, and she's dry, but I'm guessing it's a matter of time. So here I'll sit, waiting to be called to duty... 🫤

Oh, and another thing. They can be little angels when their daddy is taking care of them, but the moment it's me again, they turn in to little bitches. it's pooping and crying and refusing to eat and not going to sleep... last night I ran out to the store when Hubby got home because I needed to get out of the house. They slept the whole time I was gone, but woke up screaming (well, one did, which woke up the other) five minutes after I was home. Hubby took care of them, but still... he got over an hour to relax after he got home from work because the both actually slept at the same time. I almost never get anywhere close to that long, because most of the time they don't want to sleep at the same time. 🤬🤬🤬
❤️❤️ Hang in there!

To finish out my pity party, it's my birthday tomorrow, and I'm going to be fucking 37. Can I even claim mid-30s anymore? Fuck.
At least you're not in your 40s! Happy birthday!!

All I want is to be left alone tomorrow, but I know that's not possible. Hubby is taking the day off, so I should be able to find some time to relax, but what I really want is to be by myself someplace quiet... and snowy, but it barely even feels like fall...

FUCK! The other one's crying. I bet she's wet now. Fucking figures. 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

There's no better feeling than feeling a man cum in your mouth. :heart:
I wish there were more like you, JJ!

Thanks, y'all!

I'm in a much better mood today. Yesterday seemed endless... today's good. I took my son to school in the WRX then went for a mountain drive all by my lonesome. 😁😁😁
Sounds fun! I was on a work trip to a place I used to live and enjoyed a quick mountain road cruise while i had the chance before returning close to sea level.

I've been reading a wider variety of threads on here the last week or so. I've not been commenting, really -- just reading. I've confirmed many things I already knew (like folks on the political board mainly have no interest is actually discussing politics, or understanding the nuances thereof, but rather most seem to uncritically parrot the crap they read and hear). But I've noticed something I had not really considered in depth before. The folks who post in threads about "intelligence" and/or who self-identify as sapiosexuals are about the most pretentious assholes on here. Hell, they tend to be more pretentious than even many of the regulars in the Authors Hangout.
Further, the men drawn to such threads seem to be mainly white knight misogynists. I try to be a live and let live person and not condemn others for what gets them going, but too many of those fuckers give me creepster vibes. And I tried to be fair, as I have had bad experiences on here with men who claim to be sapiosexual and want intelligent conversation but then get quite pissy when the woman has her own thoughts and ideas that do not conform to what he thinks a smart woman should have... or uses words that only "low women" use... or such shit. But... creepster vibes. Lots and lots of creepster vibes.
I love everything about what you said. I literally LoL'd 🤣

It's like the kind of shit that ruins John Norman's Gor series, when his characters spend page after page waxing philosophical on how female slavery is the natural order and intelligent women make better slaves.

Now, this last may seem strange for me to say, as many here know I'm submissive and love playing slave to Hubby's master. But, back in the way back, when I was young an naive, I had that "men are superior and women exist for men's pleasure" shit drilled into my head by a predator, and I believed it for a long time. Hell, some of my issues with intimacy and not believing I am worthy of love are because part of me still believes that shit. But I have also learned, by becoming stronger, and knowing strong women, and loving a man who likes strong women, that it is all fucking bullshit.

So, I am willing to admit maybe I am projecting a little when I read what these supposedly gentlemen sapiosexuals write, but... they still give me creepster vibes.

Okay... rant over.

Another small rant...

I don't care for AI rendered pictures of women, men, or sex. It's too uncanny valley for me. Cartoons and art? Sure. I'm not too proud to admit I've gotten aroused by sexy cartoons and erotic art. But that's at least partly because I try to imagine what the artist was thinking and why he/she/they made the art. AI generated art? Nah... no thanks. There is no there there for me.

Plus, generative AI is not really AI in the broad sense of general intelligence. It cannot make value judgements or know whether what is generated is really appropriate to the prompt. Our tendency to confirmation bias, combined with being unduly impressed by (usually) precise grammar, makes us think the response generative AI provides is appropriate, and we overlook the small infelicities as long as they are not obvious hallucinations by the generative AI. But what if they are all hallucinations, and some just conform close enough to expectations that we give the algorithm the benefit of the doubt?

Anyway, not a fan of erotic AI art... 🙄
AI art, erotic or not, is terrible. When you start looking at the details, it's all fucked up.
Yeah, except... Meh.

Plus, the models are rife with biases. About a year ago, I tried some generative AI rendering apps to to try to create an AI rendered likeness of me I could show when people wanted to know more what I look like. I didn't want to use a real pic, as I didn't want them being part of it's source material, so I kept trying to find the right parameters to generate something that looks similar to me. Well, let's just say more than one app balked at parameters including short, skinny, small breasts, etc. as asking for prohibited content. Put in big breasts? No problem. Short, skinny, big-eyed, waifs with huge tits are generated at will. But change to small breasts? Pedo warnings. Seriously. So, to at least three generative AI apps, my body parameters are associated with age restrictions. 🙄🙄🙄
And you're worried about being 37.... 🤣
 
To get anyone who wants to know up to speed, my Hubby and I just expanded the parameters of our marriage to include me engaging in my polyamory with other men. A few years back, we had agreed I would limit it to women. But he's realized over time, through our conversations and his research into polyamory (which he undertook on his own), that the existing limitation is at best artificial and at most sexist and retrogressive (his words). So, new adventures await...

I should note that Hubby is not at all polyamorous. We've had three FFM threesomes because I wanted them, but he would default to not doing it if I didn't want to. He did really like the one we had over the weekend; he and our third, Misty, hit it off well. And I liked watching them. I have a bit of a thing about watching Hubby tuck another woman... 😈

Hubby, on the other hand, is not interested in watching me or even hearing about what I do. It was that way when I first had a girlfriend too. So, this is not a Hot Wife deal. This is him understanding that my fulfillment is at odds with traditional monogamy. And yes, I am very lucky to have him! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
Live life to the fullest!
 
I've been reading a wider variety of threads on here the last week or so. I've not been commenting, really -- just reading. I've confirmed many things I already knew (like folks on the political board mainly have no interest is actually discussing politics, or understanding the nuances thereof, but rather most seem to uncritically parrot the crap they read and hear). But I've noticed something I had not really considered in depth before. The folks who post in threads about "intelligence" and/or who self-identify as sapiosexuals are about the most pretentious assholes on here. Hell, they tend to be more pretentious than even many of the regulars in the Authors Hangout.

Further, the men drawn to such threads seem to be mainly white knight misogynists. I try to be a live and let live person and not condemn others for what gets them going, but too many of those fuckers give me creepster vibes. And I tried to be fair, as I have had bad experiences on here with men who claim to be sapiosexual and want intelligent conversation but then get quite pissy when the woman has her own thoughts and ideas that do not conform to what he thinks a smart woman should have... or uses words that only "low women" use... or such shit. But... creepster vibes. Lots and lots of creepster vibes. It's like the kind of shit that ruins John Norman's Gor series, when his characters spend page after page waxing philosophical on how female slavery is the natural order and intelligent women make better slaves.

Now, this last may seem strange for me to say, as many here know I'm submissive and love playing slave to Hubby's master. But, back in the way back, when I was young an naive, I had that "men are superior and women exist for men's pleasure" shit drilled into my head by a predator, and I believed it for a long time. Hell, some of my issues with intimacy and not believing I am worthy of love are because part of me still believes that shit. But I have also learned, by becoming stronger, and knowing strong women, and loving a man who likes strong women, that it is all fucking bullshit.

So, I am willing to admit maybe I am projecting a little when I read what these supposedly gentlemen sapiosexuals write, but... they still give me creepster vibes.

Okay... rant over.
I haven't been to the politics thread. Sounds like I'm not missing out at all. I'm a little confused about the sapiosexual men. Sounds like they want a woman to stroke their egos re: their intellect.
 
Yeah, except... Meh.

Plus, the models are rife with biases. About a year ago, I tried some generative AI rendering apps to to try to create an AI rendered likeness of me I could show when people wanted to know more what I look like. I didn't want to use a real pic, as I didn't want them being part of it's source material, so I kept trying to find the right parameters to generate something that looks similar to me. Well, let's just say more than one app balked at parameters including short, skinny, small breasts, etc. as asking for prohibited content. Put in big breasts? No problem. Short, skinny, big-eyed, waifs with huge tits are generated at will. But change to small breasts? Pedo warnings. Seriously. So, to at least three generative AI apps, my body parameters are associated with age restrictions. 🙄🙄🙄
I have an AI generated image for the same reason and every time I have to say “this is close except for the bustline” because the AI would not create b cup breasts. It just couldn’t do it.

 
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I haven't been to the politics thread. Sounds like I'm not missing out at all. I'm a little confused about the sapiosexual men. Sounds like they want a woman to stroke their egos re: their intellect.
That’s pretty much it. They know they are right because they are smart and they know they are smart because they are right. If you don’t agree you can’t really be either. Plus the joy of being as smart as they are is explaining to women what they should be doing reading watching thinking to be as smart as them.

It’s bewildering in its blinkered arrogance.
 
I have an AI generated image for the same reason and every time I have to say “this is close except for the bustline” because the AI would not create b cup breasts. It just couldn’t do it.

No, it will not, at least not in my experience.

I was able to generate some bikini ones that were not too awful, but I was going for lingerie/topless type pics, and that's where they got all squirrelly with my input parameters. I finally just gave up. But I like yours (incorrect bustline not withstanding), so maybe I'll give it a go again sometimes. Plus, if I go with current body parameters, I might not have the same problems... 🤪
 
It's nice to get so much of your wonderful wit and insights. Thank you for sharing.

I have gone into the politics threads because I really enjoy politics but I always end up leaving quickly because it is a lot of what you say (and I find myself getting caught up in that on occasion and don't enjoy that either).

Don't know much about sapio stuff or the AI stuff but I've found around here a lot of folks like to say they have certain interests and throw around names and titles and whatever but it really just means they want exactly what they want and tend to lash out if you don't fit exactly those desires.

And AI is weird but I've never tried to make pics or get into that, but you have made me more curious about it now.
 
No, it will not, at least not in my experience.

I was able to generate some bikini ones that were not too awful, but I was going for lingerie/topless type pics, and that's where they got all squirrelly with my input parameters. I finally just gave up. But I like yours (incorrect bustline not withstanding), so maybe I'll give it a go again sometimes. Plus, if I go with current body parameters, I might not have the same problems... 🤪
Maybe put a bab on each hip and that will help. 🤣
 
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