Ode to my Awesome

[YourCaptor]

Darn.
There goes my idea for a cute condom carry case and flavored lube ...

Crazy Japanese

keep it simple, bro... a single rose...

Flowers wilt, I want something permanent. It would be easy, only she does not wear much jewelery.

 

[ownedsubgal]

Crazy Japanese



Flowers wilt, I want something permanent. It would be easy, only she does not wear much jewelery.

what about a hand-written letter (on some nice, old-fashioned thick paper), expressing your feelings to her? something she could read to her great-grandkids.

 

[graceanne]

Crazy Japanese



Flowers wilt, I want something permanent. It would be easy, only she does not wear much jewelery.

How about a potted plant? That's what K gets me, and I prefer it, cause it'll live longer. I object to dying stuff in my house and that's what a cut flower is, a dying plant.

 

[YourCaptor]

what about a hand-written letter (on some nice, old-fashioned thick paper), expressing your feelings to her? something she could read to her great-grandkids.

That's a nice idea, but I think better suited for a later date. And I'm not sure that letter would be material for great grandkids.

How about a potted plant? That's what K gets me, and I prefer it, cause it'll live longer. I object to dying stuff in my house and that's what a cut flower is, a dying plant.

It's suppose to be more of a symbol. A plant is too much of its own thing.


So I had a chance to take explicit control over her for a while. What I found is she wants to be a champ and will follow instruction to the letter to do so. There was no questioning, except for clarifying instruction.

She did make a gesture of frustration, not at me but at the difficulty of the task, and then did it anyway. It's one of the things I love about her.

 

[ownedsubgal]

That's a nice idea, but I think better suited for a later date. And I'm not sure that letter would be material for great grandkids.

hey, they gotta learn about the birds and the bees sometime. *shrug*

and my bad, i really have no concept of dating at all, having never done it, or what emotional dynamic differentiates a first date from a second or tenth. either you're a committed couple or you're not, the in between stuff is a mystery to me.

so YC are you going to tell us what the task was? *nosey*

 

[graceanne]

so YC are you going to tell us what the task was? *nosey*

Yeah! What she said! *nosey, too*

 

[YourCaptor]

hey, they gotta learn about the birds and the bees sometime. *shrug*

and my bad, i really have no concept of dating at all, having never done it, or what emotional dynamic differentiates a first date from a second or tenth. either you're a committed couple or you're not, the in between stuff is a mystery to me.

so YC are you going to tell us what the task was? *nosey*

It's a very personal matter, a relationship that is, and most people tend to get upset when you very quickly change around such personal things, feels like a loss of control I suppose. Though with love that's part of it.

Theirs also that element of caution, if you invest a lot right away its hard to back out later if you realize its not right, so slowly is how it goes.

Yeah! What she said! *nosey, too*

I talked her into going climbing, that's how we met in the first place a long time ago, when she got away. I strapped her in and sent her up, she fell, I told her she should start over, and she did, which people usually don't do cause its hard and tiring. So then not only was her life literally in my hands, but she was doing all the demanding things I said to do. Needless to say I was having a ball, and really pushed her. And guess what, she did it all and made it through. She may be cute but shes tough as nails. I was so proud of her.

 

[caela]

For the gift, get her something she like not something you necessarily think is appropriate. Is she a reader? Get her a book you've heard her mention wanting. Is she trying to learn a new skill? Pick her up something related to that particular skill or hobby. If she has some sort of collection pick her up a new one to go with it.

I can't speak for any other girl but I'm always more touched by a simply gift that shows a guy has actually been listening than stock gifts like flowers and jewelry.

 

[rida]

For the gift, get her something she like not something you necessarily think is appropriate. Is she a reader? Get her a book you've heard her mention wanting. Is she trying to learn a new skill? Pick her up something related to that particular skill or hobby. If she has some sort of collection pick her up a new one to go with it.

I can't speak for any other girl but I'm always more touched by a simply gift that shows a guy has actually been listening than stock gifts like flowers and jewelry.

Yes! Totally on mark there. A sign that he has been paying attention to what I said is better than any other gift, not matter how precious or big.

 

[unknooown]

Get her an engraved carabiner

My older brother's best friend met his wife rock climbing and that was his first gift to her

 

[YourCaptor]

Hey thanks you, sparked my mind. Just what I needed, I think I have a direction now.

Definitely something related to her interests. Maybe something that can boost her ambition a little too, shes taken a few hits their lately.

But things are going well. Had an up and down, rumors ... I hope. However over all things are getting more favorable for me. Ill be seeing her a lot more now, so exposure work your magic.

Monday I'll dazzle her good. She says she loves travel, so I'm gonna show her some of my connection with the cultural strongholds out here.

Whats more exotic, Vietnam or Jamaica?

 

[YourCaptor]

Well things are now a bit more complicated.

Looks like a love triangle is forming... but then theirs always one isn't their.

3rd wheel dealings Makes you feel selfish.

 

[rida]

Well things are now a bit more complicated.

Looks like a love triangle is forming... but then theirs always one isn't their.

3rd wheel dealings Makes you feel selfish.

No, no ... look at it as a chance for a 3some! LOL

Score one girl and get one free
























You know I'm teasing you, right?

 

[caela]

No, no ... look at it as a chance for a 3some! LOL

Score one girl and get one free

You know I'm teasing you, right?

Lmao! That should have had a spew alert on it! Nearly snorted my milk through my nose!

And you have to be careful with that threesome idea...he might not be scoring an extra girl free...she might be scoring an extra guy!

 

[YourCaptor]

So things are working out great.

She likes me, she wants a relationship with me, shes awesome.

It would all be positive news, but, yes their is a but.

I'm sick, my mind is extra slow. I was with her the other day and didn't realize I was getting sick, I just thought I was nervous or something. That's what nervous feels like right, like getting sick?

Well I ended up boring her a bit, and, I fucked up the whole "I'm cold", (hint hint I want your jacket) thing. Fantastic right. Oh well, that bothers me, but something had to go bad right.

I just need to feel better by Thursday, or at least by Friday night. If I have my energy back for her to see, one of those nights will be the night the relationship status will be official stamp and notarized.

Then I just hope the weather is nice cause I want to take her outdoors for a date.

Oh and by the way, shes a total pervert yet so innocent. That is one hell of a combination. That's a theme with her, shes only 19, totally innocent to the world it seems, yet very smart and very mature.

 

[rida]

So things are working out great.

She likes me, she wants a relationship with me, shes awesome.

It would all be positive news, but, yes their is a but.

I'm sick, my mind is extra slow. I was with her the other day and didn't realize I was getting sick, I just thought I was nervous or something. That's what nervous feels like right, like getting sick?

Well I ended up boring her a bit, and, I fucked up the whole "I'm cold", (hint hint I want your jacket) thing. Fantastic right. Oh well, that bothers me, but something had to go bad right.

I just need to feel better by Thursday, or at least by Friday night. If I have my energy back for her to see, one of those nights will be the night the relationship status will be official stamp and notarized.

Then I just hope the weather is nice cause I want to take her outdoors for a date.

Oh and by the way, shes a total pervert yet so innocent. That is one hell of a combination. That's a theme with her, shes only 19, totally innocent to the world it seems, yet very smart and very mature.

YATTA!

And so sorry to hear you are getting sick!

Hope you get better soon or ... you can always get her to play nurse

 

[YourCaptor]

Hey guys

I’ve been living a lot of highs and lows lately.

I told the girl that I want her. She told me that she wants to be free.

I drilled her on that, it appears to be true. She’s a selfish girl, not wanting to commit to a relationship, and I’m an egomaniac, thinking I will be the exception to her rule.

Since that day she has shyed away from my touch, which is torture. I thought I could make the jump, I thought she would meet me halfway. Instead she took a step back, and now is watching me struggle as I try to get back on my feet. At least she didn’t walk away, she has interest, but I think she is scared of me.

What do I do now, get back up again, dust it off.

At least I am right in front of her now, everything out in plain sight.

I can now see her more closely too, and I see a little girl in tears at her failed attempts to be perfect.

I think I need to teach her that life is not order, life is murder, that strength is not rigidity but flexibility, and that perfection is an illusion, perfection is just the average of the norm, flaws are what grab our attention, flaws are what we treasure.

 

[YourCaptor]

Ahem, I'm fishing for some support here.

Can I get a, "keep at it, you'll get her."

 

[celticsunspiral]

Hey guys

I told the girl that I want her.

I think if you want something you should be prepared to pursue it! Go for it YC!

 

[Betticus]

So I held my neuroscience lecture. It was a huge success. Afterwards all these students came up to me, thanking me, telling me it really helped them make sense of it all. This chick even said it woke her up, which I think is a great complement, considering the material. I tried to make it engaging. I may have gone a bit fast, but it was good.

Soon I’ll have my degree/paper that says you got to pay me more than jack. I’ll take a step back at that point, save a little money and go travel.

I’ve also got a relationship blossoming in its infancy with this amazing girl. Easily one of the most beautiful and interesting I have ever met. It’s a very exciting time, all those nervous first flutters, amping up every little contact, every little smile. Not that her smile needs it, she definitely has the most captivating smile I’ve ever seen anywhere. That includes magazines by the way.

If could go travel, and take this girl with me, I can’t imagine anything better.

I also climbed a 5.10d today, with one mean crux at the top. I got like a 15 minutes epinephrine shot out of that. I’m now past intermediate.

So, you may all bask in my glory. Sacrificial virgins are always accepted.

Stop you silly fool..... you had me at "neuroscience"!!! I've been voraciously reading up on every bit of info I can glean in the field... it's fascinating stuff.

 

[Betticus]

Hey guys

I’ve been living a lot of highs and lows lately.

I told the girl that I want her. She told me that she wants to be free.

I drilled her on that, it appears to be true. She’s a selfish girl, not wanting to commit to a relationship, and I’m an egomaniac, thinking I will be the exception to her rule.

Since that day she has shyed away from my touch, which is torture. I thought I could make the jump, I thought she would meet me halfway. Instead she took a step back, and now is watching me struggle as I try to get back on my feet. At least she didn’t walk away, she has interest, but I think she is scared of me.

What do I do now, get back up again, dust it off.

At least I am right in front of her now, everything out in plain sight.

I can now see her more closely too, and I see a little girl in tears at her failed attempts to be perfect.

I think I need to teach her that life is not order, life is murder, that strength is not rigidity but flexibility, and that perfection is an illusion, perfection is just the average of the norm, flaws are what grab our attention, flaws are what we treasure.

I don't know if it applies but recently at my latest damned near death episode a few weeks ago as I lay in bed, fevered, weak from blood loss and on the edge I had a bit of an epiphany.. I'm calling it my dom epiphany and it's sorted out all kinds of issues for me.

In story form: Way back when I was young, from early youth I had this outlook on life that I didn't even realize but it was one of living life just for me.. my only adversary was myself and I took much joy in testing and pushing my own limits both physical and mental. Straight A student, athletic from the moment I could run and started with weight training when I wasn't even in kindergarten.. I didn't realize it but this personality type of mine at once repelled certain people but also really attracted others. I somehow became mired after getting married and there was a chronically reinforced sense of duty in providing the proper lifestyle, career pursuit, other factors.. What it led to was that I lost something intrinsically important to my own well being and I shifted from living life for myself, for my own values and challenging myself to one of living life for others, the wife, the career, the responsibilities and I didn't even notice the change.. all I knew was that I had a deep unhappiness that's lasted for years and until a few weeks ago I didn't realize it. Once I saw what happened my attitude shifted and I've been calm and much happier.

 

[graceanne]

Ahem, I'm fishing for some support here.

Can I get a, "keep at it, you'll get her."

Keep at it. You'll get her.

No, seriously. That's a bummer, just be patient, and hopefully things will improve, and they might even be better because you were so patient.

 

[YourCaptor]

Thanks guys. And you know, even if you say my words back to me I don't care, to me its all the same.

I don't know if it applies but recently at my latest damned near death episode a few weeks ago as I lay in bed, fevered, weak from blood loss and on the edge I had a bit of an epiphany.. I'm calling it my dom epiphany and it's sorted out all kinds of issues for me.

In story form: Way back when I was young, from early youth I had this outlook on life that I didn't even realize but it was one of living life just for me.. my only adversary was myself and I took much joy in testing and pushing my own limits both physical and mental. Straight A student, athletic from the moment I could run and started with weight training when I wasn't even in kindergarten.. I didn't realize it but this personality type of mine at once repelled certain people but also really attracted others. I somehow became mired after getting married and there was a chronically reinforced sense of duty in providing the proper lifestyle, career pursuit, other factors.. What it led to was that I lost something intrinsically important to my own well being and I shifted from living life for myself, for my own values and challenging myself to one of living life for others, the wife, the career, the responsibilities and I didn't even notice the change.. all I knew was that I had a deep unhappiness that's lasted for years and until a few weeks ago I didn't realize it. Once I saw what happened my attitude shifted and I've been calm and much happier.

Hmm, I know I can never do that, change my values. Maybe that is what she’s afraid of though.

I really don’t care about job security, I suppose I’m just not scared enough. I know that no matter what, at minimum I’ll always have a roof and food. That’s all I need until I get back up again. I also don’t care at all for the American way, I just want to get out of here.

I generally reject commitment in the traditional way more then she does I think, but then that’s not her problem, her problem is she’s afraid of it over all.

Me and her need to have another long talk, this one about relationship expectations.

You know Bet you would love this one. Definitely your type. A miniature sweet heart with big yellow eyes and totally transparent expressions. The other night she was rolled up in blankets peaking out and wow, I never thought something could be so beautiful, so cute.

Maybe, someday I'll share my find you all.

and if you have any questions on neuroscience let me know.

 

[Betticus]

Thanks guys. And you know, even if you say my words back to me I don't care, to me its all the same.



Hmm, I know I can never do that, change my values. Maybe that is what she’s afraid of though.

I really don’t care about job security, I suppose I’m just not scared enough. I know that no matter what, at minimum I’ll always have a roof and food. That’s all I need until I get back up again. I also don’t care at all for the American way, I just want to get out of here.

I generally reject commitment in the traditional way more then she does I think, but then that’s not her problem, her problem is she’s afraid of it over all.

Me and her need to have another long talk, this one about relationship expectations.

You know Bet you would love this one. Definitely your type. A miniature sweet heart with big yellow eyes and totally transparent expressions. The other night she was rolled up in blankets peaking out and wow, I never thought something could be so beautiful, so cute.

Maybe, someday I'll share my find you all.

and if you have any questions on neuroscience let me know.

I cut off short but I think you get it. I was just trying to say that what originally attracted her to you .. maybe she thinks that a relationship will change the dynamic somehow. Sometimes when you fall for someone they perceive that you need/want them when their comfort zone is in wanting to hold on to your strength, confidence, etc and they get skittish when feelings are returned. I'm thinking something along the lines of patterned behavioural responses due to past relationships.

I'd say relax on claiming her, do your thing and let her come to you.

And with neuroscience... I've been thinking about the effects on the brain of certain drugs, biofeedback and related stuff.. If it is possible to alter your brain chemistry temporarily with something like psilocybin or mdma to me it seems feasible that one can induce without chemical persuasion an effect similar or nearly so on your own. For example, a Domme buddy of mine is a dancer. Pro belly dancer and she also loves to dance to electronic music in clubs. When she's clubbing and dancing she goes into a sort of euphoric trance state similar to what others describe as an mdma experience but she refuses to touch the actual drugs, never tried them.

Just one of the things I've been pondering now and again.

 

[YourCaptor]

Oh man, that was a rough week. I survived though, really, I could have been dead quick.

And I only got to see my girl 10 minutes all week, sucks.

Omitting the story, and skipping to the happy ending, and this is the optimistic perspective. Sunday or Monday I'll be taking my girl for a cruise in my cute new car, and I'll be showing her all my awesome test grades, and the A on my second lecture this quarter.

So I'm still awesome, and a jerk.

Sleep is going to feel soooooo good.