Seeing that toy in comparison to myself.....
When she got that toy, she would only play with it alone. She herself was intimidated by it, (and her co-workers cock)....It was intimidating and unsettling in such a way though that it drove me wild
She said just like us guys have a stigma about our cocks being small... she felt that if she was able to take that toy, she would be considered "loose".
She didn't "want an audience" while she attempted to take it.