Reveal An Uncomfortable Truth About Yourself

I intellectually understand the freedom of posting here, but when I see people mocking/becoming irritated by the same behavior they demonstrated with me in the recent past? I let myself get hurt by their actions/behavior toward me all over again. It feels like I am forced to "just take it" because I try not to behave the same way and go public as well. Makes me uncomfortable and stop caring about those litsters. My circle of acquaintances I am interested in keeping in my lit life keeps shrinking. I think it's a shame.
 
I try too hard to make sure everyone is ok, and at my own emotional expense.
 
I have crappy relationships with my siblings that has taken a long time in counselling to come to terms with. I hate when people who don't know what it feels like to be part of a toxic family try to insist that blood is thicker than water.

I love Christmas with my own family, but am relieved it's over so that I can go back to ignoring the pressure of what a wider family is supposed to be.
 
In the past, I spent a lot of time seeing what I wanted to see, and believing what I wanted to be true. Subconsciously, of course, but still.

These last few years I've been intentional about wanting to see the truth, however painful it might be. It's been a rough ride at times, but the payoff has been unquestionably worth it.

I can't help but wonder what I'm not seeing now, that'll be plain as day when I look back five years hence, and that thought motivates me to be as brutally honest with myself as I can be, and to accept as much responsibility for my life as I'm capable of.
 
I am open and friendly to a point. I know that I have a line (due to previous life experience) for self-preservation and I know that at times makes me keep others at a distance. It has been proven out though even in the last year that there are good reasons to be protective of yourself, I just sometimes really wish I could feel comfortable being a free and open as some people here are or appear to be.
 
I am open and friendly to a point. I know that I have a line (due to previous life experience) for self-preservation and I know that at times makes me keep others at a distance. It has been proven out though even in the last year that there are good reasons to be protective of yourself, I just sometimes really wish I could feel comfortable being a free and open as some people here are or appear to be.
This. So much this.
 
I am open and friendly to a point. I know that I have a line (due to previous life experience) for self-preservation and I know that at times makes me keep others at a distance. It has been proven out though even in the last year that there are good reasons to be protective of yourself, I just sometimes really wish I could feel comfortable being a free and open as some people here are or appear to be.
I am sorry you regret having to be guarded. But that's about Lit, not you. It's not your fault that Lit isn't always a safe and healthy place to be, and that there are unpleasant and untrustworthy people here as well as good folks too.

I am sure the free and open people will keep having a wonderful time right up until they get doxxed or catfished or have their private pics and videos dumped on Pornhub.

If someone wants your trust (or mine for that matter), they need to earn the right to it.
 
I'm a secret snacker. I rarely eat snacks in front of anyone else unless it's a 'must' (ie, travelling). I clearly have an unhealthy relationship with food and weight/body image.
 
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