The Confessional

[Ausus_girl13]

ICT was interesting. PD glad to hear you aren't leaving. we are short enough on decent male writers on here as it is.

Rayne and PD, to be sure I hear you both, and I can understand how you both feel, having felt something similar myself. You leave, readjust, take a breath and come back, if that's what you want. It's worked a few times for me in the past. And you know what? You're writers, write something that brilliantly explains how you feel, where your thoughts are, and post it. Not only will it be wonderful for the rest of us to read, but it will be... cathartic.

Second of all, give each other space, or try to. Find another niche for yourselves and you'll find in time that you've moved on and it doesn't quite hurt so much to acknowledge the other.

Finally, in no way is this me telling either of you to shut up. Sometimes, carrying something out on the public forums is exactly what needs to happen. If you need to do this, then do it. Try to keep it respectful is all I ask. And that goes for everyone.

ICT I am very tired. But couldn't help logging in before I pass out again, because I was looking for a message from her. *blush*

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

I confess that I have some seriously fucking awesome friends and I love them all.

 

[RP519]

I confess that I have some seriously fucking awesome friends and I love them all.

"Here's wishing you both f-cking awesome friends...and awesome f-cking friends. Hopefully you see the difference."

 

[Ausus_girl13]

I confess that I have some seriously fucking awesome friends and I love them all.

We just all want to "hit" that.
fine. Just me.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

"Here's wishing you both f-cking awesome friends...and awesome f-cking friends. Hopefully you see the difference."

We just all want to "hit" that.
fine. Just me.

I confess this was my first chuckle for the day *hugs you both and pinches both of you on the bum*

 

[RP519]

We just all want to "hit" that.
fine. Just me.

http://www.thinkgeek.com/images/products/zoom/id_hit_that.jpg​

"I confess, you can put me on that list too, Rayne darlin'."

 

[Ausus_girl13]

"Here's wishing you both f-cking awesome friends...and awesome f-cking friends. Hopefully you see the difference."

There's a difference?! *tilts head curiously* I will be thinking about this one for days RP

I confess this was my first chuckle for the day *hugs you both and pinches both of you on the bum*

Keep the gloves up trouble. Otherwise... *swats Rayne's bottom*

 

[RP519]

There's a difference?! *tilts head curiously* I will be thinking about this one for days RP



Keep the gloves up trouble. Otherwise... *swats Rayne's bottom*

"To keep you from having to puzzle over this one; The first is just a really awesome friend, the second is a friend who's really good at...um, providing benefits."

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

*smiles and gives you both another hug*

I confess I just did a really hard thing, Pd is now on my ignore list. He can not contact me on lit any more and I will not see his posts so you all should be spared from anything further.

He can send me IM or Email if he desires to discuss anything further, which is keeping it private as he wishes....but my heart just couldnt take any more I come here to escape and to have fun and enjoy myself and as some of you know I need that so badly right now and I dont need him affecting that so he is on ignore.

It truly was hard to do and not something I did lightly and it took a lot of reasoning with me from friends to be able to just shut that door.

I confess it wasn't without tears...........

 

[Ausus_girl13]

"To keep you from having to puzzle over this one; The first is just a really awesome friend, the second is a friend who's really good at...um, providing benefits."

Hehe. Providing benefits you say? Yeah.. then like Rayne I have awesome fucking friends.
I was just being cheeky RP.. it's my forté.

 

[RP519]

Hehe. Providing benefits you say? Yeah.. then like Rayne I have awesome fucking friends.
I was just being cheeky RP.. it's my forté.

"Ahh, sorry. It's relatively last for my brain to catch cheekiness."

 

[Ausus_girl13]

*smiles and gives you both another hug*

I confess I just did a really hard thing, Pd is now on my ignore list. He can not contact me on lit any more and I will not see his posts so you all should be spared from anything further.

He can send me IM or Email if he desires to discuss anything further, which is keeping it private as he wishes....but my heart just couldnt take any more I come here to escape and to have fun and enjoy myself and as some of you know I need that so badly right now and I dont need him affecting that so he is on ignore.

It truly was hard to do and not something I did lightly and it took a lot of reasoning with me from friends to be able to just shut that door.

I confess it wasn't without tears...........

It was never gonna be easy sugar. I've been there too. Doesn't mean it's forever, just means that this is right now.

Hugs Rayne tight and sneaks in a grope Hey! I couldn't help it. I'll be good.

Try again?

Hugs her again and swats her bottom Seriously! It's like my hands have a mind of their own.

"Ahh, sorry. It's relatively last for my brain to catch cheekiness."

No, don't be sorry. I'm a brat, so really. It's par for the course.

And you two have a marvelous night, zom is staring daggers at me, so it's time for me to go to bed.

Kisses Rayne, sneaks yet another grope and waves to RP Night!

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

It was never gonna be easy sugar. I've been there too. Doesn't mean it's forever, just means that this is right now.

Hugs Rayne tight and sneaks in a grope Hey! I couldn't help it. I'll be good.

Try again?

Hugs her again and swats her bottom Seriously! It's like my hands have a mind of their own.



No, don't be sorry. I'm a brat, so really. It's par for the course.

And you two have a marvelous night, zom is staring daggers at me, so it's time for me to go to bed.

Kisses Rayne, sneaks yet another grope and waves to RP Night!

*chuckles* good night trouble *swats her ass as she leaves*

 

[monique_minx]

I confess I said my mantra over and over again while I spoke to him, I told him intimate details of my new relationship and emailed him excerpts of my Literotica Diary before our conversation was abruptly cut short. I'm not done explaining things by far but it's a start.

*Repeats 'you have no power over me' again and again, smiling as I stare hard upon my Sir's face as large as life on my desktop. I'll be damned before I disobey, therein lies my strength. 'You have no power over me Callum'*

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

I confess I said my mantra over and over again while I spoke to him, I told him intimate details of my new relationship and emailed him excerpts of my Literotica Diary before our conversation was abruptly cut short. I'm not done explaining things by far but it's a start.

*Repeats 'you have no power over me' again and again, smiling as I stare hard upon my Sir's face as large as life on my desktop. I'll be damned before I disobey, therein lies my strength. 'You have no power over me Callum'*

its no laughing matter I know Minxy but you just made me think of my favorite movie

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_PUzhUuadrXE/STgT0vi8TZI/AAAAAAAAADc/ZBAyhmxEG_M/s320/cardball.jpg

http://www.astrolog.org/labyrnth/movie/dvd.gif

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

not offended Rayne..your passion is a big part of what makes you, "you"

I am truly sorry it went this way....you have heard me say it before..

we're all broken here in some way..

I went past the line between RL an online before I ever arrived on LIT..to think that this isn't in some way real is to fool your self in to believing that your mind is not the most powerful thing on this planet..I find my self wondering all the time why I can't have the closeness in "RL" with friends that I do her on LIT with people I have never met in person..the answer is always because we are much more willing to share our thoughts and feelings here..and on LIT we also willing and with out shame share our deep dark fantasies..the ones we don't even tell those closest to us in "RL"..I belive it forms a intimate bond and some ways we're more vulnerable to getting hurt..and yet it is easier to hurt someone because we tell ourselves at the same time..it's only "roll play".

forgive your self then find away to forgive PD..I know neither of you meant to hurt the other...

This

You hit the proverbial nail on the head with a tactical nuke, Erza. I have heard the statement "This isn't real" "It is just a game" "It is just play" and other variants over and over again. I have never believed that to be true and never will.

Even if not everyone here has found someone whom they connect with in a real way that does not mean the possibility does not exist; it also does not mean the person on the other end does not feel entirely different. Having had some extensive leadership experience in various online communities I have seen both the beautiful, and the terrible take place over 'text'. To feel is to be human and human emotions are volatile, intense, and unpredictable.

The biggest crime most people commit on the internet is using the mask of a anonymity to be callous. There is always someone on the other end of the screen, and while there may not be personal consequences to the individual making the statement sometimes it can ripple through people you would have never expected.

In the past I have been told that I try too hard to be diplomatic, that it seems like I am deceitful because I try very hard to moderate what I say to others because I understand the responsibility my words carry with them even if they are on a two dimensional medium. We all as a community have this responsibility to one another, don't shirk it.

Most if not all of us are artists, filled with passion and intensity, how else could some of the wonderful stories about the most intimate details of our hearts and minds come to be? I am not ashamed to admit I have cried more than once over a story I have been involved in.

To be able to create a truly engaging story, especially one with sexual intimacy involved you have to be able to tap into the emotional part of who you are, even if you do not understand what you are doing. So to say that this is all not real and just a game is a lie, and unfortunately you are only deceiving yourself.

-Deep breath-

Ok, enough rambling about that.

Rayne, putting him on ignore is more than likely a good plan. I would have suggested it to you myself if I were around when this all exploded.

PD, don't know you, don't really care too but if you know Rayne as good as you say you do then you know the best thing for her right now is to just leave her be so both of you can cool down. When the redhead is on fire you don't want to be around, else you will just get burned.

I'm not gonna point fingers in this because I have one side of the story, and I have made my own mistakes, but I think it's time for some separation. Don't make me take off my belt!

 

[monique_minx]

its no laughing matter I know Minxy but you just made me think of my favorite movie

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_PUzhUuadrXE/STgT0vi8TZI/AAAAAAAAADc/ZBAyhmxEG_M/s320/cardball.jpg

http://www.astrolog.org/labyrnth/movie/dvd.gif

*Sheepish smile*

Actually that's where the line comes from. I once said it to Callum when we first got together and we were wrestling across the floor for who would top. Anyways, we were laughing and it was just plain silly fun at the time.

Once he got the upper hand, he pinned me down and I couldn't shove him off. Like I really couldn't and I'm no weak woman, his strength surprised the hell out of me, I felt my first stab of pure fear then. But it was still funny, we were still laughing and he had this hungry look in his eyes I don't think I'll ever forget.

So I said to him in jest, "You have no power over me!" I squealed and then I really bucked, trying to push him off, "None! Never, ever!"

He just got firm and gripped my wrists down, I never managed to get him off me and he smirked and said, "Nikki....don't defy me!"

So yeah...that's why the line...cause now I mean it for real. The Labyrinth is my all time favourite movie...

"Through dangers untold and hardships unnumbered. I have fought my way to the castle here beyond the Goblin city to take back the child that you have stolen. For my will is as strong as yours and my kingdom is as great...You have no power over me."

I can quote the entire script word for word

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

I confess I said my mantra over and over again while I spoke to him, I told him intimate details of my new relationship and emailed him excerpts of my Literotica Diary before our conversation was abruptly cut short. I'm not done explaining things by far but it's a start.

*Repeats 'you have no power over me' again and again, smiling as I stare hard upon my Sir's face as large as life on my desktop. I'll be damned before I disobey, therein lies my strength. 'You have no power over me Callum'*

-Smiles-

Glad to hear it hon. I'm proud of ya. I always knew you were a smart cookie. Good job cum dumpster.

 

[monique_minx]

Don't make me take off my belt!

Ermmm...hope you know that Leo is totally going to sue you for copyright

*Giggles and returns to my hiding place cause Leo's still gonna kill me no matter what I say to save my own ass right now, he's been scarily lenient after too many harsh scenes lately. I think he's fucking with me*

 

[monique_minx]

-Smiles-

Glad to hear it hon. I'm proud of ya. I always knew you were a smart cookie. Good job cum dumpster.

*Blows him a kiss and smiles*

Thanks slag fucker, I still have to explain everything else to him but it's a start...

*Breathes deeply*

I'm not scared anymore, used your song of the day thread to describe that feeling already

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

*Blows him a kiss and smiles*

Thanks slag fucker, I still have to explain everything else to him but it's a start...

*Breathes deeply*

I'm not scared anymore, used your song of the day thread to describe that feeling already

Hey, every step forward is a victory. Besides knowing what I do about you anything involving you denying Callum is a BIG victory, so it notes encouragement.

-Smiles-

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

*Sheepish smile*

Actually that's where the line comes from. I once said it to Callum when we first got together and we were wrestling across the floor for who would top. Anyways, we were laughing and it was just plain silly fun at the time.

Once he got the upper hand, he pinned me down and I couldn't shove him off. Like I really couldn't and I'm no weak woman, his strength surprised the hell out of me, I felt my first stab of pure fear then. But it was still funny, we were still laughing and he had this hungry look in his eyes I don't think I'll ever forget.

So I said to him in jest, "You have no power over me!" I squealed and then I really bucked, trying to push him off, "None! Never, ever!"

He just got firm and gripped my wrists down, I never managed to get him off me and he smirked and said, "Nikki....don't defy me!"

So yeah...that's why the line...cause now I mean it for real. The Labyrinth is my all time favourite movie...

"Through dangers untold and hardships unnumbered. I have fought my way to the castle here beyond the Goblin city to take back the child that you have stolen. For my will is as strong as yours and my kingdom is as great...You have no power over me."

I can quote the entire script word for word

its one of my favs to along with The Princes Bride, Lady Hawk, Legend, Dark Crystal and Willow.

 

[monique_minx]

I confess I got a wake up call from my job network consultant today and I'm proud to be following through with what she told me.

My sister borrowed $75 from me, $50 of it four months ago, she actually borrowed $100 at the time and I paid for a work shirt for her which cost $30, I knocked the $30 off for free and told her just to pay me the $100 which she said she'd do in two weeks time after that; when she got paid next.

Three months later I got $50, I'm still waiting for the rest of it, I've loaned her more money for books for school and now she owes me $75. She got her tax back and paid a few days ago, totaling an amount well into the $400 mark. Now my sister hasn't got any bills of any kind. She owes my father $100 because he, like me, loaned her money to go clubbing on the proviso that she pay him back.

Neither of us have seen a cent of it. She now claims to have spent all her money. She went on a shopping trip, bought a new purse, clothes, got her hair done and because I pissed her off an hour or so ago, she then claimed she'd never give me the money because I was being such a bitch about it (I'm totally going to try that down at the bank with my next credit card bill!)

So now she wants to borrow my laptop for her assignments using the fact that, "Oh fine, I'll fail then!"

So basically if she fails, then it's my fault because I won't loan her my laptop. She's threatening the whole family with all kinds of things. So what did my job network consultant have to do with this? She told me that your family needs to start being responsible for themselves.

She's threatening to smash my laptop if I don't lend it to her, screaming that she's gonna fail. When did her education become my responsibility? When did I become a twenty year old mother?! Seriously, I could've had a fucking baby if I wanted one, it would've been a lot quieter and less problematic and annoying!

~ End Rant ~

 

[Nina327]

its no laughing matter I know Minxy but you just made me think of my favorite movie

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_PUzhUuadrXE/STgT0vi8TZI/AAAAAAAAADc/ZBAyhmxEG_M/s320/cardball.jpg

http://www.astrolog.org/labyrnth/movie/dvd.gif

oh.. insert insanly hysterical girly scream here...
between legend and labrynth... omfg..
at 8.. i was not watching bambi..
i was watching those two movies...
ICT... hehehehe.... i have drempt of wearing lillys black dress and jumping in oobliette with the helping hands and several of those orange dudes-taken apart just so...

ICT--- i can quote.. far to much of Labrynth for any sane person... and still listen to the soundtrack .... often.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

Tell your sister that her education does not revolve around a computer, that hands where invented first. As where public libraries and the computers and library at school that she no doubt has access to. If he retort is that she has to have it done by tomorrow, then TOO BAD SO SAD that is lesson number three for the day in responsibilities.

The first being if you have a debt pay and learn to manager your money - I see this as a valuable life lesson.

The second being time managementand to start your assignments when you get them do not leave it to the last minute.

The third being HISSY FITS GET YOU SQUAT and just prove your a little brat with growing up to do.

Stick to your guns minxy your job network consultant is absolutely correct, I also confess this is something I have learned the hard way you can not fix and help everyone even when you want to.

and hey fuck it if even God wont help those who won't help themselves then why the fuck should we. *SMILES*