The Confessional

[Dr_James]

and all she wants is you

God do I need you. My mind is a whirlwind and only you can calm it.

 

[Miss Sixxy]

God do I need you. My mind is a whirlwind and only you can calm it.

I really wish I was there with you, baby.

 

[EzraPound]

Hi, I'm Nina... and I'm a psychotic-twisted-sadistic-masochistic-homicidal-alpha-tornado-of-a-broken-bitchy-switch... and few know me so its all good.


thanks for the explanation.... glad your feeling a bit better.

* thinking..ohh my kind of girl!*

Hi Nina!

 

[Nina327]

haha....

Hi Ezra... how's it goin'?

 

[EzraPound]

haha....

Hi Ezra... how's it goin'?

* smiles* well I am at the end of my day, almost, tired but doing better than I have in a while. The RL issues are still firmly in place but my attitude has improved..*wondering if that was TMI?*

How are you tonight?... assuming it is "night" where you are..

 

[Dr_James]

I really wish I was there with you, baby.

I wish you were too. I truly do.

 

[Leopald]

haha....

Hi Ezra... how's it goin'?

Any last words, Ezra?

That lady will break the shit out of you... No offense, of course. I just know what she's capable of.

...Have fun!

 

[Trixabell]

Any last words, Ezra?

That lady will break the shit out of you... No offense, of course. I just know what she's capable of.

...Have fun!

Leo - you just gave him even more reason to get to know her!!

 

[Nina327]

* smiles* well I am at the end of my day, almost, tired but doing better than I have in a while. The RL issues are still firmly in place but my attitude has improved..*wondering if that was TMI?*

How are you tonight?... assuming it is "night" where you are..

shit if thats TMI... then i always say way to fuckin much... ... right now i'm in a better mood but RL is only in a state of suspended piss-me-the-fuck-off... it will return on the morrow...

How am I... kicking myself because i wouldn't pull my head out of my ass long enough to realise I was giving myself a headache.. till the damned thing turned into a migraine.. .. and yes.. damned near midnight here... sry.. was that TMI?

lol.......

 

[EzraPound]

shit if thats TMI... then i always say way to fuckin much... ... right now i'm in a better mood but RL is only in a state of suspended piss-me-the-fuck-off... it will return on the morrow...

How am I... kicking myself because i wouldn't pull my head out of my ass long enough to realise I was giving myself a headache.. till the damned thing turned into a migraine.. .. and yes.. damned near midnight here... sry.. was that TMI?

lol.......

nope not at all, I usually wake up with them,(migraines) then it's all day feeling like I am having an aneurysm...
I have had warnings about people before..*grins* but yours were positively advertisements..
I will be around from time to time if you ever feel .."frisky"...but I have an unfortunate tendency to be a bit of brat...

 

[Nina327]

Any last words, Ezra?

That lady will break the shit out of you... No offense, of course. I just know what she's capable of.

...Have fun!

Leo... your a shit... but you knew that already...

Leo - you just gave him even more reason to get to know her!!

no kidding!lol

nope not at all, I usually wake up with them,(migraines) then it's all day feeling like I am having an aneurysm...
I have had warnings about people before..*grins* but yours were positively advertisements..
I will be around from time to time if you ever feel .."frisky"...but I have an unfortunate tendency to be a bit of brat...

... lol.. if i wake up feeling good.. i dont believe i'm awake or in my body... so.. that aneurysm feelings pretty normal...

Oh.. I have seen your brat... a bit... in your interview for the whorehouse... I was soo hoping you would last a bit longer...

 

[monique_minx]

Oh.. I have seen your brat... a bit... in your interview for the whorehouse... I was soo hoping you would last a bit longer...

*Grins and steps in to take a bow*

Oh, I'm just that good....

*Winks at Ezra*

...Yeah, I'd hoped you'd last longer too, it would've been just so much fun to torture you further...

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

PM'd you thank you



Don't know you but understand your reaction...I'll explain in a second...



Thank you for your demanding concern *smiles* I'll explain in a sec...



Thanks for the assist babe...want this...sorted...I guess...



*Hugs back, soft smile*

Thank you Sixxy thang.

~ II ~​

Now I'll explain as best as I can. Today a very close friend of mine here on Lit got into an argument with me on IM and well it ended with him saying something that cut me up badly. I had a big melt down over it and felt very hurt. I got dragged into a mega conference by Aus, Leo and FM and had them take care of me....in their own ways.

I adore those three, they're special kids. I'm lucky to have such great support when I just can't handle it. Now we're trying to figure a way to resolve it once some info I wasn't privy to was brought to me. Don't get me wrong, I won't apologize for how I reacted because that's how fucking bad it was....but he means a lot to me as a friend as well...so I am rather torn up but I'm agreeing to speak to him in a few hours now that I'm a fair bit calmer....

I just really needed the release and I couldn't put it into words...I can't describe how much his thoughts hurt me...

But thank you all for your concern, I appreciate it. I'm sorry if I snapped at any of you or was short but I quite simply; wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone and I'm still really not. I feel pretty overwhelmed right now but I wanted to soothe all the concerns there. As for being done for now...I don't know but at that moment...I really did feel finished and fed up.

Minx

I know I was bossy babe but I was not going to let you do something stupid either, I reached out to several of your friend once I realized they where online too as I figured you would hopefully at least talk to them.

I also promise you it was only going to take one word for them before I was calling the cops and reporting concern of self harm so DO NOT DO THAT SHIT AGAIN.

I totally understand how things can cut you to the bone, you know what I have been through of late as well. So if you need an ear or to vent and scream send me a pm or im and I will listen.


I know this seems fucked up because of all we have been through, But I think we have both realized that something are just fucking more important then stupid grudges. We have started a clean slate and have gotten back to the point of getting along, I am now in a play scene with you and Sir Leo so you can consider this my form of after care...I don't just play with people and discard them.

Sorry Veroe

Ordinarily I don't, I've tried many times to kill myself but all attempts have been unsuccessful (obviously) and well...I guess my body is just stubborn like that. But I've had to deal with a lot of emotional crap IRL lately and the fact that he said something so cruel as to cut me to the bone...well that just really drove everything home for me.

I hadn't felt that hurt and destroyed in a long time and I needed a lot of reassurance before I felt okay enough to talk properly again. Even then...I almost didn't talk to my friends or my Sir...thankfully though...he popped up when I vanished and I couldn't ignore him, that's something I don't have in me.

So I am okay...I just need to deal with the mess that is my mind of late is all.

I am so glad you have failed......you are stronger then that and worth to much too to many people to do something so pathetic and gutless. If you need help you have the support you just have to use it.

"no one can make you inferior without your consent" so my sweet do not give it, use your stubborn streak to protect yourself if need be.

any way I hope it works out I am available on IM or PM if you need an ear and no one else is around. Your not alone.

 

[monique_minx]

I know I was bossy babe but I was not going to let you do something stupid either, I reached out to several of your friend once I realized they where online too as I figured you would hopefully at least talk to them.

I also promise you it was only going to take one word for them before I was calling the cops and reporting concern of self harm so DO NOT DO THAT SHIT AGAIN.

I totally understand how things can cut you to the bone, you know what I have been through of late as well. So if you need an ear or to vent and scream send me a pm or im and I will listen.


I know this seems fucked up because of all we have been through, But I think we have both realized that something are just fucking more important then stupid grudges. We have started a clean slate and have gotten back to the point of getting along, I am now in a play scene with you and Sir Leo so you can consider this my form of after care...I don't just play with people and discard them.



I am so glad you have failed......you are stronger then that and worth to much too to many people to do something so pathetic and gutless. If you need help you have the support you just have to use it.

"no one can make you inferior without your consent" so my sweet do not give it, use your stubborn streak to protect yourself if need be.

any way I hope it works out I am available on IM or PM if you need an ear and no one else is around. Your not alone.

Thanks hunny, I've just been completely battered emotionally lately and I keep sinking into bouts of depression that I'm trying really hard to fight.

Oh and for everyone that wishes to know, my friend and I have worked it out and we're okay again. There was a lot of miscommunication between us and SOME people don't like to share their damn feelings about shit >.>

*Scowls*

Anyways, one hell wreck later, I think I have too many male troubles honestly.

So I know I am stronger than this and everyone has just helped me get to my feet today. Lincoln called me, he's exhausted from work and thinks he's getting sick (why am I not surprised with all the travelling he does?) but he helped me too so I'm gonna roll out the red carpet for these people right here.

Leopald
Ausus
Fuckmeat
Alana
Vail
Cherry
Rayne
Veroe
Logan
Sixxy
Arcane

Thank you, all of you! Your concern touched me greatly, I felt truly loved by each of you and it was wonderful to know I wasn't alone through this. I also need to thank the man who caused all of this but he shall remain anonymous, I think I have too much love to risk someone going off to kill him *giggles*

No, I need to thank him for truly telling me how he really felt and putting in the effort for our friendship. It spoke volumes for me and for us about how much that relationship does mean to both of us. And I was plain astounded by the depth of the feelings that came to light, I had no idea of the effect I had on him in the slightest or the thought he'd put into me, nor the caring. Even when he was wrong, I still appreciated the effort and I'm appreciating the careful repair we're both putting into it right now.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

Your welcome chickie and I am glad it all worked out. *HUGS* I'm a hugger you just gotta deal with it sorry *smiles at her warmly and lets go*

 

[monique_minx]

Your welcome chickie and I am glad it all worked out. *HUGS* I'm a hugger you just gotta deal with it sorry *smiles at her warmly and lets go*

*Hugs her back, smiling*

Thanks, I'm really glad too.

 

[FuckFantasy]

I confess to fear. The fear of the unknown. The fear of things I once thought to be impossible.

I confess to resistance. The resistance of what my heart wants. The pushing away of what my body cries out for.

I confess to coldness. I confess that my sweetness, as much as it has flowed out of me in times of compassion and even simple discussion, has been slightly stifled, by this fear. Smothered, even, by self loathing. I have tried to numb myself, in an effort not to feel more than I have started to feel. I have tried to hold back.

I have failed.

I never fail. I always win. I am headstrong and prone to perfectionism. I see patterns in people. I panic, sometimes, when they begin to prove me right.

But for once, I am so thrilled to have failed. For once, I am so happy to be proven wrong by being so right.

My need is undeniable. It consumes me daily. My pillow is him. My fingers are him. They caress my cheek, my throat, the swell of breasts aching to be crushed against a chest I have not felt. They slip down the feminine expanse of stomach and toy with hungry, slick lips of a tight sex that cries out to be filled. By him.

The monster in his heart mirrors the creature inside my soul. The heady darkness of our shared desires consumes us, and this suffocation is the most intoxicating feeling on earth. It's so tantalizing, so delicious. I have tried and tried to fight it off. Just days ago I was afraid this wasn't what I wanted, that this couldn't be what I was meant to find.

Now I know, more than ever, that I'm ready to surrender. For once, I wave the white flag with a song in my heart and fire in my loins.

All I need is time.

Time. With each day that passes, I miss what I have not yet tasted. I grow impatient, hungry, wanton, with need for something I've yet to find. I close my eyes at random - at home or in public - and imagine a myriad of twisted desires. Legs and arms coiled with one another, lips sucking frantically at tongue, bodies grinding to the tune of our own wild tempo, the beat of our wicked fucklust pounding in our ears. Silent to all others, but roaring inside both our minds as a shared thought, a singular desire. Eyes that burn into mine as he fills me for the first time, the first in an endless series of strokes and thrusts that turn my tight pussy into a private, personal hole for him to ruin.

And his voice. I can only imagine, with shuddering, thrilling gasps of anticipation, what it must sound like when he's at the peak of his desire. When he's buried to the hilt inside whatever lucky lover he's deemed worthy of whichever parts he'd care to share.

I am greedy. I don't want him in parts, I refuse to take him in segments. I deny his right to reveal only what he wants, when he wants, if he wants.

I want all of him. His bad, his ugly. I want his pain and his rage. I want his sickness - I want it to infect me, to course through my veins, to leave me just as livid and ruthless as he is. Only then can he take my loving kindness and make it his own. Only then can he take what's already inside of him, a beautiful bud of pure affection, and make it blossom. We have to unlock all the darkness before there can be light.

I want him to bury me with his need. I want him to tie me up to his dresser, ravish me in his shower, slam me against his front door, fling me onto his bed, stretch me across his table at breakfast. I want him to use me everywhere he dwells, so when I leave - perish the thought - the visions of how he took me will haunt him, and my echoing moans will make his prick stand straight. I want him to steal me away, and make me his, without question.

I want. I want. I need.

It makes my heart skip one beat, then two. It sends a tingle down my spine. It makes my stomach flip in knots. This thing that's latched onto me, wriggled its way into my brain. I can't resist much longer. I'm weak with desire. The only thing that can strengthen me again, is to find him, my every fantasy, and see if he is real.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

I confess to fear. The fear of the unknown. The fear of things I once thought to be impossible.

I confess to resistance. The resistance of what my heart wants. The pushing away of what my body cries out for.

I confess to coldness. I confess that my sweetness, as much as it has flowed out of me in times of compassion and even simple discussion, has been slightly stifled, by this fear. Smothered, even, by self loathing. I have tried to numb myself, in an effort not to feel more than I have started to feel. I have tried to hold back.

I have failed.

I never fail. I always win. I am headstrong and prone to perfectionism. I see patterns in people. I panic, sometimes, when they begin to prove me right.

But for once, I am so thrilled to have failed. For once, I am so happy to be proven wrong by being so right.

My need is undeniable. It consumes me daily. My pillow is him. My fingers are him. They caress my cheek, my throat, the swell of breasts aching to be crushed against a chest I have not felt. They slip down the feminine expanse of stomach and toy with hungry, slick lips of a tight sex that cries out to be filled. By him.

The monster in his heart mirrors the creature inside my soul. The heady darkness of our shared desires consumes us, and this suffocation is the most intoxicating feeling on earth. It's so tantalizing, so delicious. I have tried and tried to fight it off. Just days ago I was afraid this wasn't what I wanted, that this couldn't be what I was meant to find.

Now I know, more than ever, that I'm ready to surrender. For once, I wave the white flag with a song in my heart and fire in my loins.

All I need is time.

Time. With each day that passes, I miss what I have not yet tasted. I grow impatient, hungry, wanton, with need for something I've yet to find. I close my eyes at random - at home or in public - and imagine a myriad of twisted desires. Legs and arms coiled with one another, lips sucking frantically at tongue, bodies grinding to the tune of our own wild tempo, the beat of our wicked fucklust pounding in our ears. Silent to all others, but roaring inside both our minds as a shared thought, a singular desire. Eyes that burn into mine as he fills me for the first time, the first in an endless series of strokes and thrusts that turn my tight pussy into a private, personal hole for him to ruin.

And his voice. I can only imagine, with shuddering, thrilling gasps of anticipation, what it must sound like when he's at the peak of his desire. When he's buried to the hilt inside whatever lucky lover he's deemed worthy of whichever parts he'd care to share.

I am greedy. I don't want him in parts, I refuse to take him in segments. I deny his right to reveal only what he wants, when he wants, if he wants.

I want all of him. His bad, his ugly. I want his pain and his rage. I want his sickness - I want it to infect me, to course through my veins, to leave me just as livid and ruthless as he is. Only then can he take my loving kindness and make it his own. Only then can he take what's already inside of him, a beautiful bud of pure affection, and make it blossom. We have to unlock all the darkness before there can be light.

I want him to bury me with his need. I want him to tie me up to his dresser, ravish me in his shower, slam me against his front door, fling me onto his bed, stretch me across his table at breakfast. I want him to use me everywhere he dwells, so when I leave - perish the thought - the visions of how he took me will haunt him, and my echoing moans will make his prick stand straight. I want him to steal me away, and make me his, without question.

I want. I want. I need.

It makes my heart skip one beat, then two. It sends a tingle down my spine. It makes my stomach flip in knots. This thing that's latched onto me, wriggled its way into my brain. I can't resist much longer. I'm weak with desire. The only thing that can strengthen me again, is to find him, my every fantasy, and see if he is real.

I confess I want what she is having, that is just hot......no other word but HOT

 

[Alana_]

I confess I cried my heart out when my youngest started 'big boys' school this morning.

 

[Nina327]

*Grins and steps in to take a bow*

Oh, I'm just that good....

*Winks at Ezra*

...Yeah, I'd hoped you'd last longer too, it would've been just so much fun to torture you further...

I was glad to see he could handle a bit of crazy... just wonder how much more crazy he could take with built up intensity.....

.... maybe i'll find out someday.. if i'm ever 'frisky' for a brat or two...

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

ICT there are 2 women here that mean the world to me in many ways...ICT I want to seduce her, her oh YEAH and her...all at once, if I can. ICT I miss 2 very special men and I wish I could get snuggles from them. ICT I ache to write something in private that I will regret later....but Gods I want to...

I also confess that I am crazily wildly enthusiastically happy...must be the percocets...

I also confess that I wrote a pm and it made me feel good...but then I erased it and didn't send it because I am scared...

 

[dragonrazor]

I confess that I still hate this weather.

 

[xOxCherryxOx]

ICT I posted in one of my threads today and it felt good to write again and I think it sounded ok.

ICT I miss my guy and wish he'd get home from work early and come wrap me up in one of his massive hugs that make me forget the illness, the pain and stress. He is the balm to my soul and I will forever be greatful for his never ending strength and encouragement and most of all his love.

 

[Vail_Indigo]

ICT I'm in kind of a foul mood for a stupid reason

 

[dragonrazor]

I confess that I'm a little disturbed by the fact that it would seem Psylocke is working with the Brotherhood on Wolverine and the X-men.