The Gay Urge

[CharlieBoker]

I just ended a ten year marriage to someone I thought was the one. I loved her.

I was never unfaithful, she was not, but, she discovered she had no desire to be with men. Or anyone else for that matter.

I was her first, and before that she was with women, and neither were what she wanted.

it is not something you can fix, your orientation.

I will say this- think about growing old alone.

You can break up your marriage to this woman who loves you, and go get a random penis, attached to a man you have no feelings for.

Then what?

He is not going to want you to stay.

Good luck getting married again.

Breaking up a family and destroying the heart of the woman who loves you.

Just masturbate and enjoy porn and perhaps, get her permission to discuss the bisexual side of yourself online, just don't act on it.

She seems pretty set on wanting just you, and not sharing you.

Your choice- do you honor the vows you made to each other, or, leave her for someone who doesn't love you?

Picture yourself at age 75- you suffer a heart attack, need help.

Do you want her to be there visiting you in the hospital?

Who do you want by your side?

And think of her. She has to feel similarly.

Whatever you do, you also do to her.

Do you want her to end up alone?

If you do not love her and do not want sex with her and your marriage is over and it is a charade to continue it, better let her know before she gets too old.

You're breaking her heart either way, it is what it is.

But, if you can rescue your heart and hers, and honor your vows, the best decision you will ever make in life is to stay faithful.

If you can't do that, and it will still make you unhappy, well... at least give her a chance to find someone who loves her and will be with her.

Send her my way, in fact. I'm a kind person, I'd treat her well.

I just suffered the loss of the love of my life, we'd have a topic to comiserate over.

But yeah.

Be honest and be faithful, and if you can't do both, be honest.

Great post. Thank you

 

[TryGuy35]

You do realize that if people like you put up your own website where we could find yall more easily, yall would make a killing. I'd love to have a houseboi. Hell my wife might even get onboard.

Agreed….#1 fantasy. This would be a dream cum true

 

[stargame]

Agreed….#1 fantasy. This would be a dream cum true

Yes, my urge come true.

 

[Sounding22]

Is it possible that we m/f are born with procreation biology but with a natural instinct of same sex life after creation?
I don’t think there is such a thing as a distinction of gay or lesbian. I was born with just plain male attractions. Still find women attractive just like
Art (No offense).

 

[drobert44]

Can be hard to explain

But, cant be denied. Hope you can work it out.

 

[tristantrotsky]

I grew up in the same type of neighborhood. There was a bunch of us boys and there would be 3 or 4 of us jacking off together a lot of times. We would always try to get each other to suck cock but none of us ever would but there were a lot of times then and especially now that I wish I had. But in those days the last thing you wanted was to be known as a queer!

But when I was alone with my schoolfriend, John, when his parents were out of the house and we went up to his bedroom, and no-one but him and me knew what we were doing, we'd get naked and suck each other's cocks in a purely experimental way, satisfying that raging pubertal curiosity. It soon became apparent that I enjoyed sucking his cock far more than he enjoyed sucking mine. Which was fine, simply a matter of personal taste. But he had a lovely cock. I enjoyed sucking him. So we did it quite a lot.

 

[Uncut1969]

But when I was alone with my schoolfriend, John, when his parents were out of the house and we went up to his bedroom, and no-one but him and me knew what we were doing, we'd get naked and suck each other's cocks in a purely experimental way, satisfying that raging pubertal curiosity. It soon became apparent that I enjoyed sucking his cock far more than he enjoyed sucking mine. Which was fine, simply a matter of personal taste. But he had a lovely cock. I enjoyed sucking him. So we did it quite a lot.

Had a school friend also we just jo each other to completion I wish that I had become a cock sucker
And I am sure he wouldn't have minded

 

[Dreamer110]

Had a school friend also we just jo each other to completion I wish that I had become a cock sucker
And I am sure he wouldn't have minded

Shame you can't get a do over isn't it?

 

[Uncut1969]

Shame you can't get a do over isn't it?

That saying if I knew what I knew now! I would have no questions asked !

 

[Dreamer110]

That saying if I knew what I knew now! I would have no questions asked !

Yup. Things would be so different.

 

[J1biboi]

But when I was alone with my schoolfriend, John, when his parents were out of the house and we went up to his bedroom, and no-one but him and me knew what we were doing, we'd get naked and suck each other's cocks in a purely experimental way, satisfying that raging pubertal curiosity. It soon became apparent that I enjoyed sucking his cock far more than he enjoyed sucking mine. Which was fine, simply a matter of personal taste. But he had a lovely cock. I enjoyed sucking him. So we did it quite a lot.

That would have been great to have had a friend like that in my teen years, but I don't recall ever being alone with any of my friends in their bedroom. Actually there were very few times that there would be two of us together, most of the time there would be at least 3 or 4.
There was one boy but that was when I was much younger, too young to discuss on this thread.

 

[Biguy77578]

So here's a thing......

I really fancy women, am drawn to them sexually and emotionally and I certainly enjoy hetrosexual sex..........But, having said that, I think that I get much more turned on by gay sex.

I love to give myself to another man and to pleasure a cock with my mouth. I get so turned on by being rimmed and can't deny that I love it in the ass. The daft thing about loving gay sex though, is I don't really look at men and find them attractive as such. For sure it's nice to have a good feeling about a potential male sexual partner, but I don't fancy men to look at. I'm aware that's not massively unusual and I see a few posts on here about just loving the cock.

If we're doing labels, I class myself as bisexual.

So, I had plenty of gay sex in my younger days but ended up marrying a woman and having kids. I felt I wanted to do the right thing once I had a kid and be a good present dad, so I tried not to do anything that might destroy the family unit.

The urges to have sex with men never went away though. I have had to repress my sexual urges and it's meant living in conflict. I've had a decent sex life with my wife over the years but the urges for gay sex would always rear their head periodically.

Over the years in my marriage I used to give in to the urges and had a couple of guy friends but whilst it scratched an itch, I couldn't really relax and let go fully sexually, because the infidelity never sat well with me, I love my wife and felt very guilty for risking the family dynamic with betrayal.

About 15 years ago I stopped completely and about 8 years ago when we were at a crossroads in our marriage I told her about my bisexuality and my infidelities. We are still together and she wants me to remain faithful. The love I have for her means I adhere to that, for her sake, although I think it is in conflict with my true nature. It's a tough call and ultimately is a bit of a sacrifice.

The urges are getting stronger again and I find myself being so tempted to have a gay hook up........I know I'll feel shit afterwards if I do, but I can't deny I'm getting nearer to succumbing.

Some might say I'm just gay and in denial, but I don't think so, I am still aroused by women too, so I think I'm truly bisexual.

An interesting question I ask myself is this.......If I was in a gay relationship, getting all the cock I needed and totally fulfilled in that way, would I get the same primal urges and yearn to experience tits, ass and pussy again!

Could it be that I just want what I can't have, or is it really, that sexually, I'm closer to gay than straight on the scale? Who knows? I make my choices and that's that.

So who here, feels the strong pull..........The gay urges, building up over weeks and months, like an itch that needs scratching and you just can't ignore? It's almost a lunar thing!

Your description fits me almost exactly. I had mm sex before mf sex. I married a 21 and like you had 2 kids. I stayed straight until after the second kid was born and the wife's sex drive slowed to a crawl. It was about that time I discovered adult book stores. I would go in and jack off to the movies. One day a hand came thru a hole in the wall and grabbed my cock. It freaked me out and ran out of the booth. The guy came up to me and explained he wanted to suck my cock. We went back in the booth and he sucked me off. The book store became a regular stop on my way home from work and soon I was back to sucking strangers cocks too.
I like you love women but crave cock. I was married fot 25 years and during that time I had many hookups as well as straight relationships. I have to have sex, male or female.
I remarried but before we married I told her about my bisexul life. Se accepted it and told me I could continue having sex with men as long as I told her about it.
We have been married now for over 26 years and we have had a wonderful sex life but occasionally I still have the urge for cock.
Like you I thought about just having a gay life but I really love my wife and all she does for me.

 

[Biguy77578]

That would have been great to have had a friend like that in my teen years, but I don't recall ever being alone with any of my friends in their bedroom. Actually there were very few times that there would be two of us together, most of the time there would be at least 3 or 4.
There was one boy but that was when I was much younger, too young to discuss on this thread.

I had a high school friend who moved in with me and my mom because he couldn't get along with his step father. We slept together, nothing sexual at first.
He and I chased girls and caught many of them. One weekend night neither of us got any pussy. About 2:00 am were laying in bed together talking about how horny we were. He said he would do anything for a blow job. I told him "I can help you with that" and sucked his cock for the first time. The rest of that year anytime we didn't get pussy we sucked each other. That led to us fucking each other.

 

[J1biboi]

A fortunate twist of fate! Now, that's a good friend, one that lets you suck his cock and an even better one that also sucks yours. Was that the first cocks that either of you sucked?

 

[SCRob95060]

I got the urge and wasn’t thinking clearly. I went to a cruising park, got out of my car. I had dressed in slip on sneakers, sweatpants, no underwear a t shirt and sunglasses.

I walked into the park wearing only the sneakers and sunglasses. As it turns out you just pulled your cock out for a good time. But there I was completely naked.

There were two guys with their cocks out they chuckled as I walked up.

 

[Biguy77578]

A fortunate twist of fate! Now, that's a good friend, one that lets you suck his cock and an even better one that also sucks yours. Was that the first cocks that either of you sucked?

It was for him. I'd been sucking cock for 5 years. I sucked cock before I had pussy by 2 years.

 

[BiGuy_64]

I am 62. I know I have had thoughts about men for at least 40 of those. I had some encounters as a teen but nothing serious. I married a woman, had kids and have been faithful (physically) for 38 years.
Now, getting older, my wife and I have come to an understanding of my sexuality, facilitated largely by the two of us taking a Sexual Preference Questionnaire she found online. The conceit was “total honesty and no judgement”. We now know I am bisexual. I love cock. But also pussy and tits.
Being married, I have not explored outside that institution yet, but my wife is getting more comfortable with the thought of another man participating. It’s a process.

64 year old that had a 30 year monogamous marriage. She knew I played a bit before we met. She passed away an 3 months later, came out to my bi daughter and my son.

I’m now hooking up with a friend of mine, sucking and swallowing. I’m definitely a bottom for him too.

 

[stargame]

My gay urge is at times overwhelmingly strong. Hehe, it doesn't help that I wear a cute panties every day.

 

[Dougos]

It can be very strong at times

 

[tnnikon]

Being bisexual, i have urges for both sex.

 

[BillyWalrus]

Last night I wanted her cum so bad. In my mouth or up my ass, whatever, I just wanted it. We had not had sex for five days and I wanted her load so badly. Of course not having cum for five days, she had a huge load of cream for me to drink. I hope tonight she gives me another load up my ass because I really need it.

 

[stargame]

Last night I wanted her cum so bad. In my mouth or up my ass, whatever, I just wanted it. We had not had sex for five days and I wanted her load so badly. Of course not having cum for five days, she had a huge load of cream for me to drink. I hope tonight she gives me another load up my ass because I really need it.

Fantastic urge.

 

[jchtlit]

I grew up in the same type of neighborhood. There was a bunch of us boys and there would be 3 or 4 of us jacking off together a lot of times. We would always try to get each other to suck cock but none of us ever would but there were a lot of times then and especially now that I wish I had. But in those days the last thing you wanted was to be known as a queer!

Sounds like my neighborhood. We would meet in the woods in our secluded spot, strip naked, admire each others bodies and of course explore masturbation at first individually with the others watching.

 

[Raybies93]

I came out to my wife as bi way back on our third date. Would not have pursued a relationship to someone that wasn't OK with that. We occasionally play with others, that comes in fits and spurts over the years. When we're not in a play with others sort of space and that itch rears its head she usually just gives me a good pegging instead which subsides it for awhile.

Wife thought
me sucking a guy was hottt!

 

[Raybies93]

It's a perfectly healthy situation for two male friends to mutually work off their natural sexual energies by regularly sucking each other's cocks without having to bother their womenfolk, while the girls can happily get on with sharing the things that they enjoy, such as watching the shopping channel or discussing events on their latest TV-reality show

Dont you owe me a blow job?