What's your mood today?

terribly maudlin indeed

ticklish masturbatory indulgence

taking my impishness

total motherfucking insanity

too madly impetuous
 
Overworked, harried and underpaid, but with good energy levels and optimistic.
 
Exhausted. Guilty for not posting in the 30/30. At least it is the dirty one. I may yet salvage it. :rolleyes:
 
I feel fucked up cus i got to go wake up in 4,5 hours to get to work.. And their counting on me..

But thats not even half of it. To be honest, i dont know why i feel fucked up and stuff like that. Its just the way i am. I can be happy as hell for a couple of days then be down (really down) for no real cause.

When i was finnished writing the last lines i went from fucked up to sad, and now i feel a bit frustrated and anger towards this whole situation. I guess this is why im seeing a shrink. Now i will probably feel dumb and embarrassed cus i wrote this crap and actually posted it and be afraid that unknown peeps will think of this dude as 'trying to get attention', allthough i now see why you might be thinking it as this post got to be pretty long.

Im sorry that i cant write exactly what i feel when i have clicked the 'submit reply'-button, but this is as far as i can go to describe what i feel at the moment.

Edit: i felt dumb and still do, normal reaction i guess.
 
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i dont know why i feel fucked up and stuff like that.
Now i will probably feel dumb and embarrassed cus i wrote this crap and actually posted it and be afraid that unknown peeps will think of this dude as 'trying to get attention'...

if i may? (if i may not, feel free to skip over my 2cents)

a lot of us don't always know why we feel f'ed up & not happy... why our moods shift (sometimes suddenly, sometimes over time but for no apparent reason)... not that anyone knows what's in your head - you are unique - but know that lots of people go through the same frustration.

my solution? i don't let emotions and moods run on their own - i am responsible for what i feel, what mood i'm in at any time and i choose to perpetuate or alter that... i choose to stay in it for whatever reason or to get out of it... it's just a matter of recognizing where you are and asking yourself if that's ok for you or not, then working to move yourself into something else if that is what will be best... it's not about ignoring your emotions, noticing a mood and bypassing it - you've got to actually say 'hi' to it & get a little chatter going so you can really see if this mood is what you need in the moment... now i'm the one not making sense :p well, at least i make sense to myself :D

oh, and the 'trying to get attention' thing? maybe try to think of it less as that than as reaching out... we're all just trying to connect, to let others know who, what and how we are & to see if that sparks something...

:rose:
 
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