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Silly Ole Bear
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"I don't get it, you're here, but you're not?"
She seemed tired, as if the question should be obvious. He was getting tired of that look. How in the hell was he supposed to know everything? Why did she have to make him look so stupid.
This was his dream after all.
"The bonding, don't you remember, you drank last night, the tained blood."
Faint memories of puking came to him, the taste so horrible. It was as if he had drank cold blood. Nothing was worse than cold blood.
"We bonded, so what, that doesn't prove why you're here."
"I'm not here, asshole, I thought we went over this."
He gave her a curious look, still unsure of it all.
"I'm not Aria, this isn't me," she leaned forward, looking right at him, their faces inches apart. All of the sudden she changed, and he was looking at himself.
"I'm you," Lance said, "I'm just the smart side of you, the one that has been trying desperately to get you to stop acting like an idiot. You haven't listened to yourself, so..."
Lance changed back into Aria, "I thought I might get some help."
This stupid game was tiring him.
"Whatever."
Aria pouted, "Something wrong Lance, the truth hurt?"
"No, this whole thing is just stupid. Why are we discussing stupid bickering when the quest is out there?"
"Damnit Lance, have you lost sight of everthing already? Don't you even get it anymore? This isn't about the quest, it never has been about the quest, it's always been about you."
He stood up, adament about this, "There are rules we all need to follow. No one knows this except me, and no one is listening to me."
"Lance, the rules have changed. They've changed before your very eyes and you don't even know it. You are bound to the book, no one else."
He was shocked, "No, we are all bound. We are bound to the book, and the magic, and the pages. They need to be cleaned, we need to cleanse ourselves. That's how it's...."
She cut him off, and when she spoke, he didn't know why, but he stopped speaking and listened.
Really listened.
"No, Lance. The rules were the same, a long time ago. At one time everyone needed to be a part of everything, but not anymore. You are bound, the only reason you exist is because of the book, and it doesn't need everyone else's soul anymore. It's you, it's always you."
"But... but..."
"Lance, times change. There is no more rules, and no more telling others how it's going to be. This isn't history, this is the present, and the rules are all changing. There is no one quest, there are a bunch of little quests. Everyone has their own destiny to fulfill, and yours is the book.
"As far as everyone else, they don't need to listen to you, and I'd be surprised if they ever did from now on."
Lance looked at the book. It's lifeless canvas front, moldy and greasy hung before him. He felt weaker because of it, just from looking at it, from it's presence. It fed from him, it devoured his soul, and he knew it was the truth.
The book was his responsibility, and no one elses. He knew nothing, everything he had leanred was nothing more than a drop in the quest. He was wrong.
Lance was wrong.
Aria kneeled against him, her hand touching his face.
"It's ok, when you wake up it'll be over, and soon enough there won't be any more pain. Just hold on a little bit longer."
She kissed him, lips touching for a breif moment and before he knew it, he was coughing.
He was coughing.
All at once he heaved, as blood and bile rose up from him, and fell onto the carpet where the small pool had been forming earlier. Lance held his head high enough so he wouldn't drown as he let go of everythign in his stomach.
Not much was in there, but what was left came out as fast as it could.
Lance moved just far enough so that when he laid down he wouldn't fall back inot his own puke.
He breathed in the cool good air, but it didn't help any. Strained muscles and ancient bones shot pain throughout him. The way he had slept sent shots of pain throughout him, and he couldn't help but let out a terrible groan.
It was a sickening sound, something alien in his ears. He had never felt pain before, never been a victim of it. Pain was something that didn't phase him, it was a reaction of nothing more than synapses though.
The book took away this barrier though, it show through his threshold for pain, and accented everything. It tore at him, devoured him from the inside out, and he was helpless to stop it.
His eyes were fuzzy, and he wasn't sure quite what he saw. A figure above him, maybe two.
"The ring," he remembered something that Aria had whispered to him, "The ring, it helps the pain."
Not for him, his pain would never go away.
Not until the book as destroyed.
She seemed tired, as if the question should be obvious. He was getting tired of that look. How in the hell was he supposed to know everything? Why did she have to make him look so stupid.
This was his dream after all.
"The bonding, don't you remember, you drank last night, the tained blood."
Faint memories of puking came to him, the taste so horrible. It was as if he had drank cold blood. Nothing was worse than cold blood.
"We bonded, so what, that doesn't prove why you're here."
"I'm not here, asshole, I thought we went over this."
He gave her a curious look, still unsure of it all.
"I'm not Aria, this isn't me," she leaned forward, looking right at him, their faces inches apart. All of the sudden she changed, and he was looking at himself.
"I'm you," Lance said, "I'm just the smart side of you, the one that has been trying desperately to get you to stop acting like an idiot. You haven't listened to yourself, so..."
Lance changed back into Aria, "I thought I might get some help."
This stupid game was tiring him.
"Whatever."
Aria pouted, "Something wrong Lance, the truth hurt?"
"No, this whole thing is just stupid. Why are we discussing stupid bickering when the quest is out there?"
"Damnit Lance, have you lost sight of everthing already? Don't you even get it anymore? This isn't about the quest, it never has been about the quest, it's always been about you."
He stood up, adament about this, "There are rules we all need to follow. No one knows this except me, and no one is listening to me."
"Lance, the rules have changed. They've changed before your very eyes and you don't even know it. You are bound to the book, no one else."
He was shocked, "No, we are all bound. We are bound to the book, and the magic, and the pages. They need to be cleaned, we need to cleanse ourselves. That's how it's...."
She cut him off, and when she spoke, he didn't know why, but he stopped speaking and listened.
Really listened.
"No, Lance. The rules were the same, a long time ago. At one time everyone needed to be a part of everything, but not anymore. You are bound, the only reason you exist is because of the book, and it doesn't need everyone else's soul anymore. It's you, it's always you."
"But... but..."
"Lance, times change. There is no more rules, and no more telling others how it's going to be. This isn't history, this is the present, and the rules are all changing. There is no one quest, there are a bunch of little quests. Everyone has their own destiny to fulfill, and yours is the book.
"As far as everyone else, they don't need to listen to you, and I'd be surprised if they ever did from now on."
Lance looked at the book. It's lifeless canvas front, moldy and greasy hung before him. He felt weaker because of it, just from looking at it, from it's presence. It fed from him, it devoured his soul, and he knew it was the truth.
The book was his responsibility, and no one elses. He knew nothing, everything he had leanred was nothing more than a drop in the quest. He was wrong.
Lance was wrong.
Aria kneeled against him, her hand touching his face.
"It's ok, when you wake up it'll be over, and soon enough there won't be any more pain. Just hold on a little bit longer."
She kissed him, lips touching for a breif moment and before he knew it, he was coughing.
He was coughing.
All at once he heaved, as blood and bile rose up from him, and fell onto the carpet where the small pool had been forming earlier. Lance held his head high enough so he wouldn't drown as he let go of everythign in his stomach.
Not much was in there, but what was left came out as fast as it could.
Lance moved just far enough so that when he laid down he wouldn't fall back inot his own puke.
He breathed in the cool good air, but it didn't help any. Strained muscles and ancient bones shot pain throughout him. The way he had slept sent shots of pain throughout him, and he couldn't help but let out a terrible groan.
It was a sickening sound, something alien in his ears. He had never felt pain before, never been a victim of it. Pain was something that didn't phase him, it was a reaction of nothing more than synapses though.
The book took away this barrier though, it show through his threshold for pain, and accented everything. It tore at him, devoured him from the inside out, and he was helpless to stop it.
His eyes were fuzzy, and he wasn't sure quite what he saw. A figure above him, maybe two.
"The ring," he remembered something that Aria had whispered to him, "The ring, it helps the pain."
Not for him, his pain would never go away.
Not until the book as destroyed.