At what point did you recognize your kink?

[Luciden]

Odd, I know

I only recognized it about two years ago, but, sad to say, I've been into this stuff since I was a little kid. >_> I remember thinking about lion king and being pinned down by scar or something... It's odd, but true >_<

 

[subtleone]

Dreams...

I remember very vividly the type of dreams I had when I was a young teenager, the time when you discover one of the other uses for your hairbrush. The dreams always involved being taken, either tied up or in a cage and made to slave for a master, quite often I was sold off to another, just to accentuate the feeling of being owned! I had no idea why I would have such vivid dreams and why they were dreams and not nightmares.
Since then I have always been an experimental lover but not until I decided to actually look into the real BDSM lifestyle did it hit home that that is what I wanted and had been yearning for for coming up to 20 years.

 

[s_red830]

Now that I think of it, there was one time in 4th grade when I took some boy, threw him to the ground, and stepped on his stomach. I have no recollection as to why... let's just say that I wasn't the most popular kid around.

Another time when some boy made a snide remark about me so I pelted him in the mouth with a snowball...

And then an older boy tested my throwing skills so I pelted him in the solar plexus with a broken tennis ball...

I was into exerting my power over boys from the very start...

 

[Luciden]

hehe, I remember at recess when we played "Boys chase Girls" (the title says it all) and I was always faster than all the boys, but I would let them catch me, and it would take about 3 of them to hold me from running more. I've always been a bondage junkie I guess ^_^

 

[Rox_shybutcurious]

I can remember when I was around 11 writing a story about a cute boy in school that broke into my house and forced me at knife point. I used that fantasy a lot, at night while playing under the covers, until one day my mother found it. I got a whole lecture on how sex wasn’t like that and when two people were in love, etc., etc.….whatever, whatever. I actually don’t remember all the words, but remember thinking that what I was feeling must be wrong. Since then I’ve been extra careful about where I put things and very wary about letting anybody know my interests. There were a couple of times I tried to share a little bit with who I was seeing, but it didn’t go over well. One couldn’t even imagine why I would want to try anything outside the "norm" and another, while being willing to at least look at a couple of my toys, wasn’t willing to use any because he "didn’t want to hurt me". Since I don’t meet new people easily and this is just not something that’s readily acceptable in my realm of acquaintances I’ve learned to stay pretty quiet about my leanings.

rox.

 

[rbijon]

I can remember when I was around 11 writing a story about a cute boy in school that broke into my house and forced me at knife point. I used that fantasy a lot, at night while playing under the covers, until one day my mother found it. I got a whole lecture on how sex wasn’t like that and when two people were in love, etc., etc.….whatever, whatever. I actually don’t remember all the words, but remember thinking that what I was feeling must be wrong. Since then I’ve been extra careful about where I put things and very wary about letting anybody know my interests. There were a couple of times I tried to share a little bit with who I was seeing, but it didn’t go over well. One couldn’t even imagine why I would want to try anything outside the "norm" and another, while being willing to at least look at a couple of my toys, wasn’t willing to use any because he "didn’t want to hurt me". Since I don’t meet new people easily and this is just not something that’s readily acceptable in my realm of acquaintances I’ve learned to stay pretty quiet about my leanings.

rox.

Well breake out Babe, and this is the place to do it!

 

[i_love_myself76]

I can honestly say I dont remember how I knew I was gonna be a domme. I remember my mom telling me stories about how I made the boys kiss me in kindergarten and if they didnt I would hit them. I knew after she told me I always had a leaning toward being a dominate woman. I definitely knew it after reading the Beauty trilogy by Anne Rice and I would get turned on by the way she wrote about the "training" the princesses had to go through. mmmmmmm still get wet thinking about it. hehehe

 

[rbijon]

I can honestly say I dont remember how I knew I was gonna be a domme. I remember my mom telling me stories about how I made the boys kiss me in kindergarten and if they didnt I would hit them. I knew after she told me I always had a leaning toward being a dominate woman. I definitely knew it after reading the Beauty trilogy by Anne Rice and I would get turned on by the way she wrote about the "training" the princesses had to go through. mmmmmmm still get wet thinking about it. hehehe

Imust have been one of those boys....i am now a sub!

 

[i_love_myself76]

Imust have been one of those boys....i am now a sub!

hmmmm you might be hehehe

 

[rbijon]

hmmmm you might be hehehe

Ann Rice taught us all alot didn't she!
but I can see we placed ourselves in different parts of her story line!

 

[i_love_myself76]

LMAo yes we did but hey to each our own i love making a man do what i want when i want

 

[rbijon]

LMAo yes we did but hey to each our own i love making a man do what i want when i want

That is the Ann Rice way!
.....and I love serving a Mistress!

 

[i_love_myself76]

but i will confess I love when they disobey too ( then I can punish them as I see fit hmmmmm what memories that brings up

 

[rbijon]

but i will confess I love when they disobey too ( then I can punish them as I see fit hmmmmm what memories that brings up

Tell me!
to spank or not to spank!
that is my question!

 

[whimpering_brunette]

Oh, Geez... Ages Ago! Coming Out, Though? Whoooole Other Story!

i can remember *really* clearly watching a Dracula movie when i was maybe 8 or 9 years old, and watching the Vampire come into the lady's room, and she was *totally* transfixed by him.. under his spell completely, and he controlled her just by the tiniest gestures and whispers, and i knew, that second that this was soooo inside of me. i wanted to be that woman, i totally squished, and i could not wait to be old enough to have a boyfriend. i didn't know what it was called or what my "label" was, but i knew who i was, in my sexuality.

Another event i remember clearly happened within a year or so of this... if i'm remembering correctly, it might have been a while *before* seeing the movie. i was changing after gym class and my friend and i were the only girls left, she had some rope and grabbed me and started to tie up my wrists ~ i struggled and broke away solely on principal ~ rather make that... on principal and shame/embarrassment ~ i felt so see-through! i was pretty horrified that someone else knew my kink.

~ whimpering brunette

 

[sharezade]

I can remember when I was around 11 writing a story about a cute boy in school that broke into my house and forced me at knife point.QUOTE]

OMG!!!

I wrote that story when I was 11 too!! I used it to explain a scar on my thigh.

 

[subtleone]

hehe, I remember at recess when we played "Boys chase Girls" (the title says it all) and I was always faster than all the boys, but I would let them catch me, and it would take about 3 of them to hold me from running more. I've always been a bondage junkie I guess ^_^

Oh yes I remember doing that too I loved that game *chuckle*

 

[Rox_shybutcurious]

I can remember when I was around 11 writing a story about a cute boy in school that broke into my house and forced me at knife point.QUOTE]

OMG!!!

I wrote that story when I was 11 too!! I used it to explain a scar on my thigh.

I guess I'm not such an odd duck after all. LOL

rox.

 

[Rox_shybutcurious]

Well breake out Babe, and this is the place to do it!

Thanks, it's slow going, but I'm trying. Doing lots of reading, asking questions here and there while trying not to step on anybody's toes or sound totally naive. Hopefully I'll even get enough gumption to post a personal at some point. LOL

rox

 

[Luciden]

Another event i remember clearly happened within a year or so of this... if i'm remembering correctly, it might have been a while *before* seeing the movie. i was changing after gym class and my friend and i were the only girls left, she had some rope and grabbed me and started to tie up my wrists ~ i struggled and broke away solely on principal ~ rather make that... on principal and shame/embarrassment ~ i felt so see-through! i was pretty horrified that someone else knew my kink.

~ whimpering brunette

OMG, that happened to me today, well.. not quite. One of my friends came up to me and all of a sudden started talking about whips and chains and I was like "uhhh, how'd you know? >_>"

 

[Stricturism]

I didn't recognize it, it was ...thrust upon me?

I knew I enjoyed lots of things but I didn't have a revelation about my sexuality all by myself. I even fought it on a subconscious level. Beginning when I was 22 or so I kept being approached by women who claimed to have never wanted a man to commit on their flesh the often painful, often aggressive and brutal acts they fantasized about with me. I was lavished with all sorts of gifts but the one that stands out in my mind the most is the thick, twisted leather riding crop I was given so that I could lash her with. I finally figured out that a lot of the things that turned me on were clearly defined practices in the Fetish/BDSM community. From then on I read and practiced as much as I could. I even studied Kinbaku & Shibari rope bondage in Japan to further my education. I like this thread. it's interesting to see how we all got here.

 

[Lester_Hammond]

When did you first recognize that you were...different? What lead you to recognize this?

I'll tell my story later, but I will say that I recognized my submissive nature when I was quite young...and it frightened the hell out of me.

However; I'm more interested in hearing your responses, right now.

When I was young I watched a few films, which were supposedly PG. These included Ben Hur, the film version of He-Man, some Roman/Egyptian film I've forgotten the name for and the film or a film similar to Excalibur (I've forgotten the definite name for this as well). All of the films included scenes of galley slaves, whippings and the like.

When I was older, I realised my sexual tastes were slightly different from mainstream. After a bit of inquisitive reading, I soon discovered what my 'fetish' was.

 

[Lurnk]

Now that I think of it, there was one time in 4th grade when I took some boy, threw him to the ground, and stepped on his stomach. I have no recollection as to why... let's just say that I wasn't the most popular kid around.

Another time when some boy made a snide remark about me so I pelted him in the mouth with a snowball...

And then an older boy tested my throwing skills so I pelted him in the solar plexus with a broken tennis ball...

I was into exerting my power over boys from the very start...

I did things like that as a young'n as well:

In kindergarten, I shoved a boy into a pile of chairs for walking too slowly in front of me. That lead to my first and only (oddly enough) paddling.

I kicked a boy in the balls for calling me a girl, instead of by my name. I would have laughed as he ran off crying, but I was too worried about whether or not he'd tell a teacher--he didn't.

In the fifth grade, I stabbed a boy in the arm with a pencil for doing something that angered me.

Got into a fight with a boy for skipping me in line.

Heh heh, good times.



Lurnk.

 

[Toa_lin]

recognised mine about 3 years ago, when I was 16... an older pyl recognised the streak in me, and nurtured me. Since then I have openly embraced the life.

 

[Arianna22]

I think I knew from being small but didnt allow myself to acknowledge it. Up until a few years ago i was convinced i was a freak. I used to dream and think up stories all the time about being tied up and used and kidnapped and being forced to serve others. I was horrified at myself and it was one of my best kept secrets.

I was horribly embarrassed by the thoughts I had and by wanting to be tied up and beaten. An ex didnt help by telling me I was a freak because I liked him to hold my wrists when we had sex.

Then about 4 years ago I met a couple of people who talked to me about it. They allowed me to see that i wasnt a freak, that it was perfectly okay to like being submissive and enjoying bondage.

Since then.... well.... what can i say. I just find I like more and more and enjoy finding that out. I'm 27 now and I hope to have fun for many more years!