Depression. Anxiety. Panic Attacks. etc

[Ibsen]

I have recently discovered that paleontologists dont just dig up dinosaurs, but also work with gas- and oil-prospecting, wich means, more job oportunities. I have heard that the norwegian oil-riggs take alot paleontologists, and it would be fun to work there as first-job. The pay is high, wich means that I can pay opf my student loan in a higher rate then otherwise, and the risks are, well, high, wich I have no good reason for liking. But what, I dont want a still-sitting office job. I have read a bit about Iraqi Kurdistan, and they are sitting on HUGE under-ground reservoires of oil that just waits to be drilled up. And Iraqi Kurdistan is the safest place in Iraq, wich I realise, doesnt say alot.

My study plans are going good. Wish I could say the same about life in general. I need someone to hug. And dont say familly, as that is out of the question.

 

[MercyMia]

Hi everyone, just passing through and reading Ibsen's latest posts. I hope everyone's doing well so far in this year of the dog.

 

[Quoll]

Shit, apathy sucks.
Maybe next time.

 

[MercyMia]

Hi quoll

 

[bobsgirl]

Hello everyone,

I haven't visited this thread for a long time. I am having a hard time now because two traumatic events occurred in my life within the same week.

I just don't know how to pick myself up. If either one of these events had occurred separately, I think I could have found the mental strength to deal with it. But two huge hurts in one week? I feel like I am drowning.

I was in therapy for a while last fall, but stopped because I felt a lot better. Well, the other day I made another appointment. I hate that I feel like I'm going backward.

I'm not sleeping well, and I've been very weepy. My family is starting to notice that there is a problem, and they've been asking questions. Well-meaning, but the last thing I want to do is answer a lot of questions.

I don't think I have a particular question to ask--just needed a place to vent a little. I feel like things will never be the same again.

 

[Quoll]

Hello everyone,

I haven't visited this thread for a long time. I am having a hard time now because two traumatic events occurred in my life within the same week.

I just don't know how to pick myself up. If either one of these events had occurred separately, I think I could have found the mental strength to deal with it. But two huge hurts in one week? I feel like I am drowning.

I was in therapy for a while last fall, but stopped because I felt a lot better. Well, the other day I made another appointment. I hate that I feel like I'm going backward.

I'm not sleeping well, and I've been very weepy. My family is starting to notice that there is a problem, and they've been asking questions. Well-meaning, but the last thing I want to do is answer a lot of questions.

I don't think I have a particular question to ask--just needed a place to vent a little. I feel like things will never be the same again.

{{{BG}}}
I'm sorry you are feeling so down and I understand completely about being unable to pick yourself back up.
I don't see going back to your therapist as a backwards step, I see it more as a better understanding of what you are capable of dealing with on your own and what you know you need help with.
I hope you can get past this soon and I wish you all the strength you need.

 

[MercyMia]

hi bobsgirl,

i'm so sorry you have two traumas happen to you in the same week. i'm glad you have a therapist you want to go back to and work on yourself with. i wish you the best in this leg of your journey.

here, it is a quiet sunday evening. i made a simple dinner for my son and me and then fed the dog, too. i wish i had a more exciting life, sometimes, but then again, i'm glad i have the comforts and conveniences available to me. i keep checking the news about the terrible mudslide in the philippines that buried a small village.

 

[bobsgirl]

Thanks, quoll and Mia.

I think today I'll see if my husband wants to go out and see a movie or something. All this is affecting him too.

 

[MercyMia]

Thanks, quoll and Mia.

I think today I'll see if my husband wants to go out and see a movie or something. All this is affecting him too.

Ooooh, that sounds like fun. Are you going to get popcorn, too?

Mia, who wants to watch a movie the old-fashioned way and not on the DVD player

 

[bobsgirl]

Ooooh, that sounds like fun. Are you going to get popcorn, too?

Mia, who wants to watch a movie the old-fashioned way and not on the DVD player

We did end up going to a movie and dinner. We saw "Firewall" with Harrison Ford. Glad we didn't pay full price for the movie, but it was nice to sit in the dark and hold hands.

No popcorn, but lots of M&Ms.

 

[sassy_girl1963]

We did end up going to a movie and dinner. We saw "Firewall" with Harrison Ford. Glad we didn't pay full price for the movie, but it was nice to sit in the dark and hold hands.

No popcorn, but lots of M&Ms.

Ah!

 

[Quoll]

Apathy, lack of motivation, I know these are part of this damned thing, but I'm really struggling with them at the moment, possibly due to the change in meds, I don't know. Couple that with tiredness and, well, anyway I'll keep working at it.

 

[bobsgirl]

Apathy, lack of motivation, I know these are part of this damned thing, but I'm really struggling with them at the moment, possibly due to the change in meds, I don't know. Couple that with tiredness and, well, anyway I'll keep working at it.

Keep working on it, quoll. And be patient. In other words, don't beat yourself up. Treat yourself kindly. You'll get there.

(((quoll)))

 

[Saucyminx]

Well Qster--don't know if i've said it lately, or publicly ever for that matter, but i would like to personally thank you for this thread. It has provided some very valuable insight into what has been going on with my marriage over the past year and then some.

So again, thank you, thank you, thank you my friend.

You have given me hope.

 

[Quoll]

Well Qster--don't know if i've said it lately, or publicly ever for that matter, but i would like to personally thank you for this thread. It has provided some very valuable insight into what has been going on with my marriage over the past year and then some.

So again, thank you, thank you, thank you my friend.

You have given me hope.

Thanks Minxster, I'm so glad that you got something out of it.
I'd really like to thank you for the laughs you've given me.

 

[jethrobodeen]

Apathy, lack of motivation, I know these are part of this damned thing, but I'm really struggling with them at the moment, possibly due to the change in meds, I don't know. Couple that with tiredness and, well, anyway I'll keep working at it.

I hear ya. I switched to Wellbutrin, it's helping tons with sexual side effects. But that switchover period was rough. Still reverberating through me.

I think the highlight holds a key... certainly does for me.

-JB

 

[bisexplicit]

https://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=418393

I just had to share this. I love when people don't get it at all.

 

[bobsgirl]

I hear ya. I switched to Wellbutrin, it's helping tons with sexual side effects. But that switchover period was rough. Still reverberating through me.

I think the highlight holds a key... certainly does for me.

-JB

I am constantly working at it. Sometimes though, I get so tired. Things have been pretty rocky for me the past few months, actually, more like the past few years.

It feels hopeless sometimes.


Thanks for the link, bi. I wouldn't have known what to say to the ones who are so closed-minded. Ya done good.

 

[Quoll]

https://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=418393

I just had to share this. I love when people don't get it at all.

Fuck!
You rock Bi.

 

[Quoll]

Just one good day.

 

[Quoll]

I had so much I wanted to say, I've been mulling over it for a few days now, but like so many other things over the past however long I can't seem to get any farther than the thought.
Apologies to anyone I've let down.

 

[JustSkye]

I had so much I wanted to say, I've been mulling over it for a few days now, but like so many other things over the past however long I can't seem to get any farther than the thought.
Apologies to anyone I've let down.

You never need apologize. This thread has been a blessing to so many, myself included. I lurk and read. Just take time for you, sweetheart.
I should be a better friend and be around more often. I'm sorry I've failed in that regard. I love you, sweetheart. Please be well.

 

[bobsgirl]

Hey, Miss VS! Nice to see you around these parts!

 

[Quoll]

You never need apologize. This thread has been a blessing to so many, myself included. I lurk and read. Just take time for you, sweetheart.

Thank you hon. It's been a real struggle lately, going back to my old meds has definitely taken some of the doom and gloom away, just not all. *sigh*
I just feel like I am going through the motions at the moment, get up, go to work, come home and shut down. It's the damn shut down that has thrown me for a loop, I just can't seem to shake it off, so many ideas have come to me, I've started so many things only to let them fade away and by the end of the day I am exhausted. (sitting on your arse is hard work apparently)

Being withdrawn is a weird one, when things are loud and busy all I want is to be left alone, of course when that happens there is an overwhelming feeling of desertion, which leads to anger at those near to you, which in turn drives them away. I said it was weird.

I should be a better friend and be around more often. I'm sorry I've failed in that regard. I love you, sweetheart. Please be well.

Sweets, you haven't failed, (see above paragraph) we all need time alone and true friendship is understanding that, and being able to accept it. It's also about being there when help is asked for, or to just reach out occasionally. Nope you haven't failed.

Ok all the good thinking says to end on a positive note, so even though I feel I am slipping back at times, I still continue to try, I guess I tend to fall back on my (attempted) humour but at least it allows me to accomplish something and feel good about that.

Hey, Miss VS! Nice to see you around these parts!

Why yes you are right, and she should share some of her knowledge here on the HT too.

 

[Denae]

Hello everyone,

I haven't visited this thread for a long time. I am having a hard time now because two traumatic events occurred in my life within the same week.

I just don't know how to pick myself up. If either one of these events had occurred separately, I think I could have found the mental strength to deal with it. But two huge hurts in one week? I feel like I am drowning.

I was in therapy for a while last fall, but stopped because I felt a lot better. Well, the other day I made another appointment. I hate that I feel like I'm going backward.

I'm not sleeping well, and I've been very weepy. My family is starting to notice that there is a problem, and they've been asking questions. Well-meaning, but the last thing I want to do is answer a lot of questions.

I don't think I have a particular question to ask--just needed a place to vent a little. I feel like things will never be the same again.

Try not to think of it as going backwards. Life has thrown you a curve and you need some assistance getting through this time. I've had the exact same thing happen many years ago and I turned around my negative thoughts about going backwards by comparing it to "preventative health." Tetanus shots are good for 10 years so I chose to think I was going back to keep my mental innoculations up-to-date.

Life doesn't come with a manual and if there's help available to us-grab it.

Best wishes and hugs during this hard time.