bobsgirl said:
this started off as a supportive post to you, ( a whole half sentence too ) so I'll try to get back on track. If you can find the energy to elicit some sort of change do it, whether it be meds or counselling or how you live your life, if it means confronting issues or people even. I know it is so hard to break out of the cycle and I'm both sorry and angry that you don't get the full support you need at home, perhaps this could be an issue to push.
quoll said:Perhaps a change in meds might help, I only suggest this as it is something I am thinking of. I am tired of only feeling the bad stuff, feeling down or feeling nothing as the norm is incredibly tiring isn't it.
Moments of pleasure and happiness are only fleeting and I struggle to recall any good that has happened, even though I know it must be there. I find myself withdrawing more and more from things that may bring me stress, unfortunately this means I am letting down people that are close to me, even knowing this I can't seem to find the energy to break through and be there for them, I feel I will lose some good friends.
Things that used to bring me pleasure seem to hold almost no interest anymore, reading is gone, my creativity, spasmodic as it was, is now just a quick flash that must be grasped immediately or is gone forever.
I feel quite strange writing this as the last few days have been quite enjoyable, but already they are starting to fade away.
I had a lot more on my mind but as usual most of it has drifted off.
Um BG
This all seems like rambling crap right now, so {{{{{{{{{BG}}}}}}}}} , take what you can use and discard everything else.
The Pot.
Keep rambling. Getting that crap out of your system is good for you.
bobsgirl said:I think I'll keep it all, thanks.
{{{{{{{{pq}}}}}}}} Did you ever notice there's a lot of hugging going on in this thread? Never underestimate the power of hug therapy. I realize it's just {}'s on a computer screen, but it means a lot that people want to lend support and concern.
The Kettle
Go directly to your Inbox, please.
ed said:quoll, the holiday season usually kicks up some depression for most folks, even in those of us who are happy. perhaps now that christmas has passed, things will settle down a bit? and when your sleep is a bit less interrupted, i'm sure that will help too, no?
Ed, I loathe the lead up to christmas for so many reasons, christmas day and the few after have been good, I think knowing that at some point my mind will drop me back in the shit has me on edge. Interrupted sleep certainly doesn't help, unfortunately LF is not the main cause of mysleeplessness, it literally comes with the job, which I enjoy ( the job not the other), something I'll have to try and work out I guess. Less time at lit maybe?
Ibsen said:
plus you have ice and that white stuff. Good luck with the truck licence ( I haven't got that far yet, maybe in another 10 years or so ).
Fflow said:
Its good to be back. My compm seem to crash constantly. And before, I couldnt log in (or get in, for that matter) from a public computer, but now its no problem.quoll said:Hey Ibsen, great to see you posting again; you know the great thing about christmas? It's over.
Only 1 1/2 years, that beats my twenty odd,
Oh I remember that sort of thing with the girls, I never got the cute bit but I used to get the "You're too good a friend" thing, either way it still amounts to no. Not that I was out there flirting anyway I'm much too shy for that, funny thing is I married my best friend. Don't underestimate the power of a women once she sets her sights on you.
Not sure if you have heard of Murphy's Law, it basically dictates that whatever can go wrong will go wrong at the worst possible time. I hope you don't find a woman at the same time you find a way out that hole in nowhere.
Just keep talking to the girls, let them get to know you and hopefully something will click.
How did you do this?
