I'm being nosey

[shy slave]

I go through spurts of random thinking, I have a very restless mind so it happen a lot. I got to thinking the other day about why I'm into bdsm. I'm still trying to figure that one out, haven't come up with a concrete reason why past it just feels right, almost like it fills a void I didn't know I had until I started.

My curiosity for yall is, how did you know that bdsm was right for you? When did you know which role was right for you, through trial and error or just an innate sense of what was the right role for you? How often and to what extent is bdsm incorporated into life?

For the switches...Do you find that you prefer one side more than the other but both are just as good to do? Am I alone in realizing it seems to be mood dependent on which role I take on at a given time?

Sorry, I need to keep awake and figured starting conversation was the best way to do that

BDSM or more accurately D/s fills a void in my Soul.

I need to feel I have a place, a sense of belonging.

Vanilla relationships did not give that, quite why I can't explain. I just knew there was something missing.
Like the orgasm which is great but not fireworks, the edge is not quite as it should be.

It was a vanilla boyfriend who realised I was submissive and he went looking for information, before he ever said anything to me.
It was not a place he wanted to explore, but I am grateful he realised and showed me a different alternative to what he and I had together.

I have never considered the role of a PYL, before I understood what a slave was or that switches and Dommes existed I had discovered the mental comfort that being a pyl gave me.

I am assertive at work, I used to be assertive sexually; it made me feel more isolated and alone.

So yes, once I found this mental head space 'I just knew'