It's official...

[panty wearer]

I wish you ALL the best of luck! I hope you can be who you truly are soon. If I could help you in some way I would, even though we would never meet. Which would be my loss to have not met such a Beautiful person.

 

[4yourpleasureiam]

I begin therapy tomorrow. It's just the "intake" introductory, so they know who to assign me to as far as counselors go, but I'm going. I'm finally going.

I had a very bad weekend. All the playing with the boys. All the dressing up and sucking dildos and giving guys head online left me...empty. Hollow.

I went to university on Monday and stopped by Health Services. I put in for an emergency session with the first available counselor. I almost chickened out, but I made it. Read the Entertainment Weekly with Laverne Cox on the cover for inspiration.

I spoke to a counselor. I told him if I could just jump in with both feet and talk to an emergency counselor, then I could be strong enough to schedule an appointment with a gender/sexuality therapist.

I did, and I have.

My first appointment is tomorrow, but as I said, it's just an "intake" so they'll probably ask me questions like "were you ever abused?" "How long have you felt this way?", etc. What I really want to do is just come in wearing my shorts and purple camisole top and just say "Since I can't find the words, this is how I feel inside."

And then finally break down.

Please wish me lots of luck. I think I'm going to need the support desperately.

wishing you the best