Moment of Apocalypse or Epiphany?

[Guest]

Epiphanous Background Music

" I Don't Wanna Be "
Gavin DeGraw
( Chariot )



I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
See, not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be

 

[Netzach]

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: <----Waiting for ephiphany...

It seems most people talk to me on one of two levels - either from a standpoint of I have knowledge they want to possess or that I possess something they need and I'm willing to share.

I don't remember the last real conversation I had with someone that was on a PERSONAL level or with someone that wanted more from me than a few minutes inside my body.

Perhaps that is what is raises the protective "shield". I don't want to just be a sex object...but I must respond when my body craves physical attention. I have many I could call for such physical satisfaction, but none I can call to satisfy the craving of my mind.

Esclava

My thought -

Too much yin, you need platonic face-to-face girlfriends. I've found this has often happened in my life when I've let those relatiohships slip. Sometimes were so obsessed with trusting our partners we forget that there are other people to trust on other levels.

 

[AngelicAssassin]

Beautiful Work

@ a price. No more dentist until April.

Thank God ...

 

[Kajira Callista]

Re: Beautiful Work

@ a price. No more dentist until April.

Thank God ...

and we dont get to see the end result?

 

[AngelicAssassin]

Re: Re: Beautiful Work

and we dont get to see the end result?

Sorry darlin', you don't see teeth ... until it's too late

 

[Kajira Callista]

Re: Re: Re: Beautiful Work

Sorry darlin', you don't see teeth ... until it's too late

lol you think i would have learned this lesson by now

 

[AngelicAssassin]

What a lovely week

i hated January 14 years ago.

i hated January 2 years ago.

i hate January this year.

i no longer choose to believe in a month supposedly filled with hopes of new beginnings, and better times.

Memories of times like this helped.

They reminded me things could be worse.

Not anymore.

 

[AngelicAssassin]

How apropos

 

[rosco rathbone]

Been breaking hearts, have we?

*tsk tsk*

 

[shy slave]

God AA you certainly know how to throw the emotions into disarray.
Both of your last posts, the video and the picture were just about the undoing of me.

Yesterday on the local news in reported that 11 US service men had lost their lives in a training excercise in Albania.
They had been based at Mildenhall in Norfolk.

To all those who knew of them and to their families

 

[AngelicAssassin]

i'll relent this one time

(no, it ain't band camp) and only to see if Netzi catches this post.

Click me.

Of particular note,

... right hand is still clenched in a fist, refusing complete surrender.

Most poignant indeed.

 

[rosco rathbone]

Some kind of jet aircraft just flew over my house about 100 feet up. I am not in any flight path. Is this the end??

 

[AngelicAssassin]

Some kind of jet aircraft just flew over my house about 100 feet up. I am not in any flight path. Is this the end??

It wasn't a jet. That was the sound of the "living saved" departing for heaven. It was the Rapture, and you just got left behind. Enjoy.

 

[rosco rathbone]

You might be right. I am in a 100% Islamic Bengali neighborhood and everyone still seems to be here.....

 

[AngelicAssassin]

In the dentist chair ... yet again

i swear if i hadn't been in a good mood, old school out of the speakers might have hit me hard ...

Just girl to boy
I'd like to share this thought with you
Our love's a joy
Two one's have made inseparable two

Last night my heart spoke to me and
It said you've found that lover friend
So now i've finally got the courage just to ask you baby ooh

[Chorus:]
Will you, will you
Will you marry me boy
Will you, will you
Will you marry me

Will you, Will you
Will you marry me boy
Will you, will
Will you, will you, will you
Come on baby now

I lay awake
So full with hope of things to come
For heaven's sake
I pray i'm not the only one
I never dreamed i'd be so bold
I'm standing here, my heart's been sold
So now i've finally got the courage just to ask you baby ooh

[Chorus]

[Spoken:]
Think of love as wings
Not a ball and chain
And your fear of things
Unnecessary
I only want to share your name
Share your name

Last night my heart spoke to me and
It said you've found that lover friend
So now i've finally got the courage just to ask you baby ooh

[Chorus]

Maybe Sunday
Come on Monday
Baby any time this week

Get an old house
Find a back yard
Buy some flowers down the street

Tell your mother
Tell your father
Don't tell anyone at all

All we need is
Just the two of us

And ooh ...​

 

[rosco rathbone]

I had one of these moments walking down the stairs to the tube today in Union Square, watching the ass cheeks of a chinese girl in front of me. All of a sudden it occured to me that all of our teleological notions of human culture were bollocks and it wouldn't take much at all, on a cosmic scale, to obliterate all life and all remnant of culture, history and memory from this planet so that all that would remain of us and all our hopes is a few stray space probes somewhere past the orbit of Pluto and whatever electromagnetic radiation--old TV shows and so on--has escaped the solar system. The rest---rocks, dust, rubble and ash.

 

[arctic-stranger]

... any music by Barry Manilow.

Word.

 

[AngelicAssassin]

On the radio ...

No, it wasn't Donna Summer

Now here you go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat.. drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say... Women... they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know
Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and...
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness...
Like a heartbeat... drives you mad...
In the stillness of remembering what you had...
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say... Women... they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know​

 

[Kajira Callista]

Nice av

 

[arctic-stranger]

Duh! Fleetwood Mac, actually stevie nicks, off of rumours i believe....

No, it wasn't Donna Summer

Now here you go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who am I to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat.. drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say... Women... they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know
Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and...
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness...
Like a heartbeat... drives you mad...
In the stillness of remembering what you had...
And what you lost...
And what you had...
And what you lost
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say... Women... they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know​

 

[rosco rathbone]

I actually had a for-real epiphany today: "Free" will exists; even if the universe is completely deterministic.

 

[Marquis]

I actually had a for-real epiphany today: "Free" will exists; even if the universe is completely deterministic.

So does hypomania.

 

[rosco rathbone]

So does hypomania.

I wish I was hypomania. I'm in the calm rational in between phase.

 

[Marquis]

I wish I was hypomanic. I'm in the calm rational in between phase.

Rosco, what am I going to do with you?

 

[rosco rathbone]

Rosco, what am I going to do with you?

Send medicine?