random ramblings

[the captians wench]

Well, I posted a few new pics on my add to sell my hair. And I sent them to the other offers I have recieved. I also recieved a new offer yesterday.

Costume sales on the other hand are really slow. Not too surprizing with the holiday weekend and with unemployment actually rising this month. *sigh* Still a little bleak.

I still have a closet full of things to photograph and post. And I'm almost finished with the glitter-punk reversable corset top I've been working on. That's been a bit theriputic really. The kiddy pieces have been all about making some money. I haven't been able to just work on something fun. This piece is going to be hot, but some how I don't think I'll get out of it what I would really like. It's going to be a well bones piece, and very sturdy with a canvas inner-lining, but I'm just not getting what I should out of costumes lately.

I've been thinking about selling some of my material. Especially the trim I've collected. A lot of that is stuff that was just given to me or found in huge garage sale packages. Most of it I can't even think of how I might use it.

Maybe I'm getting too desperate to raise money for my trip. Maybe I should chill out a bit and just let it happen. Why is that so hard for me?

 

[the captians wench]

I finally got up the nerve and did it. I cut my hair. 24 inches.

I am loving it!

It's a cute little bob and I'll post pics once Jounar has a look at it.

But I like it. I've been flipping it all day.

 

[minx1]

I finally got up the nerve and did it. I cut my hair. 24 inches.

I am loving it!

It's a cute little bob and I'll post pics once Jounar has a look at it.

But I like it. I've been flipping it all day.

Hey good on yer chick

Bobs are the best

 

[the captians wench]

The boss man likes my hair cut too. He told me yesterday, just before he told me they are moving me back to my old store. I don't want to go back! I feel like I'm really on an upswing at this store. I haven't been happy in this job in a long time but this store seems to have given me my passion back for the job, and now they are moving me back.

I'm trying very hard to be positive about it. I'm trying to convince myself that I will be the same new me at the old store that I have been at this one, but I can't seem to sell myself on it.

I have to decide, and I have to make a move quick in some direction. What is it that I want to do with the rest of my life?

I'm thinking that with this move back, I really should jump into going to school. One that will get me moving in some direction, and two that will force this store manager to work with my schedule. It won't be easy, and I've been having a hard time getting started. If any one has advice on this I would love to hear it.

I'm thinking about going into business management. One, I have credits for that line thru my work experience with Mcd's. (they are partnered with some one to give credits for things like the classes that I had to go to inorder to be a manager). The other reason I'm leaning this way is that I think it would help with my own vintures in my own company. And lastly, I want an office job, and I think maybe if I go this route it will help with that too.

I've been thinking about one of those online collages, but I've looked into the local ones around me too. I just get imobilized every time i think about going further than browsing a website. I'm afraid to fail. I'm afraid that I'll spend all of this money and then end up doing something to prevent me from graduating or that I'll be in school for the next 10 years and still have nothing to show for it. Maybe I need one of those six month programs so that I have something to show for it and that will give me the confidence I need to push further.

I don't know...a lil help?

 

[ecstaticsub]

Just thinking out loud here.

Since your long range goal is to move to Ireland maybe you can find something that will be marketable over there, too. I know their economy isn't the best right now either but it is something to keep in mind.

Other than that I know with the push to get doctors to computerize all their records many are hiring transcriber to go into the patients room with them and type up the findings during the exam. The medical field is almost always hiring. There will always be sick people where ever you go.

Good luck on what you decide. I can't wait to see your new haircut

 

[the captians wench]

well it's worse than I thought. They are selling my old store, and intending to sell me along with it. That means all those nice corp benefits would go bye bye. Along with my pay, and much room for growth.

I have a few options, just trying to plan out my best ones and keep things flowing. Thankfully my store manager has fallen in love with me and wants to keep me bad so Ai have her fighting for me too.

Not that I'm doing a whole lot of thinking atm. right now I'm skipping the glass and drinking the mead right from the bottle.and I can't get this "I'm fucked" feeling to go away.

Any way we go, I'm getting a pay cut. But there are some benefits to other ways I go.

 

[minx1]

well it's worse than I thought.

Not that I'm doing a whole lot of thinking atm. right now I'm skipping the glass and drinking the mead right from the bottle.and I can't get this "I'm fucked" feeling to go away.

But there are some benefits to other ways I go.

Are you, me?!

Sharing the ''I'm fucked'' feeling wenchie and did my share of glugging last night.

At least there are a few benefits to some of the other options. Try and focus on those.

lol get me....I need to take my own advice

As for training/studying I think thats a great idea. And i think ES made a good point. Have you checked out the immigration site for positions and trades they give priority to or award more ''points'' to?

Keep your chin up chick

 

[the captians wench]

Are you, me?!

Sharing the ''I'm fucked'' feeling wenchie and did my share of glugging last night.

At least there are a few benefits to some of the other options. Try and focus on those.

lol get me....I need to take my own advice

As for training/studying I think thats a great idea. And i think ES made a good point. Have you checked out the immigration site for positions and trades they give priority to or award more ''points'' to?

Keep your chin up chick

Unless you are a brain surgen, they really don't offer much.

Right now I can't do much but wait. I'll have an interview with the owners (I think) but no one is sure what's happening after that point. Well no one is sure what's happening at all really. See, normally salary managers are not up for grabs, but this store does not have enough hourlies so the salaries are going along for the ride. The good news is that I would be interviewing for a salary position. But nothing is garenteed to me, my salary and especially my benefits.

If the owner doesn't want me, I can go back but either I will be going to another store or I will be taking a lesser position at the one I'm at now. The good thing abotu a lesser position would be better hours, but I'm not sure how much of a salary cut I'd be taking, or how much my benefits would be cut.
ANd it doesn't seem to matter much if I don't want to go.

This whole thing just sucks ass. And hhalf a bottle of mead later I have a small headache and I still can't sleep.

 

[minx1]

This whole thing just sucks ass. And hhalf a bottle of mead later I have a small headache and I still can't sleep.

Yup. we were separated at birth. I too had a crap ''sleep''.i use the terminits loosest sense
and had a headache from crying and wine.

Glug some water and take some drugs hon.

It'll work out. Trust me......I am after all an eteneral optimist....one of the powder puff girls. I'll just put on my rose coloured specs and wait a min.....yup, looking good. It's gonna be fine

Actually in this instance, I do believe it will be, though I think it is probably gonna suck for a while.

Do they not look for any trades like hairdressing? I think you get extra points for that here....though looking at some of the hair cuts when I arrived, I'm not surprised! *cackles*

Hope you get to speak to Jounar soon though. I know how much that will help.

 

[the captians wench]

Yup. we were separated at birth. I too had a crap ''sleep''.i use the terminits loosest sense
and had a headache from crying and wine.

Glug some water and take some drugs hon.

It'll work out. Trust me......I am after all an eteneral optimist....one of the powder puff girls. I'll just put on my rose coloured specs and wait a min.....yup, looking good. It's gonna be fine

Actually in this instance, I do believe it will be, though I think it is probably gonna suck for a while.

Do they not look for any trades like hairdressing? I think you get extra points for that here....though looking at some of the hair cuts when I arrived, I'm not surprised! *cackles*

Hope you get to speak to Jounar soon though. I know how much that will help.

Ireland doesn't give extra points unless your famous, like and athlete or something, then all of a sudden they found your long lost irish grandmam.
Seriously, getting into Ireland is like trying to get into an elete club. Just spend your money and get the fook out.

Headache is in spirts, deffo from crying, mead never gives me any sort of hangover symptoms that's why I drink it.

I have a few moves I'm going to make. One, I'm going to email my supervisor today and ask him about one of the options we have talked about before. The trick is to make it sound like I don't know what the fuck is going on.
I'm also going to use the next couple of days to update both my inturnal and exturnal resume's. I figure if I have to interview with the owner, I might as well get the best one I can and hope for at least the same money. The exturnal one I'll use to once again try to jump into a field with a desk. If i gotta start over anyway, might as well do it in a less physically demanding field.

I have some savings, and if worse comes to worse I could cash out my 401k when the company sells. And mom even offered to get an apt with me if we had to, so I'm still going to end up better off than a lot of people. It just sucks what they are doing.

Oh and Jounar has no power at his place atm, hince I can't talk to him. We did text a bit, but I need his voice. Right now I have to put on my sunny face and go into work and play stupid. Gonna be a long day.

 

[the captians wench]

Yup. we were separated at birth. I too had a crap ''sleep''.i use the terminits loosest sense
and had a headache from crying and wine.

Glug some water and take some drugs hon.

It'll work out. Trust me......I am after all an eteneral optimist....one of the powder puff girls. I'll just put on my rose coloured specs and wait a min.....yup, looking good. It's gonna be fine

Actually in this instance, I do believe it will be, though I think it is probably gonna suck for a while.

Do they not look for any trades like hairdressing? I think you get extra points for that here....though looking at some of the hair cuts when I arrived, I'm not surprised! *cackles*

Hope you get to speak to Jounar soon though. I know how much that will help.

This isn't as bad as it could be. I do have options, and i'm not loosing my job completely, so I'm still better off than I could be.

I did get to talk to Jounar this evening, he didn't have much advice, but it really helped just hearing his voice. I think hearing him say he misses me and loves me is better than anything else he could have said. It's hard when he's so far away and I can't just go running into him.

I will come through this okay because I have a lot of love and support in my life.

 

[minx1]

I think hearing him say he misses me and loves me is better than anything else he could have said.
I will come through this okay because I have a lot of love and support in my life.

*nods* Thats all I really ever wanted and needed.

 

[the captians wench]

I think what's driving me completely mental here is the not knowing what's going to happen part. Even the higher ups aren't sure exactly what's going to happen. I'm a planer. I feel more secure when I have a plan. If I don't know what's going on, it's a lot harder to make a plan for it.

 

[ecstaticsub]

I think what's driving me completely mental here is the not knowing what's going to happen part. Even the higher ups aren't sure exactly what's going to happen. I'm a planer. I feel more secure when I have a plan. If I don't know what's going on, it's a lot harder to make a plan for it.

I'm the same way. Living in limbo sucks. I always need both long and short range plans. I also plan in my head worst case scenarios complete with resolution for everything I can imagine just so I feel prepared.

I wish you well , hugs.

 

[the captians wench]

Mom helped me to update my resume. Now i want to create one that's a skill based one to put out to other companies. The cronilogical one will be good for the meeting with the owner, but not for anything outside.

But I'm done with this project for the day. The stress is really taking it's tole on me. I have some chores to do and a costume to finish. Think I'll work on those a bit and worry about the other again tomorrow.

 

[the captians wench]

okay, as promised, pics of my new hair

 

[ecstaticsub]

I love your hair!! It is such a wonderful cut for your face, absolutely beautiful

 

[minx1]

oooh its lovely wenchie!

 

[the captians wench]

Thanks.

Jounar is so cute about it. When he told me he liked my hair I giggled and blushed and said I was glad he liked it. He says "no, I really, really, really. like. your hair. if you know what I mean "

BTW, that's also the necklace he sent me for christmas last year. Well, the pendant anyway, the chain I put on it because the one that came with it was too thin and ended up snapping when I wore it the first time.

 

[minx1]

I just went back for another look...is it a heart or a locket...can't quite make it out?

Looks lovely though

 

[the captians wench]

I just went back for another look...is it a heart or a locket...can't quite make it out?

Looks lovely though

*giggles* neither. It's called "the swan pendant". A swan is the logo for Newbridge Silver, where he got the necklace from. It's a swirly design that if you look at with your eyes crossed just right does look like swans. *giggles*

But it's kind of significant because that was the first thing he pointed out to me and I flipped over when I was there. I had never seen live swans before, and they were just floating in the locks that ran along the LUAS for a ways. After the first time he point them out, I would look for them every time we took the tram. He would smile down at me and my enthusiasm for something he thought was such a simple thing.

I miss being there. Now it might be a long while before I get back.


I'm having some sick to my stomach feelings about going in tonight. I was suposed to contact the store manager there and confirm some dates, but I haven't. I just haven't been able to bring myself to contact her and listen to her prattle on like nothing is going on. Playing stupid will be the hardest part, but I'm the only one in this situation that is facing the posibility of a demotion. Though everyone is going to have some benefit cuts.

 

[rida]

Sorry to hear about the job situation. Sending good vibes that things will work out one way or the other for the best.

As for your new haircut ... I concur with everyone: it is lovely! It makes your face thousand times more luminous (don't even know if it is a word in english ... lol)

 

[the captians wench]

Sorry to hear about the job situation. Sending good vibes that things will work out one way or the other for the best.

As for your new haircut ... I concur with everyone: it is lovely! It makes your face thousand times more luminous (don't even know if it is a word in english ... lol)

Thanks, on both accounts.

I just got off the phone with Jounar. He called me this morning, he knew I'd be feeling anxious today. He's such a blessing in my life.

 

[the captians wench]

A tiny bit more information. Still not a lot. And in the mean time I'm on the shift I hate the most.

 

[the captians wench]

So I put my resume out to 3 places last night. I'll do another 3 or so tonight and tomorrow I'll work on getting my "skill based" one done and put out some non-standing-on-my-feet-all-day-type lines out.

I also replied to an email from an online based college that mom found and wants to start. She wants me to sign up so we can be study buddies. *giggles*

But I still don't know what's going to happen and that's driving me crazy!