subs on loan

[ownedsubgal]

Ah, so he isn't actually leaving you alone with strangers as we understood you to be saying, just giving you the impression he will/has? That makes for a whole different situation. As to death not being a huge risk because of the time he does leave you alone with another...it only takes a second and can be so quiet...and the sort of people he chooses? While you can do a lot of checking, even know someone for 20 years, you can never be 100% sure of what another will do simply because it is not under your (or his) control...sometimes the temptation can be too much in the flicker of an eyelid, and unexpected even to the one who does the doing.

Catalina

no he doesn't do the mindgame thing, that isn't really what i meant. when he leaves me alone with another man, he is leaving me alone with another man. however sometimes (especially in the hard times) i get to despairing and feel really and truly alone...as in, maybe he's left me, and i'll never see him again...or maybe he just doesn't care what will happen to me, etc., that sort of "alone." the reality is he has left me alone, but except in the case of trusted friends, he is always within quick driving distance. true, with the wrong sort of person, anything can happen in a short amount of time, and you can never be entirely trusting of people (he never is), so your worst case scenario of death is a possibility. just not enough of a possibility to prevent him from fulfilling his needs and desires.

also there is another reason why he is not usually present, besides increasing my vulnerability and fear: He knows that his presence is restricting to most men, as far as them feeling comfortable enough to use me as they please (within whatever limits he's set). they are guarded...holding something back...just not fully letting go, and this is not something he likes, as it's important to him that i have the experience of serving and being used by men in all their rawness. serving a man who is controlled by another, and knows he's under watch, is one thing. serving that same man when he's given the atmosphere to be free, to an extent, is something else altogether. He only wants me to serve someone who feels completely at ease and natural...and since for most that requires him not being present, that is just the way it is. yes this increases the risks, but that is all part of the beauty in his eyes.

 

[catalina_francisco]

He knows that his presence is restricting to most men, as far as them feeling comfortable enough to use me as they please (within whatever limits he's set). they are guarded...holding something back...just not fully letting go, and this is not something he likes, as it's important to him that i have the experience of serving and being used by men in all their rawness. serving a man who is controlled by another, and knows he's under watch, is one thing. serving that same man when he's given the atmosphere to be free, to an extent, is something else altogether. He only wants me to serve someone who feels completely at ease and natural...and since for most that requires him not being present, that is just the way it is. yes this increases the risks, but that is all part of the beauty in his eyes.

LOL, some men can be that way....others are quite happy to experience what they have been given without restraint...some also under a watchful eye will feel more than happy to show just how masculine they can be.

Not sure if a short drive away would help though as presumably not only would you not let him know you were in trouble, but if you were you would be prevented from doing so anyway, in which case he may as well be in the next state I would expect. It is his choice though and you both seem happy enough with the risks involved.

Catalina

 

[Etoile]

I just want to jump in and say that if anybody thinks osg is exaggerating, I'm pretty sure she's not. I find her to be a person of great integrity and I have met her and her owner multiple times. I know what she says sometimes seems unbelievable but in this case at least she is telling the truth. This is how she lives.

 

[catalina_francisco]

I just want to jump in and say that if anybody thinks osg is exaggerating, I'm pretty sure she's not. I find her to be a person of great integrity and I have met her and her owner multiple times. I know what she says sometimes seems unbelievable but in this case at least she is telling the truth. This is how she lives.

Not sure anyone was questioning the fact it is how they live.

Catalina

 

[Etoile]

Not sure anyone was questioning the fact it is how they live.

Catalina

I didn't say that anyone in this thread had expressed disbelief - I was more focused on the possibility that someone was suspicious without having said anything. A "nip those suspicions in the bud" type post.

 

[ownedsubgal]

thanks callinectes. It didn't sound snarky at all. The phrase isn't the best to use lol. I use the term 'true sub' very loosely,....I know what I mean, I just can't think of the right words at the moment. I guess it makes me question the degree to which I would submit...risking rape or putting me in a dangerous situation is a level I would not be prepared to go to.

well if this topic has taught you something about yourself, that's good, very good...it gives you one more tool with which to avoid an unhappy, unfulfilling relationship. i did come into this way of life with my eyes wide open, knowing him and much of his ways, needs, desires...and has always been made very clear to me how i (or any slave of his) am to conduct myself. this does not mean it has been easy, far from it, but at least i know where he's coming from, and understand and accept my place.

 

[minx1]

well if this topic has taught you something about yourself, that's good, very good...it gives you one more tool with which to avoid an unhappy, unfulfilling relationship. i did come into this way of life with my eyes wide open, knowing him and much of his ways, needs, desires...and has always been made very clear to me how i (or any slave of his) am to conduct myself. this does not mean it has been easy, far from it, but at least i know where he's coming from, and understand and accept my place.

*smile* Oh I am definitely in a learning process. I think I will be for a long long time. I love discussions like this as it helps me learn and gauge how I feel about things I haven't fully considered before.