Depression and Bipolar Support

[gypziedoll]

Trouble is an understatement... lol...

Enraged, violent, suicidal...

Yeah... I'll stick to my drugs, thank you very much...

Yeah...I resemble all of those and then some when not medicated....so I stick to my drugs as well

 

[elizabeth22673]

There have been too many posts left here since my last visit for me to go back and quote every one of them. There *is* one that I want to respond to, but I want to do that in a seperate post...

To everyone who has posted and left a message describing what you're going through, I offer this, for what little bit that I know it might be worth...

It is not *always* going to be like this, if you look for help. That help can be in professional in nature, or it can be finding someone in your life whom you trust enough to talk to, in depth, about the scope and depth of what you're feeling. The things that all of us deal with are not easy to carry alone. We all know this, because we've all been there...

One of the reasons I started this thread was to hopefully give all of us a place to come when we feel as though there's nowhere to turn for understanding. And while this - an online, self-help group of people - is a poor substitute for have a real live person sitting with you and listening, there *are* some who really do have no place else to turn for support...

My PM box is always open to those who wish to utilize it. I think I can safely go out on a limb, and say that most of the other people who've posted here will say the same thing. If anyone here - anyone - needs an ear that will just listen, let you vent, cry, whatever, we need to turn to each other. *We* know better than most how this - depression, bipolar disorder, etc. - affects the lives of those who live with it...

Thank you all for helping to keep this thread alive, and to those who are suffering, please, get some help, professional or otherwise...

BW

BW....you are very wise and know how to put into words what is true. Thank you for that and also for offering your support. *hugs*

 

[gypziedoll]

*hugs* for you Elizabeth

 

[elizabeth22673]

*hugs* for you Elizabeth

thank you sweet lady
and i offer you hugs any time you need 24/7

 

[gypziedoll]

thank you sweet lady
and i offer you hugs any time you need 24/7

thanks honey...I sure could use one right now....*hugs*

 

[elizabeth22673]

thanks honey...I sure could use one right now....*hugs*

then you will get a great big huge one from me

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[gypziedoll]

then you will get a great big huge one from me

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thank you elizabeth......you are such a gem *hugs*

 

[somberReality]

I'm glad to see many giving support to others here. I've had depression all my life but wasn't diagnosed till in my 20's after fighting uterine cancer and winning. My father is bipolar, mom is OCD (obsessive compulsive) and most of my family has some sort of mental issue, albeit depression or anxiety or other things. *hugs* to all, for we are all survivors.

 

[gypziedoll]

I'm glad to see many giving support to others here. I've had depression all my life but wasn't diagnosed till in my 20's after fighting uterine cancer and winning. My father is bipolar, mom is OCD (obsessive compulsive) and most of my family has some sort of mental issue, albeit depression or anxiety or other things. *hugs* to all, for we are all survivors.

and *hugs* to you Somber...bless your heart

 

[Mhorashty]

Thanks for the words, and the support. It's been rough. That link was very helpful. It's something I'm going to have to post that into my private journal. I think that might be something I might print and look at on a daily basis.

Here are two books my therapist suggested to me, that others in similar situations might wanna check out. #1) the Laws of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks. #2) It's Called a Break up because it's Broken by Greg Behrendt and Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt.

I'm a third of the way through Attraction it focuses on how by focusing your energies on the future and in positive ways and by bringing your Inner Being into focus with your desires and wants and needs.

I'm about a chapter into Breakup and it's a funny, self-help book dealing with break-ups.

I will definitely take advantage of those who've offered their support to me. Right now, I'm using some of my more local support. As it turns out I severely underestimated two of my friends, and I'm kinda leaning on them right now.

 

[BlackWolf65]

Thanks for the words, and the support. It's been rough. That link was very helpful. It's something I'm going to have to post that into my private journal. I think that might be something I might print and look at on a daily basis.

Here are two books my therapist suggested to me, that others in similar situations might wanna check out. #1) the Laws of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks. #2) It's Called a Break up because it's Broken by Greg Behrendt and Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt.

I'm a third of the way through Attraction it focuses on how by focusing your energies on the future and in positive ways and by bringing your Inner Being into focus with your desires and wants and needs.

I'm about a chapter into Breakup and it's a funny, self-help book dealing with break-ups.

I will definitely take advantage of those who've offered their support to me. Right now, I'm using some of my more local support. As it turns out I severely underestimated two of my friends, and I'm kinda leaning on them right now.

Don't just "kinda" lean them, man... Utilize them... That's why they call themselves your friends... When we have those in our lives, we're really very lucky...

Again - if you ever want to talk, PM me, or hit my IM - all the info is in my profile...

 

[Guest]

You control the future.......

Great link BW, I have skimmed it and added it to my faves to read properly later.

I wrote myself a list/mantra of values/statements/reminders whatever you want to call them and stuck a copy up on the fridge and at work. I shall copy it here later.

You control your future, your destiny. What you think about comes about. By recording your dreams and goals on paper, you set in motion the process of becoming the person you most want to be. Put your future in good hands - your own. ~ Mark Victor Hansen

Our minds can shape the way a thing will be because we act according to our expectations. ~ Federico Fellini


My glass is never less than half full.

I have a loving and supportive family and circle of friends.

To run one must first be able to walk.

I am good at my job and will make a positive and valuable contribution to the department.

Celebrate achievements, learn from failure don’t beat yourself up about it.

Take control of situations rather than let them control you.

Love is more important than money, only love can make you truly wealthy.

Take one day at a time and when it is gone it is gone!!

Everyone has their own mountain top, each with a different view.

Fools seldom differ.

Face fear, don’t turn from it.

Look forward, plan forward, only look back to learn.

Be positive, stay positive, focus, achieve.

Let people help you, if they offer a hand take it.

Listen to others, help them when you can but don’t take on problems and tasks that are not your responsibility if they are going to cause you harm.

Practice what you preach!!!!

Stay true to yourself, don’t bend and bow to conform to other’s expectations.

 

[phantasi]

Sending a gentle

*bump*

 

[ima6uldv8]

Popping in to join the ranks of the sad. I feel like I just exist now. Nothing inside me but blah. I'm not living life, just passing through it.

 

[OsoTom]

Everybody gets depressed at one point or another, that's just a fact of life. But, when the saddness lasts for weeks or months at a time is a different story.

I'm bipolar. I'm depressed now, but not from a mood swing. My wife of almost 19 years took our 2 kids and moved to Kansas. I found out she was doing this when I called her. She was with the kids boardning a plane that very moment. She left all of her and the kids belongings here. She said she just couldn't take it anymore. She took the kids, in her words "to save them" from me.

She was saving them not from a violent relationship with their father, but having to deal with the mood swings. See, I've never been in a fist fight. I would never hit anyone because I disagreed with what they said. I never spanked my kids or laid a hand on my wife.

The saddness I feel is overwhelming. I'm numb still to be honest. It's confusing enough on its own without wondering if my mood will suddenly change causing different thought processes. But, now the hurt, sadness, and feeling rejected are running the show.

 

[elizabeth22673]

{{{OsoTom}}}

 

[wally2450]

I'm glad to see many giving support to others here. I've had depression all my life but wasn't diagnosed till in my 20's after fighting uterine cancer and winning. My father is bipolar, mom is OCD (obsessive compulsive) and most of my family has some sort of mental issue, albeit depression or anxiety or other things. *hugs* to all, for we are all survivors.

[[[[[[[[[[[HUGS RIGHT BACK!]]]]]]]]]]]

 

[phantasi]

Everybody gets depressed at one point or another, that's just a fact of life. But, when the saddness lasts for weeks or months at a time is a different story.

I'm bipolar. I'm depressed now, but not from a mood swing. My wife of almost 19 years took our 2 kids and moved to Kansas. I found out she was doing this when I called her. She was with the kids boardning a plane that very moment. She left all of her and the kids belongings here. She said she just couldn't take it anymore. She took the kids, in her words "to save them" from me.

She was saving them not from a violent relationship with their father, but having to deal with the mood swings. See, I've never been in a fist fight. I would never hit anyone because I disagreed with what they said. I never spanked my kids or laid a hand on my wife.

The saddness I feel is overwhelming. I'm numb still to be honest. It's confusing enough on its own without wondering if my mood will suddenly change causing different thought processes. But, now the hurt, sadness, and feeling rejected are running the show.

{{{{{Tom}}}}} I can't even imagine how you must feel. Just know you are *not* alone. Your children will not hate you, forget about you, or otherwise "write you off". Be the best man/father you can be - that's all anyone can reasonably ask of you. Hang in there, and always *always* remember you have support here.

 

[elizabeth22673]

giving the thread a bump. sometimes i wish we could all meet in person once a week as therapy and make it a private setting for just us so that we are free to say how we feel w/o others judging us. just sit around and chat and then give/receive much needed hugs and even have time for laughter, not just tears..

hope you all find the bit of strength you need to make it another day...i know myself, some days i am searching for something to cling to

 

[wally2450]

giving the thread a bump. sometimes i wish we could all meet in person once a week as therapy and make it a private setting for just us so that we are free to say how we feel w/o others judging us. just sit around and chat and then give/receive much needed hugs and even have time for laughter, not just tears..

hope you all find the bit of strength you need to make it another day...i know myself, some days i am searching for something to cling to

That is a good idea...

 

[phantasi]

bumpity-bump-bump

 

[phantasi]

'Tis the Season...

...and so I "bump"...

 

[voir]

Hi all.

After having a tough day yesterday I happened on the suicide thread yesteday and couldn't help posting about some of my past. BlackWolf ran across that and sent me a note about this thread. Sounds like what I need, whether I want to admit it or not .

This seems a little odd to me, first because I come to Lit for living my sexual fantasy life, but also because I haven't really discussed this with many people (if at all). My wife is very supportive but has never dealt with this sort of issue before meeting me so she always seems a bit unsure of what to do to help. I have had recurring deep depression problems from what I seems to be inherited bipolar disorder of some degree. It's not severe bipolar, compared to what I understand of it anyway, but there is a family history of bipolar disorder and clinical depression that I see in myself. Over the years I've learned to recognize it and deal with it in various ways. At this point I live somewhere in the overlap between Straight Edge and Buddhism and I get by.

At any rate, good luck to us all and everyone take care of yourselves.

 

[BlackWolf65]

Hi all.

After having a tough day yesterday I happened on the suicide thread yesteday and couldn't help posting about some of my past. BlackWolf ran across that and sent me a note about this thread. Sounds like what I need, whether I want to admit it or not .

This seems a little odd to me, first because I come to Lit for living my sexual fantasy life, but also because I haven't really discussed this with many people (if at all). My wife is very supportive but has never dealt with this sort of issue before meeting me so she always seems a bit unsure of what to do to help. I have had recurring deep depression problems from what I seems to be inherited bipolar disorder of some degree. It's not severe bipolar, compared to what I understand of it anyway, but there is a family history of bipolar disorder and clinical depression that I see in myself. Over the years I've learned to recognize it and deal with it in various ways. At this point I live somewhere in the overlap between Straight Edge and Buddhism and I get by.

At any rate, good luck to us all and everyone take care of yourselves.

voir, welcome to the thread...

I was given a link by another Litster who thought that perhaps this site might be of some use to the people here in this thread:

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy

For the most part, I tend to run on the manic side of this disorder, which is usually more of an annoyance to the people around me than it is debilitating for me. But I know from reading this thread that there are many here who suffer from severe depression. This information could be of use to some, I think...

voir, I urge you to seek some kind of formal diagnosis and treatment, whether that treatment includes medication or not. There are meds that don't mess with your brain, really, they simply correct chemical imbalances that already exist. The fact that you seem to run on the depressive side of this disorder concerns me somewhat, because that can be very dangerous...

Again, welcome to the thread, and please, always feel free to shout out here if you need to talk. the people who post here are extremely supportive...

 

[voir]

You are too kind BlackWolf. Yes, being on the depressive side of things is difficult. I've been consciously fighting this for 20 years now in one way or another (man, that makes me sound old!). I am fortunate in that I care more for my daughter and wife than I do about myself - worse come to worse I know I owe it to them to keep up the fight.

Having said that I'll admit that I go back-and-forth on the question of medical therapy. I'll consider it again once the holidays quiet down I think. For now things are going well enough - my down cycle seems to have broken and I'm just looking forward to surviving the next week or so of holiday and family fun - haha.