Depression. It's a silent killer.

[KarlWolf6]

You have no idea what the fuck you are talking about.

Totally agree, pocketshaver doesn't have a clue. Depression often lingers in the deepest recesses of your mind, waiting for one of your bad days, then makes an appearance. Having depression is totally different to feeling depressed.

 

[KarlWolf6]

I was diagnosed with PDD with disthymia some 14 months ago following therapy and it's shocking to realise I've been dealing with this for 24 years now.

Having the diagnosis is a major help - along with the ongoing therapy - as for awhile I thought I'd completely lost my mind.

Depression is a bastard - don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I know therapy (CBT and IPT) aren't the way for some folks but it worked for me.

Stay strong mate. Been there!

 

[Nightaelf]

people make to much from depression. Always make it some kind of mental thing that's incurable.

Quite often it comes from very basic things. Cant remember what psychologist said we all have basic needs that need to be meant so we can be happy.


Its obvious that certain basic needs aren't being met for you.

I get that you want to make it sound simple, but depression is not simple. It goes way beyond basic needs. I’ve been through it myself, and I can tell you it feels like your own brain is working against you. It’s an illness, not just a checklist that doesn’t line up.

Comments like yours don’t really help, especially not in a thread where people are opening up about their depression. If you don’t have anything meaningful to add, it’s okay to just not comment.

Sure, unmet needs can play a role, but that doesn’t make depression any less real or any less heavy. If you want to bring it up, it would help if you actually gave a source so people can look it up. The way you wrote it now just sounds like a very short, out-of-context version of what Abraham Maslow explained. His idea was that you need to meet the lower levels of the (Maslow) pyramid before you can get to the higher ones.

 

[Nightaelf]

Doing some Swedish Death Cleaning. Sister clued me in, didn't know it was a thing.

Thanks for this!

 

[razor33a]

Thanks for this!

The darkly funny thing is I'm in a pretty bad nosedive. She has no clue so it would be one of those nervous "yah, I'm um doing that, that's it" laughs if she was here. Don't know what the weekend will bring, getting to "shit or get off the pot" time.

 

[Pad_Foot]

Lit is not the best therapy nor can you find dependable free therapist willing to devote their days and nights to keeping you from your dark side.

 

[Nightaelf]

Lit is not the best therapy nor can you find dependable free therapist willing to devote their days and nights to keeping you from your dark side.

Interesting comment, but I am not sure who it is directed at, since you did not quote anyone. Is it meant for everyone who has shared in this thread?

Also, I do not really see why this has to be framed as if people here are looking for ‘free therapists.’ What I read are people exchanging experiences, supporting each other, and often alongside the fact that most already are in therapy.

It gives me the feeling that you overlook the obvious: the majority of people here are thoughtful, capable adults who happen to struggle with a mental illness or a difficult period in life. Sharing and listening to each other does not replace professional help, but it can be valuable in its own right.

 

[Nightaelf]

The darkly funny thing is I'm in a pretty bad nosedive. She has no clue so it would be one of those nervous "yah, I'm um doing that, that's it" laughs if she was here. Don't know what the weekend will bring, getting to "shit or get off the pot" time.

The best way is just to start with a drawer or a little cabinet. Every beginning is hard, but that’s true for almost everything. And if you find out it’s not for you, at least you can honestly say you gave it a try. After that, you can just stay happily on your own pot...

 

[Wetkitty09]

Lit is not the best therapy nor can you find dependable free therapist willing to devote their days and nights to keeping you from your dark side.

While it may be true that there’s few therapists on Lit there is a community of people who care and are willing to listen. Sometimes that is enough to get a person through the dark to find the help they need, whether it’s a therapist or drugs.
I have found in my battle with depression that often just having someone willing to be there for me gives me the strength to keep going and use the tools, that I often forget that I have, to get through.
This is a powerful resource that has helped others in the past and should be recognized as such.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I’m moved to the new place and spent the evening enjoying the peace of this new beginning.
Sometimes the decisions we make to take care of ourselves are the scariest.

Be safe out there.
Love you

 

[James_Bassytian]

It's been a while; I've been away focusing on off-site endeavors.

An update: I'm finally on an antidepressant that is helping! Last week, I felt a heavy weight lift from my mind and body. I had held onto this weight for so long that I didn't realize it was there until it was gone! The next day, I noticed that my body moved faster and more fluidly, it was almost like I became younger! Not drastically, mind you, but I stopped feeling like I was older than I actually am. The therapist said that having depression is like trying to walk through peanut butter (thanks for ruining peanut butter for me, doc...), so this feeling is a great sign!

I realize that your results may vary, but please don't give up if you are fighting this shit! Find a doctor and ask about GeneSight. It will help narrow down the many medications out there to help find what will work for you. And don't forget talk therapy, meds alone help but they can only do so much.

And, I've read some of the earlier comments, THIS thread is a great place to reach out to find someone to talk to!!

 

[Wetkitty09]

It's been a while; I've been away focusing on off-site endeavors.

An update: I'm finally on an antidepressant that is helping! Last week, I felt a heavy weight lift from my mind and body. I had held onto this weight for so long that I didn't realize it was there until it was gone! The next day, I noticed that my body moved faster and more fluidly, it was almost like I became younger! Not drastically, mind you, but I stopped feeling like I was older than I actually am. The therapist said that having depression is like trying to walk through peanut butter (thanks for ruining peanut butter for me, doc...), so this feeling is a great sign!

I realize that your results may vary, but please don't give up if you are fighting this shit! Find a doctor and ask about GeneSight. It will help narrow down the many medications out there to help find what will work for you. And don't forget talk therapy, meds alone help but they can only do so much.

And, I've read some of the earlier comments, THIS thread is a great place to reach out to find someone to talk to!!

Hello Bass. So good to see you here. I’m so happy you found a fit for the meds.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I know the feeling when weight lifts. Moving to my own space has done that for me.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[kyblue12]

Interesting comment, but I am not sure who it is directed at, since you did not quote anyone. Is it meant for everyone who has shared in this thread?

Also, I do not really see why this has to be framed as if people here are looking for ‘free therapists.’ What I read are people exchanging experiences, supporting each other, and often alongside the fact that most already are in therapy.

It gives me the feeling that you overlook the obvious: the majority of people here are thoughtful, capable adults who happen to struggle with a mental illness or a difficult period in life. Sharing and listening to each other does not replace professional help, but it can be valuable in its own right.

I think for a lot of the people who stop by to see what this thread is it gets uncomfortable fast to see us with out the mask so many of us show the everyday world. I understand for many of them they don't have a great frame of reference for trying to understand whats happening, but I think all that is actually right here in the posts and in just talking to us.

Its got to be kinda scary though when you've thought "Oh, they're just sad. They can fix that by doing X, Y, and Z.", then arriving here and finding out we all spend varying amounts of time essentially under siege from our own brains and brain chemistry. For some they will keep trying to shove us into the just fix it box. Others will read and discuss and learn that we are all an amazingly strong lot. We, more often than not, fight the fight that lets us get up in the morning and be a part of the world. We find ways to cope (hopefully healthy, but too often not) when we can't make that fight. We hope that life will let us learn to use any resource we can, therapy.... meds..... this thread... to help us in that fight.

I don't often post in this thread, but I do check in from time to time. Everyone here has helped me in bad times just by being in this thread and sharing.

 

[sister jenny]

September is Suicide Prevention Month.
If you are struggling know that help is available.

I know from personal experience and several failed attempts that a lot of times all you need is someone that listens.
You don’t want answers or solutions, just someone who is there, that listens, that takes you serious.

Of course it’s a lot more than than that, and not so simple. But its a start.

Please be there for someone.
Listen.

And please ask for help if you need it.

 

[EricaAnna]

September is Suicide Prevention Month.
If you are struggling know that help is available.

I know from personal experience and several failed attempts that a lot of times all you need is someone that listens.
You don’t want answers or solutions, just someone who is there, that listens, that takes you serious.

Of course it’s a lot more than than that, and not so simple. But its a start.

Please be there for someone.
Listen.

And please ask for help if you need it.

This this this!!

 

[Ratchetman1982]

Truth comes in all shapes and sizes

 

[Bloodandglitter]

I struggle everyday with anxiety. It gets really bad at work. I think my meds need to either be increased or changed

 

[James_Bassytian]

September is Suicide Prevention Month.
If you are struggling know that help is available.

I know from personal experience and several failed attempts that a lot of times all you need is someone that listens.
You don’t want answers or solutions, just someone who is there, that listens, that takes you serious.

Of course it’s a lot more than than that, and not so simple. But its a start.

Please be there for someone.
Listen.

And please ask for help if you need it.

On June 28th, I sat in my desk chair with a shotgun pointed below my chin. I couldn’t work up the nerve to pull the trigger

On the week of July 25th (my birthday), I made plans to hang myself from an overpass that morning. In my distorted thinking, I thought I was a “mistake” and that I should “correct the mistake” on the anniversary of my birth.

What saved me, besides finding the right meds, were people on this very site who cared enough to reach out when I posted dark messages, and published a poem that served as a suicide note to Literotica.

Please, be an angel for someone. And if you need one yourself, reach out and let one find you!

 

[James_Bassytian]

I struggle everyday with anxiety. It gets really bad at work. I think my meds need to either be increased or changed

Ask your doctor about GeneSight. They swab your mouth and use your DNA to find the medications that will work best for you. It covers antidepressants, anti-anxiety meds, and a few others!

 

[Bloodandglitter]

Ask your doctor about GeneSight. They swab your mouth and use your DNA to find the medications that will work best for you. It covers antidepressants, anti-anxiety meds, and a few others!

I did that years ago and what they have me on matches what I should be on. I think it might be the Paxil again. When I took it before, I got really angry towards the end before they took me off it. And I'm at the stage where everything pisses me off at work and I don't know how to handle my rage now

 

[James_Bassytian]

I did that years ago and what they have me on matches what I should be on. I think it might be the Paxil again. When I took it before, I got really angry towards the end before they took me off it. And I'm at the stage where everything pisses me off at work and I don't know how to handle my rage now

I have a coworker who is in a similar situation. Her meds are not working, and she has reached her breaking point because of work and is having to take an LOA to calm down and hopefully find new meds that will help her.

Is that an option for you?

 

[Bloodandglitter]

I have a coworker who is in a similar situation. Her meds are not working, and she has reached her breaking point because of work and is having to take an LOA to calm down and hopefully find new meds that will help her.

Is that an option for you?

Not really. I see my dr in a couple weeks so I will ask then. Some of the meds I have are working so that makes me a little relieved. I am thankful I have my own office with a door!

 

[Nightaelf]

Truth comes in all shapes and sizes

Thank you, it made me laugh so hard!

 

[Nightaelf]

On June 28th, I sat in my desk chair with a shotgun pointed below my chin. I couldn’t work up the nerve to pull the trigger

On the week of July 25th (my birthday), I made plans to hang myself from an overpass that morning. In my distorted thinking, I thought I was a “mistake” and that I should “correct the mistake” on the anniversary of my birth.

What saved me, besides finding the right meds, were people on this very site who cared enough to reach out when I posted dark messages, and published a poem that served as a suicide note to Literotica.

Please, be an angel for someone. And if you need one yourself, reach out and let one find you!

I’m truly moved by what you’ve shared. It’s brave of you to write this so openly, and I’m glad you’re still here. Thank you for sharing and for reminding us how much we need each other.