Rambling Rosie's Retreat

Hi everyone!
Hi, Wonky! Good to see you. 😊

It's very much appreciated 😁

Yeah I'm doing ok. Trying to sort myself out. Gym sessions and slow house decluttering and coursework. Just referred for some more therapy too.

I'd much prefer a Fairy Godmother to just Bibbety Bobbety Boo all that shit for me but I guess the journey is part of the reward or some such nonsense 🤣
I need some of that Bibbety Bobbety Boo action.
 
Hi Donks :) Here's some sheeps. One or two might be underage, but they've got their onesies on and we can't see their faces, so I think it's okay.

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I was having a conversation recently with a friend about using household objects as sex toys. As you do!

And I remembered a little while back I had lots of fun being challenged to edge myself in different ways over the course of two days.
It was a great time and I had to get creative with what to use. I wrote about it all on here - around page 10 ish if anyone needs a laugh - and the whole experience is really special to me.

I feel though that I might have lost that part of myself, or more likely that she's hiding. My mojo is clearly hibernating and I haven't been able to connect with my open, subby side very effectively in quite some time.

I don't know if that's why I'm not here as much or if stepping back has caused the change but I know I want to get that back. My early days on Lit I was playful and up for fun, happy to talk to most people and just enjoying the whole experience of things this weird little forum has to offer.

But two years later and I'm barely involved.
I don't know how to get back into it.
I don't know how to be fun again.
I feel like I'm a spectator watching everyone else when I used to be a part of the action.

I don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe it's because there really isn't anywhere else I can put it. Sometimes it helps to pull the thoughts out of my head so I can see them more clearly.

And I know it isn't just thread life I'm neglecting. There are some of you I love messaging with but I struggle with feeling like I have nothing to say and so I tell myself that saying nothing is for the best. I actually had a conversation with someone else about this very thing where they were the one feeling whiny and as I tried to give advice and encouragement I realised what a giant hypocrite I was being.

I want to be open, friendly, fun Rosie again. Well I'm still friendly I think but the other things need work.

And I know I don't need to explain myself. But I feel stuck. And I don't know how to change that.

How do you manage when you get stuck in a rut?
 
The first step to getting past a rut is recognising it so, in that regard, congratulations. You are one step closer to getting past it.

Sometimes it's just a question of pushing yourself to do something out of your routine. CBT practice often involves keeping a simple log of what you did in the morning, afternoon, and evening and rating how happy it made you. It says that there are tasks you have to do to maintain your existence, tasks that are nice to do when you feel you have the time and stuff that's purely for enjoyment. Keeping track of how you spend each day helps you identify each of these and help you start to balance your days with some of everything.
 
The first step to getting past a rut is recognising it so, in that regard, congratulations. You are one step closer to getting past it.

Sometimes it's just a question of pushing yourself to do something out of your routine. CBT practice often involves keeping a simple log of what you did in the morning, afternoon, and evening and rating how happy it made you. It says that there are tasks you have to do to maintain your existence, tasks that are nice to do when you feel you have the time and stuff that's purely for enjoyment. Keeping track of how you spend each day helps you identify each of these and help you start to balance your days with some of everything.
Oh that's an interesting idea.
Last time I had cbt I had to make a colour chart of my mood over a week. Greys and blacks were bad, yellow was good, blue was meh, green was ok and red was angry. I honestly expected it to be like that Stones song or the sketch from the Fast Show and just be black everywhere but there were lots of little pockets of yellows and greens and that's because I think I focus too much on the negative instead of the reality. It really surprised me.
So maybe your idea will help me focus on what I am doing, not what I think I should be doing.

And yeah joining the gym was my big push at something new so hopefully I'm in the right track?
 
I was having a conversation recently with a friend about using household objects as sex toys. As you do!

And I remembered a little while back I had lots of fun being challenged to edge myself in different ways over the course of two days.
It was a great time and I had to get creative with what to use. I wrote about it all on here - around page 10 ish if anyone needs a laugh - and the whole experience is really special to me.

I feel though that I might have lost that part of myself, or more likely that she's hiding. My mojo is clearly hibernating and I haven't been able to connect with my open, subby side very effectively in quite some time.

I don't know if that's why I'm not here as much or if stepping back has caused the change but I know I want to get that back. My early days on Lit I was playful and up for fun, happy to talk to most people and just enjoying the whole experience of things this weird little forum has to offer.

But two years later and I'm barely involved.
I don't know how to get back into it.
I don't know how to be fun again.
I feel like I'm a spectator watching everyone else when I used to be a part of the action.

I don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe it's because there really isn't anywhere else I can put it. Sometimes it helps to pull the thoughts out of my head so I can see them more clearly.

And I know it isn't just thread life I'm neglecting. There are some of you I love messaging with but I struggle with feeling like I have nothing to say and so I tell myself that saying nothing is for the best. I actually had a conversation with someone else about this very thing where they were the one feeling whiny and as I tried to give advice and encouragement I realised what a giant hypocrite I was being.

I want to be open, friendly, fun Rosie again. Well I'm still friendly I think but the other things need work.

And I know I don't need to explain myself. But I feel stuck. And I don't know how to change that.

How do you manage when you get stuck in a rut?
I truly didn't realise you were feeling like this Rose, I always find you friendly and open to new people and always replying to a conversation ever if it is something unimportant at the time.
 
I truly didn't realise you were feeling like this Rose, I always find you friendly and open to new people and always replying to a conversation ever if it is something unimportant at the time.
I always try to be and I appreciate you saying that, thank you.
I think my issue with myself is that I mostly stay here these days instead of involving myself in the other threads and I feel like I'm missing out. But I'm working on it!
 
I always try to be and I appreciate you saying that, thank you.
I think my issue with myself is that I mostly stay here these days instead of involving myself in the other threads and I feel like I'm missing out. But I'm working on it!
I'll have to keep an eye out for you in Titty Tuesday next week then?🤣🤣🤣😍
 
I love staying away on company expenses! It’s only a travel lodge but someone cooks my supper and breakfast and I don’t have to wash up! And the shower was spotless… so needed it!
 
Oops just caught the previous convo^^ 🫢

I think the process outlined in cbt is fine if it works for you and if it doesn’t it might get you thinking creatively for a method. Don’t worry too much about it because that’ll become an impediment in itself. Do silly things, watch spring happening…

As for Lit , my own experience matches yours. It used to be fun and occasionally I cried laughing. I think that’s a trend and maybe if people want to chat they use a different medium? I looked at a discord server to join but when I opened a page it’d had 451 responses in an hour 🫨 It’s all kids so I can’t understand much of it anyway ( Old at 30yrs )
 
Oops just caught the previous convo^^ 🫢

I think the process outlined in cbt is fine if it works for you and if it doesn’t it might get you thinking creatively for a method. Don’t worry too much about it because that’ll become an impediment in itself. Do silly things, watch spring happening…

As for Lit , my own experience matches yours. It used to be fun and occasionally I cried laughing. I think that’s a trend and maybe if people want to chat they use a different medium? I looked at a discord server to join but when I opened a page it’d had 451 responses in an hour 🫨 It’s all kids so I can’t understand much of it anyway ( Old at 30yrs )
Old?
 
Page 8, actually.

More specifically, post 188 onwards.
Thank you for fact checking! 😁
I find my mojo fluctuates depending on stress and all sorts of other things in my life, but it never disappears completely.
Oh I don't think it's gone gone. Just out of service?
Are you sleeping enough? Well enough?
Nope. I sleep like crap. But I limit my screen time before bed. I've cut down on my caffeine. And I'm trying to be more active. Not helping with sleep but it'll be helping with energy levels maybe?
You could just, "do it"?
Eek!
We're not judging you, if that's what you're worried about.
Oh I'm plenty capable of judging myself without worrying about that. I just feel boring and out of the loop on good places to go.
Ba dum tish!
 
Nods- apparently 😁 I don’t follow Andrew Tate so I’m a lefty woke loser .
Thank god!!
Old is going to the doctors with a pain and they say your back spine is fusing, or the hospital cos of hearing loss over 30 years in a factory environment, or even telling them you're bladder leaks.

Anyway enough about my medical history
 
My Mother's Day was mixed.

Got some gifts for my Mam and got my Dad to wrap them. Wasn't able to see her in person as they live a few hours away but we had a good phone call.

I gave myself a day of good food and music.
Kiddo didn't really get me anything which hurt. Feel like I'm being entitled but some token to show I'm not completely fucking things up would have been nice. He did do me a "card" (folded paper that he drew on in a panicked rush last night) which is more than he managed last year I guess.

I miss the cards he made me in primary school. They were gorgeous 🥰
 
My Mother's Day was mixed.

Got some gifts for my Mam and got my Dad to wrap them. Wasn't able to see her in person as they live a few hours away but we had a good phone call.

I gave myself a day of good food and music.
Kiddo didn't really get me anything which hurt. Feel like I'm being entitled but some token to show I'm not completely fucking things up would have been nice. He did do me a "card" (folded paper that he drew on in a panicked rush last night) which is more than he managed last year I guess.

I miss the cards he made me in primary school. They were gorgeous 🥰
My daughter made a cards with our Granddaughter for our mothers and my wife with her hand print on the front of each one
 
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